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2025-04-03 17:50:42

Missed me?
https://image.nostr.build/a7b78fc83c35398d500e76fc3626f939355a48cdf429284a54fdf17b80f99808.jpg
#nsfw

2025-03-31 15:05:06

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Some, I do.
I'm more than ok with your limits and I'm 46.
I'll be on and off for the next days so if you want to continue through DMs, I'm game.

2025-03-30 17:38:44

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I'm not back yet but I wanted to respond.
Yes, I speak German, but it doesn't necessarily mean that I am from that specific country.
I also have a technical question, so to speak. How far are you willing to go, regarding a sexual experience? Without breaking any laws, not even weird ones.

2025-03-30 17:38:44

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I'm not back yet but I wanted to respond.
Yes, I speak German, but it doesn't necessarily mean that I am from that specific country.
I also have a technical question, so to speak. How far are you willing to go, regarding a sexual experience? Without breaking any laws, not even weird ones.

2025-03-30 13:05:38

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Then, we should find a suitable punishment for when she slows down on my cock. Maybe you should fuck her with a hairbrush.
I have to leave, I'll write again later today or tomorrow.

2025-03-30 12:45:09

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Good start! I want her to make us cum before anything else, we should begin with a clear mind. First, I want her to quickly eat your pussy, finger you, or whatever's the most efficient way to make you cum, while I watch.

2025-03-30 12:45:09

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Good start! I want her to make us cum before anything else, we should begin with a clear mind. First, I want her to quickly eat your pussy, finger you, or whatever's the most efficient way to make you cum, while I watch.

2025-03-30 12:11:39

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I prefer a sub for me and my wife, someone who's no more than a "servant". From there, we can find a few common fantasies but you got the idea.

2025-03-30 12:11:39

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I prefer a sub for me and my wife, someone who's no more than a "servant". From there, we can find a few common fantasies but you got the idea.

2025-03-20 17:38:37

Sometimes, we want to only feel because too many empty words can numb us.
https://video.nostr.build/7f9539cb69ff969c122a405f5e1ed8e54be859e46fae12e5be87158b4e51330f.mp4
#nsfw

2025-03-16 08:57:09

I'm back.
https://video.nostr.build/3e4ecea881c9d388ee91252594ac9070cfb5fa3c1f16df181d8493db6086a962.mp4
#nsfw #erotica #bdsm #kink #kinkorigin #porn #nostrafterdark #pornstr

2025-03-01 16:57:07

https://image.nostr.build/a8ca920f0bdc4139bb894731deba724a967b3908877c0a8aeed8a453e8fe2af4.jpg
#nsfw

2025-02-28 13:51:19

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I lack time and inspiration. You seem very dominant yourself.

2025-02-27 15:14:38

You can say that this is The Manual.
https://video.nostr.build/3873d00e171c5cfcc3c4e37f8e69288578aeee636bb434f73fa0047848170501.mp4
#nsfw

2025-02-26 12:37:06

A piece of advice requested by none.
If you're old like me but still enjoy letting your dominating side run wild once in a while, make yourself available only for highly functional broken women. Never lie, always be forward about your cravings and find the common ground without compromise. Accept the fact that both of you have a specific function and nothing more. Don't get in love, don't create illusions, don't make promises. She's highly functional because she found her rhythm, just like you, and shattering any of that can have catastrophic consequences that might destroy the both of you. Don't do it. And you should be able to recognise them already, they're the ones like you.
https://video.nostr.build/e35bbbbcd9b2f892fb5895fba46edc2af46850703d1e69f5b7b644ff389edb86.mp4
#nsfw

2025-02-24 17:20:41

About a year ago, during a metro ride, I had a ~10-minute staring contest with a Hijab-wearing woman. To be clear, only her hair was covered. Pretty as fuck, total poker face, trying to stay serious. The contest immediately started at her initiative, but it was no more than looking at each other's faces, although I can easily assume that our imaginations had at least a few common points. She got out of the metro, I kept looking, she looked back, and that was it. I thought a few times about her. After some recent events in the Middle East, I observed that a lot of men left, but a lot of women didn't. Now there are a lot of them. Some dropped the Hijab, some changed nothing, and some went fully European. I have a few particular thoughts, especially since Instagram started to show a lot of stuff like this video. They're not for me, I have a different purpose. But I understand when Western European men, and not only, feel betrayed by today's norms. Maybe this is your chance for happiness. Be smart and have a good heart.
https://video.nostr.build/804a081c371c0dde3dd2af334d45c38ecf4bf5d20199d7443b75b652cb98432d.mp4
#nsfw

2024-11-24 12:43:27

SOMETIMES IT CAN BE FUN TO BE A SUGAR DADDY
[I started to write some time ago about our first encounter and finally decided to brush it once more so here it is.]
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Some time back, talking to an acquaintance about the fact that I was going abroad for two days, she told me that she never travelled to another country. Probably out of boredom, I asked, "Wanna come?" and the answer was obviously positive. A few days later we checked into a centrally located hotel where I got a very nice penthouse corner suite with a king-size bed and a couch "just in case", but probably the large terrace was the big bonus because we're both smokers. Soon after, I let her know that I had to leave for a few hours but suggested a shopping street, mostly because she was dressed like hell. She's very poor, no judgment here, and I'm also no fashion critic so take it with a grain of salt. Anyway, in the rush of the moment, I gave her 500 EUR and went to solve some stuff after leaving her in that specific shopping area.
About two or three hours later, when I came back, I was next to shocked by the way she looked in her new outfit, it was like changing the frame for a random painting and discovering that the paint was gorgeous. Well... I'm a man and not the brightest star in the sky, for that matter, so my first words were of admiration, and the next words were an invitation to my favourite Italian restaurant in that city. I started with the full "sugar" treatment, from Champagne to the chef cooking especially for us. A few hours passed way too fast, but in the evening, we lazily returned to the hotel on foot, laughing and holding hands while not giving a fuck about anything else in the world. We decide to skip the hotel's bar and I ordered more champagne from the room service and, one thing leading to another, she gifted me a blowjob and a very damn good one. After some time, with booze flowing like a river after heavy rain, I told her that I wanted to cum inside her before sleep, and my wish was accepted with a big smile. In the morning, I gave her another brief creampie, and, long story short, the next and last evening, when I was pumping for the "good night" creampie, she pulled out and put my cock inside her ass. It was a nice surprise but after I finished she said with that voice of "pretend to be very sad" that she didn't want to go home, which makes me think the anal was a prelude to this, so I replied with my voice of "pretend to be joking" that for every day when I can come inside all of her holes, she'll get another day in the limit of one week. In conclusion, that was a really special week that I still fantasize about.
Some can see it as demeaning, I get it, but the result is that we both consider that specific week as one of the best weeks of our lives. It had a therapeutic effect on both of us, and we hoped to relive it once in a while if life would allow us to. My post-experience thoughts on this are that I was able to give zero fucks about anything else and, somehow, I felt entitled to care only about my pleasure. I know, it's self-centered but I needed this. For reasons different than mine, she confessed later that she needed that week too, without expecting or hoping for it. The common element for both of us was the "I don't give a fuck" part for a week, she also had some problems that wanted to forget for some time, she wanted to feel wanted and admired, and being used as a piece of meat was actually a fantasy of hers. Well, she used a term closer to "cheap prostitute" but it's more or less the same thing.
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[I will probably add some of the next encounters.]
#nsfw #erotica #porn #nostrafterdark #pornstr #sugardaddy

2024-11-12 14:35:20

Do women fantasize about receiving sketchy massages?
I'm curious if women fantasize about getting a masseur in the privacy of a hotel room. So here I am, talking to you, the virtual woman. We're two perverts but we don't know these details about each other, so all of this is a long craved encounter. As a side note, I love a combination of CNC & outercourse. I am not a professional masseur, but as you will see by the end of this post, I have enough experience to pass as one.
You will lay faced down on the bed, with a towel covering your butt, in a minimal ambient light. Nothing unusual up to this point, but I will have to tell you, "Lady, I told you that I can't come to the hotel with the massage table, and you said to use the bed, and I agreed. Now I realize that I can't keep my distance because I have to stay mostly on top of you and I will ruin my new scrubs. Look, you can call the company and say that you don't need the massage anymore, because I don't want to get penalized at work, or you have to accept me without scrubs. For that, I want at least a 5 € tip, and you drop the towel too.".
That being said, I will pour warm oil along your spine, starting from your neck and going down all the way toward your ass cheeks, which will get priority in the oiling and warming up process. I will get on top of you, putting my butt on top of yours, spreading the oil, and massaging your ass cheeks using only circular moves of my butt, while my "jewellery" with help with the oil in the middle area. From there, I will use my palms to spread the oil on your back by pushing my palms towards the exterior with a little move to the front, like I'd be drawing palm tree leaves. Slowly, I will advance to the front with my butt too, pressing my ass muscles on the sides of your spine while my genitals will follow exactly on top of it, while my legs will hug you from the sides. When your back and neck are fully oiled, I pull your arms close to my thighs for oiling more comfortably. I slide back passing behind your butt, lay my chest on you, and push my cock just a little between your thighs to reach for your pussy lips. You can get angered but I assure you that it was an honest mistake, the oil is too slippery and a mistake was made. But then, while kneeling, I go with my thighs between yours, I lower my butt till it reaches my heels, I grab your waist and pull you towards me while lifting your ass until you get doggie style-ish but with your chest still on the bed, with my knees going under you and using my thighs to easily slide you closer. Maybe I go with my palms under your butt and return them on your waist by massaging your ass cheeks while my thumbs will brush between them. And then, maybe, I will grab your waist and pull you even closer until you reach my cock between your pussy lips. "See?! You can make this mistake too!". I might even press you a little against the tip, to make you feel more guilty.
But you tell me that guilt is for amateurs and ask me to become a little more creative if I want to see a whole 20 € bill as a tip. Well... I'm a 45-year-old immigrant, I can't say no when my first client ever offers me extra money, I'm sure that it would be bad luck. I try to explain to you that I am a husband and a father and that the company's policy strictly forbids this kind of practice, but all you have to say is "I raise the tip to 30 if you can add silence to your services.".
Well, then I should probably make you ask again for my services. From between your legs, I lower my forearms and push them under your thighs, forward, while I lay on my stomach. My palms reach for your boobs, I enjoy your hard nipples in my palms for a few seconds, then I go with my palms sideways, keeping contact with your skin until I reach for your back, and I slowly go towards your ass cheeks, close to my face. While pressing your ass cheeks with my palms, I brush your asshole with the tips of my fingers, assuring myself that everything is properly oiled. I spread your cheeks for easier access and immediately go with my tongue tracing a line between your pussy and butthole, taking my time with a few circles around it, followed by unsuccessful tries of pushing my tongue deep inside of it. I pull out my arms, spread your legs a little wider, and using two fingers from my right hand I start to explore the inside wall of your pussy, intentionally ignoring your clit. I press hard enough to feel and stimulate all the striations, often brushing against your g-spot, while resuming the ass eating.
Right now, I will stop writing because the rest tends to be a case-by-case situation, and I don't want to take from the reader's pleasure by going on unwanted pathways. Nonetheless, I hope you liked another peak into a pervert's mind.
#nsfw #erotica #consensualnonconsensual #kink #porn #nostrafterdark #pornstr

2024-11-11 20:20:30

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2024-11-11 20:07:09

Maybe some pain will teach you how to give a proper blowjob
If you can't make a man cum, you should get trained. We'd need a pair of uncomfortably tight and high heels, a wooden ruler, a generic IKEA coffee table, small with sharp edges, a big piece of plastic foil, and duct tape.
Initially, I put a timer on for two minutes, and you have exactly that to make me cum. No doubt, you will fail. Now spread the plastic protection and put the small table in the middle. Put your chest on it and I will duct tape your thighs on two of the table's legs while your knees are touching the ground. I will use some duct tape under the table and behind your back to be sure that you are fixed right there. Bonus, I will duct tape your palms together behind your head, for you to be as uncomfortable as possible pressed against the table.
The spanking would consist of two minutes of slapping your pussy and ass cheeks with my palms, to tender the area, and three minutes of spanking with the wooden ruler, where your pussy lips and your clit would get some extra attention. For the final touch, I will take a seat on your back, with my legs spread left and right, with me facing your butt. The last slaps with the ruler will be along your thighs while two fingers from my left hand will rest inside your pussy. When you are wet enough, I will use your pussy to cum but without making it an easy ride. I will press my chest against your back to put as much pressure as possible, pulling your hair, etc. After I cum, you will be untied, except for the palms behind your head, and you will face the corner of the room while still wearing your tight high heels.
"This is because you failed to make me cum. The history will repeat again and again until you learn to make me happy. I think that you need to reflect on that."
In the meantime, I go and fix a plate with a few bites on it, and I put it on the table along with a glass of water.
"The creampie made me at least relax, so here's your prize. Eat it, without using your hands, you can also go take a piss, again without being able to use your hands, but after that, you will take again the corner position. You need to reflect on a better blowjob and you can speak only when you think you can make me cum."
"When you are ready to suck my dick, I will untie your hands and take off your shoes, and you will be allowed to take a shower and make yourself pretty for me. This time you will have three minutes before getting punished for failure. Failure would mean shoes with a few rice beans inside, table, spanking and so on. The only minutes of comfort will be when you suck my dick. I will think about methods for you to <buy> extra minutes of sucking dick by making you do whatever you normally find to be despicable."
#nsfw #erotica #bdsm #kink #kinkorigin #porn #nostrafterdark #pornstr

2024-11-11 12:26:11

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2024-11-11 12:24:58

Sometimes I just have to dominate
Every month or so I go through a few days when I'm a very different kind of animal. I watch people seeing nothing more than fantasies, my pulse is higher than normal, my senses are in a peak state and I even walk differently. At every moment, I have a discrete but perverted smile, and I have an immediate response inside my cock by just looking at any potential prey.
Any decent-looking woman becomes a good candidate and I'm not limiting to a single gender or person, it's a time when everything is possible. Every month is the same story, while in particular, there can be opposite urges. Right now, everything's CNC (consensual non-consensual), bondage, and freeuse in my mind, even if I just say "Hi!" and you shouldn't trust me in this state.
I think this "era" started when I became a father. Before this, I was just a very curious guy regarding anything that made at least a small spark in my mind. I settled down with the only person who embraced my behaviour inside a relationship and not only for sporadic encounters after a few drinks. Initially, becoming a parent deleted this stuff from my mind, but with time, it came back in full force. So nowadays I'm a 46-year-old husband and father craving to extinguish my thirst in alien places and ways.
I realized that something changed in my brain a while ago when I made a new acquaintance because one day my eyes saw something different. I'm not into younger women or piercings and tattoos but now this lady was the package that made my blue eyes smile with evidence of perversity. I never understood in full the idea of BDSM applied to people who aren't into this lifestyle because I can't see a reason to use restraints on somebody who wants anyway to go crazy with me. Well... now I have a few ideas, to say the least. I found out that I can feel the urge to punish somebody without having a reason to, or maybe I'm just a sadist when I shouldn't be. And what I found to be more fun is that I wanted to tell her everything although, in this particular case, I chose to keep everything to myself.
One way or another, for me, it would have been an interesting experience or experiment to see how I could present my ideas to her without making her run. How can I say to her, other than directly (this is a rhetorical question), that I want to go Shibari with her, to spit on her clit before slapping it with a wooden ruler?! I want to leave marks on someone's body, like a sign of property that will be erased by time from her flesh but not from her mind, I want to find her limits and step beyond "with dirty boots" because that's what I need. Yes, I want to cum on somebody's pain. As someone explained this to me... "You're an animal. If you're hungry, eat. If you want to mate, fuck me. I understand the cyclical evolution of your needs, I can understand when I'm needed and can accept my role. I had enough attentive and understanding men."
Sometimes I enjoy letting my instincts run a little in the wilderness just to observe what's happening and imagine how far I could go if I want to. In these kinds of days, it feels like I'm chemically altered from the inside, I become extremely manipulative, I can get any desired reaction out of anyone, and make anyone accept anything no matter how outrageous while making them believe it's their idea or at least their role. I'm not necessarily proud of this, but I feel like you don't have a choice and you exist only to satisfy my need.
I need no judgment, I exposed my recurrent need to decide one's amount of pain and pleasure. It's a temporary need to hurt somebody in exchange for pleasure and sometimes I want to be in absolute control, that's all. It may be a weakness, I know, but it is what it is. I hope you understand that this is not 100% of who I am, far from that, but this is a place that allows us to at least be honest about those parts of us that we keep in the shadows. If this post appeals to you, if you can't get rid of that feeling where you have an itch that nobody's able to scratch, and you feel that my palm covering your neck would feel like a first kiss, then you should at least like this post.
#nsfw #erotica #bdsm #kink #porn

2024-11-10 18:12:51

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2024-11-10 17:31:00

How a man became a pervert
[I was inspired by a few posts and conversations here and there that were able to dig into memories with a few similarities and decided to make this post since I had no idea that "kink origin" is even a thing. I posted this a while ago, in a different place and a brut form, but I decided to brush it a little since some of this stuff managed to sneak back into my daydreams. It might look a little softcore for some of you, but for me, it's the beginning of a beautiful story.]
I got acquainted with free use and bondage many years ago, about a month or two after I turned twenty, and, to put it into perspective, now I'm in the second half of my 40s. One day, a girl showed me a short video of a tied-up & gagged woman who struggled the whole time. It was weird for me that she masturbated every day while imagining that she was the one tied up, and I was also disappointed that there was no nudity. Later, she explained to me about self-bondage and this was absolutely bizarre from my point of view and I just concluded that "no one's normal anyway", but her porn was often strange, and I finally understood it when I was able to see it in real life.
For a little context, she was a friend from the neighbourhood that no one dared to date her. She was in love with martial arts for a very long time, she has a history of violence against an ex-boyfriend and his mother, plus some casual beatings now and then. Well, she was able to snap most of us like toothpicks. We, the guys, liked her for being a great beer drinker, she swear like a pack of drunk sailors, and also because we probably felt safer with her. We often told her "We'll never find girlfriends like you, you're the best!". I personally liked her because she was very open regarding any questions I had about women, she definitely was more fun than any of the guys, and for her porn collection. Back then, VHS was still a thing in the ex-communist country where I used to live, and even those were rare, so more often we had to buy porn magazines, and burning a CD was rarer than a solar eclipse.
These things being said, at some point, our conversations slowly deviated from general questions to more particular conversations related to various desires that I never thought to be shared. We slowly isolated ourselves from our group of friends and became more inquisitive, while pushing the morally and socially acceptable limits. Rather soon she started sharing her porn collection and, from that point, I was just a walking boner. Even though I had a dark side that kept me ashamed, she was way deeper into the dark forest and, even if some of her stuff gave me nightmares, I also relaxed when I realized that I'm not the weirdest of them all, as previously feared. I won't write about this part, at least not today. The days became quite similar because right after classes I was running home to jerk off and then meet my friend for a few beers to debate those "deep subjects". The rest of the day should be obvious enough, I was just going home and wank myself to sleep.
One day, the booze met the hormones inside us like the big bang, and we decided to watch together a fresh batch of porn. I was trying to play cool because she looked more relaxed than I wanted to, but my cock was crying with precum tears while she was passionately commenting on the side. We alternated movies between my and her taste, although for me it wasn't too much fun watching non-nude struggling women and I was more into waiting for her to have a more "desirable" reaction. There were no wow moments in the beginning, quite the contrary, it started with a dose of discomfort on both sides. We were sitting on my emerald-green couch while stretching an orange bed cover trying to hide the hands' presence between our legs while also trying to look relaxed in very uncomfortable positions. As a first useful step, I offered a pair of shorts and a T-shirt and did the same for myself, at least the clothes shouldn't be uncomfortable. But the excruciating needs returned without caring about our outfits, and our hands got back into gripping mode, but this was already too little, so I told her that I wanted to see everything that she could put on display. We immediately dropped everything on the floor and started to masturbate unnecessarily slowly while facing each other. Because we managed to put the shyness aside, masturbating together became the highlight of my boring life, spending long nights drinking, smoking, and cumming. For quite some time, except for a few kisses, while we were drunk in pubs, nothing more happened between us, not even a single touch during our "cinematic" experiences.
Then one day, during a wank, she decided to make me understand. She asks me to duct tape her bent over on a table. I wasn't creative at all but I was effective, although it looked more like the work of a drunk man in the dark, which wasn't too far from the truth. Neither the cheap transparent plastic duct tape didn't help but I had no fancy rope or anything more aesthetically pleasing. Anyway, it's playing some of "her porn" and, in a few minutes, I witnessed the strangest but also the most obvious pleasure that I was able to see on someone's face up to that point. It was weird because I had no idea how one could get this amount of visible pleasure without any sort of sexual stimulation. She asks me something like "What if I tell you that you can do anything to me?". Back then, I was way more stupid than today, so I had to ask quite a few times if she was sure, if she was joking, and so on. I was hesitant like I was searching for needles during a midnight blackout, but she asked what I needed at that specific moment. If my boner wasn't an obvious response, I had to say that I needed to cum, and she told me to cum however I wanted.
Initially, all I wanted to do for quite some time before this moment was to jerk off and cum on her body, but she was wet like a dripping faucet, so I had nothing else to do but grab her waist and go in. I pumped inside her like a rabid dog fucking a bitch behind a truck in the safety of the night, and the only thing I cared about was to cum while staring at my cock repeatedly entering her, an image highly improved by the looks of her ass. And I cum! And I had this unusual feeling like this was the first time when I actually cummed and it got imprinted forever in my brain, like a mental tattoo. With no premeditation, I lit up a cigarette and lay on the couch while forgetting for a few seconds about her on the table and, led by pleasure and confusion at the same time, I decided to let her there, just to see what could happen. I put the ashtray on her back, I hold the cigarette for her to share it, and without saying a word I begin to feel her body with my hands. At that moment, I was convinced that she was perfect, that there was no better woman than her, in looks or otherwise. I changed the porn with something for my usual taste and, soon after, got a fresh boner. The porn had its role towards my hard cock, but the image of leaking precum getting dry on her legs, of her being there unconditionally for my pleasure, made me go again inside her, she felt like my property that existed only for my pleasure, and this made me feel like I own the universe. I have no idea how long did it take but I assisted to the first excruciating and animalistic orgasm, something that neither of us had any idea was possible. At first, I got scared and, full of confusion, I asked if she was ok while the answer came as a yelled out "This Is A Fucking Orgasm!" and this made me explode again inside her, thinking I'm the best fucker that anyone can have and there can't be a better compliment.
We both had what we described as the most relaxing releases ever. On my part because, for once, I didn't have to care about my partner's pleasure (to be read: my ego) and I felt relieved in more than one way. We finally discovered how it feels to finally let go. To bring an end to this long post, I have to say that we experienced a lot together until about eight years ago but the common kinks weren't too many, we used each other for this stuff while becoming best friends. We still talk about these things once in a while like it'd be the first time, and we also share the ways it changed us into the perverts we are today.
#nsfw #erotica #bdsm #kink #kinkorigin #porn