Adam

Skeptic. Voter. Atheist. Liberal. Egalitarian. Science is real. I'm 39 from Toledo, Ohio. I'm nowhere near as smart as I think I am. And I give a damn about those that I share this world with.

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2024-02-12 17:44:05

I think it's honestly time for me to leave this ap.
It sounds weird, but all it does now is cause me personal pain. Pain of my own making, like all my pain, but pain nonetheless.
I found a new place to try to start over and move forward. Hopefully i can learn and grow from all the destruction I've caused.
I still love you.
Goodbye.

2024-02-07 15:26:46

Spoiler alert, i didn't delete.
If you don't want to be my friend anymore, i understand. It's 100% my fault.
But i do want people in my life.
So anyone that's wants to be my friend, I'm a nice guy with a lot of issues.

2024-02-03 17:28:26

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@npub17sh…6e06 i feel 10 feet tall and bulletproof. I feel like i can take on the world.
Realistically, I'm just a dude recovering from a shoulder injury that needs to calm the eff down, lol

2024-02-03 17:13:53

Looking back over my posts the past 24 hours, the mood I'm in, and how talkative i am, I'm definitely in a manic cycle.
I'm going to mitigate this one. I might ramble, but i won't drink, i won't go crazy. I'm on new meds and i can pass this test.

2024-02-03 17:02:27

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@npub1zdp…vqv8 I've seen many on mastodon state that they find the lack of an algorithm to be a relief.
I'm on your side. Suggest me people and topics and arguments! Lol

2024-01-21 23:41:39

One more frustration post, then I'll chill for a bit...
When you enter a voting booth, you're not just deciding for yourself. You're establishing policy for *other people*.
I'm asking that we think beyond us-vs-them modality and actually think about what will help not only us, but those around us.
You may have great health insurance... others don't.
You may not have financially crippling student loans... others do.
You may be 22 in great shape with no pre-existing conditions... others aren't in that position.
You might not be a terrified pregnant woman with no options... other people are.
Think of not just yourself when you vote.

2024-01-21 08:47:35

The enormous unlikely-hood of your own existence should give you enough pause to cripple you with awe.
Not only was half of your genetic code contributed by a single sperm that made it out of 40 million to 1 billion, depending on your source ("source" works on multiple levels, here), but you're on earth. Do you have any goddamn clue how insanely rare earth is? How many things had to perfectly align for this whacky little ball of dirty iron to have the biosphere that it has? Google "the Fermi paradox" and "rare earth hypothesis."
We see no evidence of Dyson swarms.
There's probably less than one technological civilization per every 10,000 galaxies.
It's so unbelievably unlikely for you to exist that holy goddamn wonderous hell, if anything could be accurately described as a miracle, you could be.

2024-01-16 16:45:36

I'll be repeating this reality quite often for the next year because it bears repeating.
If you abstain from voting, you are actively and intentionally casting your vote for Donald Trump.
If you vote third party, you are actively and intentionally casting your vote for Donald Trump.

2024-01-04 22:16:12

Are life coaches just people who wanted to be therapists but were too grandiose to believe they needed school?

2023-12-20 12:52:36

Start back in group this morning, finally.
Other options simply weren't finacially feasible. Even with insurance covering the bulk, the remainder of the cost for a residential program (in-state with a good reputation) was entirely unrealistic.
I've been kinda white knuckling it past few days. Spent a lot of time sitting in one place in utter silence. Not a great few days.
But, this morning, I'm back in group. And starting tomorrow, I'm back at work (again.)
So things are looking up. Just gotta keep working for it.

2023-12-11 02:42:18

Apparently, ducks like cuddling, too.
https://media.universeodon.com/media_attachments/files/111/559/477/351/561/468/original/21090ff512531b1d.jpg

2023-12-02 09:20:01

They drew blood. My BAC is .471. That's way beyond a lethal dose.
.471 Jesus fucking Christ

2023-12-01 05:13:31

Is do fucking anything for you people. FUCKING ANYTHING. If give my fucking life just to keep you safe. ID DO FUCKING ANYTHING FOR YOU!!! FUCKING ANYTHING!!! But you couldn't give a fuck about me.

2023-11-26 18:46:26

If you choose to abstain from voting, you are actively and intentionally casting your vote for Donald Trump.
If you choose to vote third party, you are actively and intentionally casting your vote for Donald Trump.

2023-11-25 22:10:28

"You can't have your cake and eat it, too..."
What if you just got two cakes?

2023-11-23 06:45:03

God. Fucking. Damnit.
All my fucking whining amounts to nothing.

2023-11-13 19:23:44

I can't be the only one who thinks it's fucking absurd that a man who has multiple indictments for insurrection and attempting to falsify election results is the current frontrunner for 2024.
Why do we put up with this shit?

2023-11-09 21:45:08

Blue no matter who is still in full effect, people. We're not out of the woods yet.

2023-11-07 22:58:44

Today, I voted for my state to treat women like human beings.
It's really fucking weird that this was necessary in 2023.

2023-11-04 11:14:45

Elections this Tuesday.
We have the numbers. That is without question.
What is very much in question is whether or not we're going to use those numbers.
At the end of the day, it's all just words and whining unless it's backed up by voting.
We have the numbers. Overwhelmingly. We just have to use them.
If you say you care about things like healthcare and equality and protecting vulnerable groups and the planet itself, etc... if you claim to care about any of those things, or any of the other million issues that need addressed... if you claim to care, but you don't vote, you're equally as full of shit as the republicans are and twice as dangerous.

2023-11-03 20:48:17

Woodpecker in the tree right outside our room
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2023-10-27 23:09:09

Saw a guy today with a shirt that read "Every single person you meet is fighting a battle that you know nothing about"
I think the hardest part in struggling with mental health, at least for me, is finding the *desire* to keep fighting. Every day, I have to actively choose not to give up. Sometimes many times a day. Sometimes many times an hour.
It's easy to feel isolated when you're struggling. Like you're the only one that can't seem to get it together.
Lots of people have gone through similar. Many of them made it to the other side.

2023-10-19 01:22:03

Homeschooling should be regulated. John Oliver recently did a thing on it. Then there's this:
https://media.universeodon.com/media_attachments/files/111/259/059/073/207/826/original/7f10e9985ecdefa1.webp

2023-10-10 05:42:59

I had a truly wonderful experience tonight.

2023-10-09 02:07:10

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@npub1gg8…439g well i had an oatmeal raisin cookie earlier, that's what initiated this thought track. I also really like raisin bran cereal

2023-10-09 01:55:07

I enjoy raisins. I always forget about them until i have the occasion to have some, and then i remember that i really like them. But i never buy them myself.

2023-10-07 04:41:56

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@npub1200…aqy2 i mean, I'm always down for getting high. And for having a go at anything pop culture.
I've never actually watched Suits, but i can fake it if you hum a few bars.

2023-10-04 16:34:30

Finally had to get honest about my sour patch habit and started buying in bulk.
The bag is bigger than my head. And I have an enormous expansiondamn head.
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2023-10-04 03:00:45

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@npub1gg8…439g absolutely no idea whatsoever. Maybe just part of my cycle? Honestly, I don't know. I'm just sorta going with it.

2023-10-04 02:43:19

I haven't been very noisy on here lately. That could either be a good sign or a bad sign with me.
I'm happy to report that it's a good sign. I've been in a good place this week. I have even had a reprieve from that one constant.

2023-10-01 16:20:19

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@npub1gg8…439g @npub1xg6…e6jt that's not cool to Beavis.
Beavis and his equally unfortunately named buddy provided me with hours of misguided and unsupervised entertainment as a child.

2023-09-27 01:21:10

Cogito, ergo sum.

2023-09-26 03:53:11

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@npub1gg8…439g I'm going to hazard a guess that that means you liked it? Lol

2023-09-26 00:57:06

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@npub1gg8…439g Good Grief by Cleopatrick
https://youtu.be/iSa1TWwFC-c?si=oqKBvA-4A3IyfOa6

2023-09-26 00:45:32

Had my headphones in dance-walking down the street not paying attention at all...
I look up and there's a couple walking their dog staring at me with very amused expressions on their faces.
I kinda paused and looked at them back for a second, then resumed dance-walking down the street.

2023-09-25 00:32:51

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@npub1gg8…439g he was quite pleasant and shared a brief anecdote about Gates McFadden, lol

2023-09-24 23:28:51

I met Data.
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2023-09-24 23:10:32

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@npub1gg8…439g i met John de Lancie and Brent Spiner, so that was pretty cool for a star trek nerd.
Some of the outfits people were wearing were pretty amazing.
I enjoyed several of the panels.
But I would've been fine just going for the day, ya know? Plus, Cinci comic expo isn't exactly the San Diego comicon.
But it was cool.
Edit: oh, and i randomly got told by a woman that my hair was hot, so that was fun.

2023-09-24 21:19:06

So glad to be home. That was an utterly exhausting 3 days. Emotionally so.

2023-09-22 02:25:20

My little respite
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2023-09-21 00:38:51

@npub1gg8…439g you're my sister from another mister.
Once again, I'm stunned at how some aspects of our youths seem to be exactly the same.
(For context, we discovered that we both had a similar obsession with the same indie film: Waking Life.)

2023-09-17 14:40:54

The reason I'm more concerned with the crimes of the Trump children than the Biden children is simple: Biden never installed his offspring in the government. Trump did.
I do think gun laws should be taken extremely seriously in this country. I also think gun laws should be applied fairly and universally, not politically.
If Hunter fucked up on a gun possession, that's between him and the state where the offense occurred. It has nothing to do with the White House.

2023-09-16 05:29:45

@npub1gg8…439g love the new pic!

2023-09-15 00:19:37

Was walking past a dollar tree. There's this rugged old blanket in the cart return little shelter. It was moving.
I walked up to the blanket and said "hey man" a guy about my age that had seen better times popped his head out, said "hey man."
He just looked at me and said hi. Didn't ask for anything.
I gave him all the physical cash i had on me and walked away.
Now, I'm about a quarter mile away, and I've stopped.
Was that enough?
Edit: wasn't a huge amount, like 64 bucks. But i feel compelled to go back and talk with the man. I think I'm going to turn around.
Edit 2: I'm not sharing this to virtue signal. I'm legitimately seeking advice for how to be of actual help to the guy in real time.
Edit 3: i ended up walking home. I don't know if i could've helped him more. I'm a little ashamed that i didn't try.

2023-09-13 21:46:20

The political landscape is terrifying.
I've recently had my head so far up my own... you get the idea. I haven't been paying attention to the broader movements lately. Till now.
Terrible things are happening all around me.

2023-09-11 22:54:56

Some horrific shit happened to a lot of innocent people and I'm not tying to make fun of that or downplay that. I'm simply saying that in addition to that...
On this day, 22 years ago, gas prices quadrupled. And stayed that way.

2023-09-08 02:20:25

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@npub1gg8…439g @npub1zc4…mc2z @npub149u…nps4 uh oh, that's foreboding

2023-09-08 01:25:51

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@npub1zc4…mc2z @npub1gg8…439g @npub149u…nps4 i think I'll check this out! I'll actually be down at the Cincinnati comicon that weekend, but 9pm eastern seems like it'll fit right in.
Edit: I'm gonna pay to meet Brent Spiner. Total nerd moment.

2023-09-08 01:01:43

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@npub1gg8…439g nice new pic. You're looking great!

2023-09-07 23:52:44

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@npub1gg8…439g awesome! Wishing you all the best!

2023-09-07 23:50:04

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@npub1zc4…mc2z @npub1gg8…439g @npub149u…nps4 this... actually seems quite interesting.

2023-09-06 03:12:47

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@npub1gg8…439g meeting with multiple counselors to set up a treatment plan that takes insurance into account.
We're basically having a strategy meeting about how to game the system when it comes to mental health billing.
Murica.
Edit: but, being that I'm in a financially fortunate situation, the main goal is to outline a comprehensive treatment plan. And then to try to squeeze it into my private insurance.

2023-09-03 18:04:40

All law enforcement positions should require a four year college degree.
Bare minimum.
Absolute barest of minimums.

2023-09-02 15:11:00

"Politics is not my thing. It doesn't really affect me."
Is both an incredibly ignorant and unforgivably privileged position.

2023-09-02 10:31:32

Old friends this morning. Still alive and well, and with a new little one, it seems.
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2023-08-29 13:20:04

I was just thinking about how much more important a sense of security is than actual security.
Example, this is a 40 mph road I'm walking down, which in Toledo means 50 at least.
I'm putting a lot of faith in this 2ft strip of grass, lol
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2023-08-27 15:56:38

I'm very much a Marvel guy, but Batman is still probably the coolest superhero of all time.
That may be a very limited perspective on my part, there a lot of really cool heroes that comic folks know of that i don't.
But for a basically mainstream guy Batman wins.

2023-08-27 13:30:48

Over the worst hump. It's gonna be ok.
Thanks for the support. Honestly.

2023-08-25 22:59:00

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@npub1gg8…439g reestablishing the patriarchy? The fuck does that even mean

2023-08-25 22:53:02

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@npub1gg8…439g i wanna see the original lol

2023-08-25 13:39:11

At least i can laugh today
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2023-08-24 16:28:41

I'm ok. Heading home now.

2023-08-17 11:42:11

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@npub17sh…6e06 much better, my friend.
I don' wish to alarm you. I regularly go through periods others would describe as "inense episodes of insomnia"
Im somewhat regularly up for literal days at a time.
Honestly, in any given week, it's more likely to find me awake for far too many in a row than it is to find me ressembling human sleep patterns

2023-08-10 12:49:05

I read back through my old posts, sometimes. Not so much on here, where I actively try not to be (as much of) an asshole.
But, in places like reddit and youtube, I don't hold back very much.
Which brings me to my point.
Looking back through, i always regret any time I've been condescending or aggressive... even if my point was correct, my delivery was not.
The reverse is also true. Every time I've been calm, patient, empathetic, and understanding, I've been pleased with that behavior and noticed that the conversations that follow are much more pleasant and productive.
There's a not-so-subtle lesson in there.

2023-07-27 23:11:52

The word bed looks like a bed.

2023-07-17 23:01:57

Ohio, if issue 1 passes on August 8th, the state is lost. The republicans will have a permanent iron grip on the state.
#Ohio
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2023-06-30 03:21:00

The only people crying about how "it's dangerous for men and women to interact in the workplace" are those who associate with the behaviors being questioned.
It's honestly not that hard to not sexually harass people.
If you're someone who thinks it's "like navigating a minefield," you should really stop and take an objective view at your actions and attitudes.
Of course, I highly doubt this will apply to anyone reading this. But the point is still valid.

2023-06-24 17:33:05

Lawyer refused to remove his concealed firearm while accompanying a family member into an MRI.
He was warned to remove any and all metal. He chose not to disclose that he was carrying the ferro-magnetic handgun.
No innocent people were injured.
He was killed.
https://www.forbes.com/sites/brucelee/2023/02/12/lawyer-dies-after-shot-by-his-own-concealed-gun-triggered-by-mri-machine/?sh=1ab401d4568a

2023-06-04 08:32:18

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@npub1px9…v9r5 i just deleted my Twitter account once and for all. I had deactivated when moving over here, but i kept it around.
Nope.

2023-05-19 13:11:39

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2023-05-17 15:14:02

Gender doesn't need to be regulated.
Carbon emissions. Those need to be regulated. Guns. Holy fucking expansion, those need to be regulated. Predatory interest rates. Regulation required.
Gender does not need to be regulated.

2023-04-18 18:40:41

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#[0] ENFJ? Sweet! The stereotype of the ideal therapist.

2023-04-17 21:23:17

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#[0] that's actually the rarest type. But, it's not surprising that you typed as one. It's not surprising that you typed at all, lol. If you have the N preference, you're MUCH more likely to be interested in MBTI in the first place.
So while only 25% of the general population has intuition perceiving preferences, roughly 80% of those that seek out mbti on their own will type as Ns, simply because we're more drawn it.

2023-04-17 21:15:04

I've been rambling about personality theory for the past week or so. I'm curious as to the types of some of you, especially my "circle."
Here are some free #[0] tests. I'm an extreme example of my "type," so i get the same result every single time i take one of these tests. The problem with the tests are that the free ones aren't the most indepth and don't really screen out biases well. If you're more on the fence between two dichotomies, your mood could alter your result. Or misreading or misinterpreting a question or two.
Another problem with the free tests is they focus more on the categorization dichotomies than the actual cognitive function axes.
Anyway, here's a list of some free tests. I've just taken all of them before posting, and I got the same result across all. #[1].
https://www.personalityhacker.com/genius-personality-test/
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test?gclid=CjwKCAjw3POhBhBQEiwAqTCuBk4CKyB0f18MlxjD7L2tpLzM-kr7tSZLbagjLTs5kGz1wxxH1kDiXBoCM_MQAvD_BwE
https://www.123test.com/jung-personality-test/
https://personalityjunkie.com/free-online-personality-test-3/

2023-04-17 12:00:39

@npub18ke…88h9 also, even if you're a heartless bastard, being kind to people tends to pay off in many, many ways.
I read in a book once, "Being polite costs you nothing and might just save your life."

2023-04-04 17:15:51

Watching Trump's motorcade headed to his arraignment.
Satisfying.

2023-03-12 20:59:41

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