Kensho

Self love is the final challenge

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2024-10-04 07:43:59

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Use a razor blade to cut the button down to the level of the remode case...

2024-09-20 06:38:59

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Thanks so much. Will check it out.
This profile is called Kensho for a reason. I've experienced the first awakening, as described in zen and elsewhere.
There is no overcoming. You can't fight the ego and win. The very idea of you is the ego. The invitation to myself to feel the fear and pain deeply and wordlessly is the cure of it.
Thanks again.

2024-09-19 15:26:07

I considered quitting nostr.
I considered just creating a personal (real name) account and dropping this one.
I considered converting this one to my real name.
Ultimately I deeply fear rejection.
A deep sense of worthlessness.
Of feeling hated.
I've seen hate here pointed in my direction.
Having been told I "add no value" by a certain user, it caused a wonderful agony. For that I'm grateful.
Self hatred. The part of the ego that cannot be overcome, but must be embraced.
I've said some dumb stuff on this profile.
I also feel attachment to some profound moments I've recorded here. Even if it's just screaming into the void.
Oh what to do.
#asknostr

2024-09-14 06:34:40

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"To be" anything is the illusion of a mind that has mistaken its fantasies for the real world.

2024-09-13 13:36:15

A wall of doubt.
An unfathomable chasm of fear.
A rage so primal it has no words.
There is no violence at its core.
Its before action.
Its before thought.
Unbearable ringing in my ears.
Nothing is happening.

2024-09-13 13:22:32

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The phrase "no one is going to save you" hits hardest when you realise, through direct seeing, that you dont exist. That you are literally no one. That we all are one and that we are all no one.
"No one" is all of us.
We're all on this rick together. We are this fucking rock. We are life as one.
There is nothing to save. We're already here.

2024-08-15 17:59:47

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Happiness is what remains when thoughts are seen for what they are and fall away.
It's our base existence. It's not a state or a point of view. It's when they too are seen as illusions.

2024-08-15 11:59:31

I used to be an athlete at international level.
Now I'm older I have injuries I will never recover from but can only manage.
2024 has been a year where it all finally caught up to this body.
It was a gift.
Running again. Calisthenics. Yoga.
A lifetime of sport has given this body the ability to ramp up surprisingly quickly, even now in middle age.
Finally I can train without anger. Without ego.

2024-08-03 06:24:27

Religion is designed to prevent you from reaching realisation.
How hilarious. How wonderful.

2024-07-29 13:37:46

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Not with that attitude it doesn't.

2024-07-29 08:16:33

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Natural laws still apply. Resources aggregate and distribute.
When you got into bitcoin correlates to how much bitcoin you have.
It can't be any other way without being corrupt.

2024-07-25 06:20:29

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They think they learnt a lesson once. That may have been they got outsmarted by someone or bullied. Something caused them pain they could not deal with. The coping mechanism is to go out into the world and prove themselves smart and "more than" by cheating "idiots" who by definition must be "less than"
They're just hurt egos. Feel sorry for them.

2024-07-23 21:28:36

There's nothing outside of your senses.
You only ever see a reflection of what you perceive, which is all you are.

2024-07-19 09:10:47

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That's an unpleasant way to see other human beings. Take a look in the mirror the next time you feel the need to point the finger at "retards"
You may be surprised to find, you were always pointing at yourself.

2024-07-11 11:07:15

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Ah right, yeah well, yeah tgen im with you. Mind identification is the problem.
The religious are as guilty of that as the non religious.
Both think belief has something to do with it.
It does not.

2024-07-11 09:31:51

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Well, luckily I don't have to. Apparently I'm a gnostic according to some guy who doesn't understand what no thought means. So there you go. Burn me because I touched the face of god without a book.

2024-07-11 00:03:12

I found myself in an argument with someone who seems to have unresolved emotional issues. Turns out, it was me.
Unfollowed.
Welcome to Samsara.

2024-07-10 20:46:05

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Nah. There's nothing to learn. There are no logical conclusions. Knowledge is revealed in the experience. It can't be described. You can't tell anyone what the apple tastes like. You must bite it.
Nobody studied their way to enlightenment, friend. It's not needed. Indeed, it's detrimental to the process. Your mind and words and relations and differentiations will only reveal your capacity to blind yourself from the living truth.

2024-07-10 19:47:39

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I consider the lillies. Call it what you like.

2024-07-10 19:03:56

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I don't know what that means. Direct experience is all I refer to, friend. It's no heresy because it's not thought, its not words. It can't be described. It's just living in the moment before thought and ego arises. Its phenomenology. Like being a new born. Deny it all you like. Give it a name so you may fear it. God isn't in the words, he is the word. The only word that creates. All other words are a misrepresentation. Good luck.

2024-07-10 18:19:11

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It doesn't need imagination. In fact, any mind bases view cannot see what he means when he said that. If you find your heart, you find Christ.

2024-07-07 19:42:58

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Kant, Jesus, Buddha, Rumi... All non-dual teachers as best as they could be. In fact, when you see it -like things go all 2D and shiny and ultra HD and you lose the sense of your eyes being the things that are doing the seeing or that you exist at all... You see that everything is screaming at you to wake up. A tree is a better teacher than anyone. Your spouse can bring you to the answer. Forget Kant. Forget books and knowledge and getting there. Its now. Its not you. You never existed.

2024-07-04 21:36:19

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I wouldn't worry about that. No thought is true. Including the word pure. Everything is as it is. The mind labels things like a fool thinking it can know what a thing is by naming it. It does not. Its impossible to know. Start there.

2024-06-27 11:52:21

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My wife wants to buy a house.

2024-06-24 07:54:16

Statism starts when you believe with all your heart that your partner doesn't fill the dishwasher correctly.
Heal your own wounds.
#nevent1q…46sl

2024-06-19 17:40:16

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How did you get it to work on your phone? I feel like I've tried everything.
Any tutorials you recommend? I'd zap you all my SATs if your advice leads to it working.

2024-06-19 17:38:11

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your country and mine are run by the same families, brother. There are no borders. I didn't choose "my flag" and neither did you.

2024-06-17 20:19:26

Have you gone through the part in the awakening process where things go 2D and there's no distance and time is an intense torrent of NOW screaming at you even though you're looking at a cup?
Wild.

2024-06-17 20:15:24

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Hedonist

2024-06-17 14:20:41

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Curious. I'm in the power industry.

2024-06-17 12:45:47

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500 euros per year isn't bad where we are. Slavery costs more elsewhere, therefore we're lucky tax slaves. I'm grateful to our masters.

2024-06-15 06:20:47

If you want to be a criminal, work for the government.
#nevent1q…zpjm

2024-06-14 08:55:28

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Facts are a scam.
Calling it cognitive dissonance is inaccurate.
It's inner emotional resistance to the experience of Now. It's the creation of time in the mind.
There are no facts. Every thought is a lie. The horror lies in the resistance to the realisation that you have no way of "knowing" anything at all.
It's not the thought that's the problem. It's the failure to realise you shouldn't believe any thought at all.

2024-06-13 18:31:11

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Shill me your set up. I want a nice camera.

2024-06-13 13:29:26

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This is probably the plan.

2024-06-11 07:37:58

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That reminds me, I need to make a blood donation.

2024-06-11 05:27:07

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Graphical. I've got two small kids and a life. I haven't got time to screw around on forums trying to remember what I set up 6 months ago on fucking ClamAV or tailscale or rsync or whatever.

2024-06-10 16:31:11

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1) what?

2024-06-10 16:30:30

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Hate to break it to you, but banks are run by people.

2024-06-05 21:39:32

The fact that this is difficult to verify is the FUCKING POINT.
WE ARE WINNING!!!
#nevent1q…lh9l

2024-06-04 18:54:22

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Correct.

2024-06-02 18:53:22

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That too, is an illusion. There are no kings.

2024-05-31 21:03:33

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Get a circular drill bit, cut out the damaged parts, use them to template and cut new inserts, glue / secure in the holes.
Like you'd repare a hole in dry wall.

2024-05-24 05:49:38

Bitcoin's doing a thing I don't like and I say NO MORE! Stop it, you naughty unstoppable thing.
#nevent1q…0vp8

2024-05-20 15:29:47

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My freedom

2024-05-20 12:13:05

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What is mu?

2024-05-20 05:49:28

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I think if you realign economic incentives with sound money, you'd be surprised what people "want"

2024-05-20 05:47:24

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I paid to get mine back. Minibits dev offered to pay me back but seems like they're having a tough time of it keeping up, so I see it as a donation.

2024-05-20 05:23:49

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The app now has recovery options on it. They didn't work for me.
Here's how I fixed it: get the enuts app, recover using the seed words, connecting to the minibits mint of course. Then just start from scratch on minibits and transfer the funds over, if you want to continue using it.
Props to the minibits dev for his help.

2024-05-17 03:29:51

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If bitcoin goes below 5k again I'm selling the wife and kids.

2024-05-15 19:08:51

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No. It worked on enuts. I got 10k back - was expecting 12k. No big deal.
When I tried the recovery on minibits it shows zero in my wallet though it has the same seed.
Also as mentioned my personalised address disappeared.

2024-05-15 13:36:32

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I can see a balance now (not the one I was expecting) but still something wrong.
https://image.nostr.build/98d91c8feb9e8a279d90ae1d1c7223ef17185a828b964777428bc33ec9c559ea.jpg

2024-05-15 07:49:38

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Updated again this morning. Something odd is happening. https://image.nostr.build/32643ba1093229ba33e4a8978d4bd7de87d5ea6cca09adc07dc9f5dabd30f596.jpg

2024-05-14 20:02:42

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That doesn't fix it. That's just for the last 10 transactions

2024-05-14 18:10:08

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It just rugged my receive address and balance.

2024-05-12 09:15:59

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This is an outrage, Patrick. How can we get involved?

2024-05-05 14:30:38

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You don't need any bitcoin to retire comfortably. Just change your definition of comfortable. Happy lives can be lived in caves, under a bush etc

2024-05-03 09:43:39

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Why not just put the start9 on Tor?

2024-04-28 14:45:12

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How owld is she?
Sorry, had to.

2024-04-27 11:12:24

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Except those pesky people in the goverent or shareholders or woke kids. There's more mental illness out there than you realise.

2024-04-27 11:03:09

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Isn't the argument central control vs "pick your own protocol"?
The latter is clearly better. Anyone who wants the former wants to control others (unresolved emotional issues)
Just facts.

2024-04-25 21:09:38

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Added!

2024-04-23 19:25:22

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Great work. FYI can't zap you from #minibits

2024-04-18 16:28:22

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Would have zapped. Welcome friends.

2024-04-13 18:08:10

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I have a LinkedIn profile. Otherwise Nostr only.
An easy choice.
It's worth it.

2024-04-07 13:41:46

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Really? I didn't hear that one. Haven't used WhatsApp in years.

2024-03-28 11:30:04

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Meh, that sounds like peter Schiff or some doom sayer. I've spent too long and am too old to wait for whatever is supposed to happen. Whatever is happening is happening and I'll stack sats in all scenarios.

2024-03-28 11:19:12

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When the schuldenbremse is taken away, we'll really see how little a recession matters. For a while. Maybe a long while. Maybe spending 1.5 trillion euros per year on the energy transition will keep the wheels on Europe for a little while. As long as we don't talk about the debt.

2024-03-23 21:42:34

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It's to choke offramps and using bitcoin to buy things. It means everything you buy has to be linked to you. The horror of implementing this makes it probably impossible. But they don't need to enforce it if it just stops people using it out of fear.

2024-03-23 21:36:12

What the hell is happening with #EU ban on anonymous payments to unhosted wallets? In other words all non custodial wallets need to be KYC? Is that it?
#asknostr #bitcoin

2024-03-14 18:39:05

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We have our summer hit!

2024-03-08 09:23:10

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It works. I will continue to use it. Unless something else is better. It's a technology. If I need a hammer, I'll use it. If not, I'm glad it exists unless I find a better tool.

2024-03-04 20:28:31

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I saw bisq support was dropped for ronin dojo. What happened?

2024-02-29 15:01:47

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I think this is the first ETH post I've seen on Nostr. Not being on Twitter anymore I forget it's even a thing.

2024-02-15 21:26:38

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I studied theoretical physics with a smattering of cosmology. I've also experienced Kenshō.
I've met God face to face. I've also done an exam on black hole physics.
Why not walk down to your local physics department and ask to sit in on a few lectures.
Sorry to say friend, you've wasted time and energy.

2024-02-15 20:18:13

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OK so I googled.
You mean to say that the van Allen belt is the boundary between earth and heaven? There is no galaxy etc...?

2024-02-15 18:17:46

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Space is a lie? As in there is no such thing as space?

2024-02-14 20:38:16

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He did nothing to help that guy understand. Weak.

2024-02-12 20:48:21

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Soße?

2024-01-31 18:32:44

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Amazing!

2024-01-26 12:26:46

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Reminds me of those #monero extremists who think their thing is better.

2024-01-25 09:29:26

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I don't doubt the truth of what you're saying. It's just that human behaviour is the reality of what you're up against. NGU is what people want over and above absolute privacy. That, amongst other things (chaumian ecash) is why good enough will beat perfect.

2024-01-02 18:59:42

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I can't imagine what it's actually like to be your father, but I do imagine he's having fun being it.

2023-12-29 16:29:38

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This is only obvious to those who know via the experience of enlightenment. Belief gets you nowhere here. In fact, it's an active hindrance to the truth of the matter. You cannot fight the ego and win. You cannot make a believer see, if that's all they have. The church is a scam, but not in the way anyone can explain. It's just words.

2023-12-09 09:33:26

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Thanks. Will stick with bitcoin, but good luck though!

2023-12-07 18:22:22

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Is there anything monero can do that can't either 1) be achieved on main chain or 2) on a layer 2?
I've asked that question to multiple people who have never answered. Perhaps the good doctor can enlighten me.
Happy to have fun being dumb and rich.

2023-12-03 11:13:31

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Lisbon?

2023-11-28 11:00:56

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Monero anonymity is not perfect. Especially for recurring payments. Luckily, bitcoin fixes this.

2023-11-11 13:24:20

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Please send me your internet search history. And if not why not.

2023-04-30 18:30:26

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I never give anyone my email. I give a simple login email that pgp's it on the way to me.

2023-04-23 08:09:09

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Nice. Though of course if they want to come for your bitcoin they will. But we all run that risk to varying degrees.

2023-04-20 07:30:42

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What's your point?
https://www.cbsnews.com/news/obama-administration-acknowledges-1-7-billion-transfer-to-iran-was-all-cash/

2023-04-16 05:09:26

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Individual relays can moderate content / ban npubs.

2023-04-15 09:50:24

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I have a pubkey with my real name and you'll never find it.