Dr. Figuring-things-aut

(fully-vaccinated!) #PhDone '21. late-id #ActuallyAutistic. Burnout & depression lived experience. #neurodivergent 🎧 #womanInSTEM 👩‍🔬🧬 #crafter 🪡🧵🧶 #catLover 🐈‍⬛ #gaming 🎮🎲 #atheist #childfree #music 🎶🎸 #metal 🤘

Abortion is healthcare.
Trans rights are human rights.
Disability rights are human rights.
Black lives matter.
Smash the patriarchy.
Get vaccinated!
Nazi scum, fuck off! 🖕
Billionaires should not exist.

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2025-05-29 19:26:45

Since "Fuck." Was done, I was feeling the post-project emptiness. I used the momentum to make a thin fleece lining for the mottens I've knitted a few years back & that were not great in our windy weather. I had no idea how this is typically done, I just went on vibes. Cut out the main pieces by tracing the mitten, sew around the edges, same for the thumbs, then cutting a slit and whip-stitching the thumbs on. Then I whip-stitched the lining into the mitten et voila!
#handmade #knitting #lining
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2025-05-14 13:53:13

PSA: you're allowed to play and enjoy games on the easiest settings. This is your free time and you're not less of a gamer for playing games the way they are the most enjoyable for you.
Brought to you by me who has gotten back into Raft on the "peaceful" setting. I don't want to fight sharks, I just want to fish for resources and build. 🤷‍♀️ So that's what I'm doing.

2025-04-02 07:13:47

At the doctor's office waiting now. Wish me luck!

2025-04-02 04:42:24

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@nprofile…85tn there is something really sweet about "I made up this award so I can award you with it"

2025-03-28 08:03:18

I'm off work today & while I did wake up after a short sleep AGAIN, today I'm fully prepared to nap! SO & I have planned a LotR extended edition marathon complemented with foods from or inspired by the Elder scrolls cookbook we have & what we call "Tavern/peasant food". Cos this is just the kinda nerdy-ass household we are. Shepherds pie, chicken dumplings, cured meats, cheese, veggies, mulled wine, spiced cider, bread... I'm so excited!!!

2025-03-25 06:06:51

Life advice be like: "discover your purpose in life, what makes you wake up in the morning?"
Me: anxiety. Anxiety wakes me up in the morning.
#ActuallyAutistic

2024-11-27 09:19:05

Please clap, I made a phone call! 🙈 Had some issues with buying tickets online (Christmas present for my parents) and had to resort to calling and fixing it via phone. The woman was very nice and helpful but I felt so incredibly tense the whole time. Mind you, people in my mother tongue are so incredibly formal, I have regular reverse-culture shock trying my best to comply. As soon as I hung up I just felt the pressure escape my body 💨 oufff! Hate it!
#ActuallyAutistic

2024-11-23 09:16:32

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@nprofile…xcsy I mean, why mess with good?

2024-10-12 16:14:30

Soooooo, it turned out really well!!! Look!!!
The light is so much more pleasant now!
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2024-10-04 07:03:59

I used my morning spoons to write a follow-up inquiry about work accommodations. The more I read the law and regulations here the more disappointed I am in my company. And kinda angry.
I want to make some waves, wish me spoons!
#ActuallyAutistic

2024-10-02 08:07:00

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@npub1fgl…4jl4 no of course not, let's not support disabled people, let's make them jump through hoops that require them to do things that are draining for them! 😫🙄

2024-10-02 07:58:05

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@npub1fgl…4jl4 we have a duty of the employer to make work accommodations but we don't have the same framework as UK reasonable adjustments. So I am not sure. They could argue that they would manage it by flexible work arrangements and more time WFH or the likes. It's also possible they would do it if I had a note from a psychiatrist or something, but the answer was very short and uninformative, so I will follow up when I have the spoons.

2024-10-02 07:43:30

Ugh... Been investigating possibilities of lowering work hours as a work accommodation. After further drilling I got a "we don't do that". Without any explanation or "we try to solve like this instead" etc... Which pisses me off. Don't have the spoons to follow up right now but ARGH!!!!
#ActuallyAutistic

2024-09-24 15:28:11

I am on the struggle bus. Both physically, as in on a bus that's in a traffic jam and almost doubled the time my commute usually takes and mentally - I am near a fucking meltdown again. If anyone with pungent perfume kindly could stop using public transport, that 'd be grand.
#ActuallyAutistic

2024-08-27 06:10:23

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@npub1rax…8p4w you are not your job! Even if a capitalist society works hard on connecting a person's value to what they can exploit. Has nothing to do with you and your inherent worth! 💚

2024-08-24 10:17:20

Been really enjoying the "try to do something" instead of trying to do too much & failing approach for working out as well as setting low expectations. Since I went back to work this week I aimed for at least training once, which I managed in Tuesday night, then without any pressure I did a workout yesterday cos SO & I had separate plans for the night & this morning I felt hungry for more & did another one. I look up whatever I feel like doing then and there & do it.

2024-02-25 09:30:00

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@npub1fgl…4jl4 yeah, it's very often the disappointment in my disability to reach my own standards... Trying to be more gently with myself but it's difficult!

2024-02-25 09:30:00

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@npub1fgl…4jl4 yeah, it's very often the disappointment in my disability to reach my own standards... Trying to be more gently with myself but it's difficult!

2024-02-25 09:05:40

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@npub1fgl…4jl4 yeah, I think I experience the same thing!

2024-02-25 08:06:58

Been thinking a bit about #perfectionism and being #ActuallyAutistic.. I can definitely see how we may try to overcompensate with perfectionism and or have the world expect perfection in order to accept the other facets of ourselves. I am wondering though #askingAutistics if it in part also stems from our all or nothing thinking. That doing things half-assed usually may not be in our nature. What do you think?

2024-02-25 08:06:58

2023-09-12 11:17:49

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@npub1yse…jaay wow! Well done!
I used to deal with the same that insurance demands yearly checkups. Where I live now it's not regulated like that but my dentist actually decides at each appointment when I should come back for a checkup and then they usually contact me with a proposed appointment. Which like works so much better for me than me keeping track!

2023-08-04 16:38:47

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@npub16mz…hm5n Oooh you look so happy 😊💚