Kensho

Self love is the final challenge

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secessio.plebis@minibits.cash

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2025-04-14 15:01:06

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At that stage, why not just call it a buck?

2025-04-14 14:31:26

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I’m only here to scream into the void.

2025-03-02 12:05:24

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The Buddha sat and did nothing. If you look closely, you’ll see that no only is nothing happening, but there are no choices and there’s no one to choose. Good luck with your “decisive men.” they too shall turn to dust.

2025-01-24 10:54:34

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Mullvad is becoming unusable.

2025-01-23 18:42:19

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Sounds like you've got it all figured out, sportsfreund.

2025-01-23 18:17:57

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He owned a site that allowed permission less trade in goods using bitcoin and anonymous accounts.
If you think that's a "bad thing"... I have bad news about bitcoin and nostr for you.

2025-01-23 17:15:48

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You can easily find out for yourself what happened to Ross and why he didn't deserve what he received.
Your lack of understanding is your problem to solve.

2025-01-22 14:27:39

WTF is a bloom server thingumy?
#asknostr

2025-01-18 19:27:27

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Believing in a need is the kernel of the resistance to that supposed need. Your ego identifies as not being a thing.
The ego is the thing that isn't. And in not being a thing, it is seen it can also not be the thing it wants to be. For the ego lives to oppose.
Without the opposition, there is no ego.
With no ego, you are nothing.
It's before desire. That is you. Nothing else.

2024-12-29 07:11:34

CONSOLIDATE YOUR UTXO'S
#nevent1q…m62j

2024-12-25 22:50:39

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I have experienced kensho.
I have run in the forest and heard ear splitting silence. The volience of nothing behind the sound.
I have looked upon a tree and seen it shimmer and pop from reality.
I looked at a cup once and it's whole nature was revealed in two dimensions (a common phenomenon)
I have seen the angry face of my mother hover in front of the face of the buddha, like a mirage, and I laughed.
I also still get pissed off when my wife doesn't sort out her clothes. So... There we go.
Enlightenment is real. It's hiding in plain sight. Laughing at you.

2024-12-25 22:40:54

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How the hell does BSV still have a price?

2024-12-25 16:13:08

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Aren't paradoxes wonderful?
The Buddha may have been the first, but he definitely want the last to see it.

2024-12-25 13:17:22

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The ego is an illusion. There is no self to love nor to be loved, for life is love and love is life. To say I love you presupposes the existence of either of us. What you believe you are experiencing as reality is a perceived need that will die along with your ego when your body dies. I am not what you believe you love. You don't love me at all.

2024-12-23 20:58:04

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I keep saying to my wife "no we can't afford that, it's about CASHFLOW."
seems to work.

2024-12-22 22:50:31

Make your app either:
1. Hotter than my wife (youcan't.gif)
2. Easy for a sleep deprived parent to understand
Otherwise I have no time for you.
#nevent1q…795a

2024-12-22 21:57:43

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I have no clue what that means.
Most importantly, i refuse to google it.
With respect to all the smart people here... A few years ago I'd have spent more time on it.
I've done Linux, grapheneos, home server... Opnsense, fiddling with lightning nodes. Not a hard core coder, but coding was my day job a decade ago so I like to think I'm not a total noob.
However now I have two small children and my spare time is reserved for trying to have a sex life.
That means I'm buying a macbook, an iPhone, shutting down the server and all the gubbins on the network.
This needs to be easy enough for people to not have to bother to understand.

2024-12-21 04:11:13

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So... I'm supposed to put my nsec in a website to see if anyone has sent me anything?
No thank you

2024-12-20 05:35:12

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Well I Google's that... Can you be more specific?

2024-12-18 10:01:08

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If I had ecash on my pubkey, how would I know?

2024-12-16 17:24:23

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My wife does EVERYTHING on the go, on her phone. She has a 2015 macbook air she never uses.
Devs should realise, women on the go is the target audience.

2024-12-16 13:32:59

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We are all parasites riding the eternal wave of truth. At some point, we all fall off.

2024-12-13 08:03:51

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Sent that article by Gigi to some friends the other day. They didn't read it.

2024-12-11 16:13:19

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Soulds like you're short bitcoin.

2024-12-08 08:06:57

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I love Gary, but Joseph Zawinul is why synthesizers caught on.
Weather Report.

2024-12-08 08:05:36

After years of politely suggesting they spend a bit of time looking into it, your friend sends this to a group chat and says "nailed it, couldn't have put it better myself"
Does someone have the finance bro meme I could send him? He is, in fact, a finance bro.
Wwyd?
#asknostr #bitcoin
https://image.nostr.build/18898ea3471127ef72952292940fd63f1630e9d2f8b5f85b4344de710bc6a3c2.jpg

2024-10-07 08:33:00

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The more I earn, the more Germany takes away. At least we're destined to go broke all together at once. #solidarity

2024-10-04 08:02:03

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It's that your your kid's fingers... Your choice!

2024-10-04 07:43:59

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Use a razor blade to cut the button down to the level of the remode case...

2024-10-03 10:54:17

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Minibits had a pending transaction that got stuck on pending (it was months but mainly because I was lazy) I cut and pasted the money back into my wallet expecting the money to appear in my account... Instead the transaction was stated as complete. All OK, fine, I don't know what's happening under the hood... But now the money suddenly appears in my wallet. I still see the outgoing transaction as completed... I see no incoming transaction, but suddenly I have all the cash back.
Seems like a bug.

2024-10-01 09:10:05

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make people more biologically friendly.

2024-09-30 06:50:05

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I've found that investing is a belief in the future being better than now. However you define "better". Or at least to give a feeling of safety against an uncertain future.
That statement is, however, pretty meaningless. Is less better? Not necessarily. A dead horse has zero moving parts.

2024-09-29 20:18:37

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Congratulations! We have one of each. Such a wonder.

2024-09-24 07:55:18

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Yeah, I never liked him that much, until last year spirituality also seemed like just another thing people like to believe. When I finally saw thoughts for what they are, and what everything is without the filter of thought, it became super obvious what is and is not "real"
It's both super obvious, and also almost never realised by anyone. Least of all anyone who has "faith" or "belief". That too, is a scam.
As one Buddhist monk said, awakening is the end of spirituality.

2024-09-20 06:38:59

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Thanks so much. Will check it out.
This profile is called Kensho for a reason. I've experienced the first awakening, as described in zen and elsewhere.
There is no overcoming. You can't fight the ego and win. The very idea of you is the ego. The invitation to myself to feel the fear and pain deeply and wordlessly is the cure of it.
Thanks again.

2024-09-19 15:26:07

I considered quitting nostr.
I considered just creating a personal (real name) account and dropping this one.
I considered converting this one to my real name.
Ultimately I deeply fear rejection.
A deep sense of worthlessness.
Of feeling hated.
I've seen hate here pointed in my direction.
Having been told I "add no value" by a certain user, it caused a wonderful agony. For that I'm grateful.
Self hatred. The part of the ego that cannot be overcome, but must be embraced.
I've said some dumb stuff on this profile.
I also feel attachment to some profound moments I've recorded here. Even if it's just screaming into the void.
Oh what to do.
#asknostr

2024-09-14 06:34:40

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"To be" anything is the illusion of a mind that has mistaken its fantasies for the real world.

2024-09-13 13:36:15

A wall of doubt.
An unfathomable chasm of fear.
A rage so primal it has no words.
There is no violence at its core.
Its before action.
Its before thought.
Unbearable ringing in my ears.
Nothing is happening.

2024-09-13 13:22:32

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The phrase "no one is going to save you" hits hardest when you realise, through direct seeing, that you dont exist. That you are literally no one. That we all are one and that we are all no one.
"No one" is all of us.
We're all on this rick together. We are this fucking rock. We are life as one.
There is nothing to save. We're already here.

2024-09-13 08:41:09

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https://image.nostr.build/189bef3bc6828bff3b1dead988a984031c39c3058205200b129b84999f52e43b.jpg

2024-09-13 08:39:44

@nprofile…l3vp I've had a pending (send) transaction since July... It's stuck! How do I recover it?

2024-08-15 17:59:47

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Happiness is what remains when thoughts are seen for what they are and fall away.
It's our base existence. It's not a state or a point of view. It's when they too are seen as illusions.

2024-08-15 11:59:31

I used to be an athlete at international level.
Now I'm older I have injuries I will never recover from but can only manage.
2024 has been a year where it all finally caught up to this body.
It was a gift.
Running again. Calisthenics. Yoga.
A lifetime of sport has given this body the ability to ramp up surprisingly quickly, even now in middle age.
Finally I can train without anger. Without ego.

2024-08-03 06:24:27

Religion is designed to prevent you from reaching realisation.
How hilarious. How wonderful.

2024-07-29 14:34:34

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Would love tosee this. ZombieTrackerGPS is what I use (FOSS)
A huge drawback is lots of data is lost. Just a GPX file misses steps and indoor workouts etc.

2024-07-29 13:37:46

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Not with that attitude it doesn't.

2024-07-29 08:16:33

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Natural laws still apply. Resources aggregate and distribute.
When you got into bitcoin correlates to how much bitcoin you have.
It can't be any other way without being corrupt.

2024-07-25 06:20:29

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They think they learnt a lesson once. That may have been they got outsmarted by someone or bullied. Something caused them pain they could not deal with. The coping mechanism is to go out into the world and prove themselves smart and "more than" by cheating "idiots" who by definition must be "less than"
They're just hurt egos. Feel sorry for them.

2024-07-23 21:28:36

There's nothing outside of your senses.
You only ever see a reflection of what you perceive, which is all you are.

2024-07-19 09:10:47

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That's an unpleasant way to see other human beings. Take a look in the mirror the next time you feel the need to point the finger at "retards"
You may be surprised to find, you were always pointing at yourself.

2024-07-11 11:07:15

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Ah right, yeah well, yeah tgen im with you. Mind identification is the problem.
The religious are as guilty of that as the non religious.
Both think belief has something to do with it.
It does not.

2024-07-11 09:31:51

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Well, luckily I don't have to. Apparently I'm a gnostic according to some guy who doesn't understand what no thought means. So there you go. Burn me because I touched the face of god without a book.

2024-07-11 08:58:31

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I studied physics. All it does is try to describe what things do and categorise them accordingly.
Pretty fast, it becomes clear words are useless to describe even that.
To conflate that with some form of philosophy is an error. And to confuse it with reality beggars belief. That's why all data has error bars. Physics wasn't created, it's the best we can do to describe what things do. Not what they are.
Still not sure I get what you're saying.

2024-07-11 08:40:32

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Such as?

2024-07-11 00:03:12

I found myself in an argument with someone who seems to have unresolved emotional issues. Turns out, it was me.
Unfollowed.
Welcome to Samsara.

2024-07-10 23:52:17

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Charming. https://image.nostr.build/11140569a44b45ab58c67036724938813294391ad71ba0e69ca65688c3097988.jpg

2024-07-10 20:46:05

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Nah. There's nothing to learn. There are no logical conclusions. Knowledge is revealed in the experience. It can't be described. You can't tell anyone what the apple tastes like. You must bite it.
Nobody studied their way to enlightenment, friend. It's not needed. Indeed, it's detrimental to the process. Your mind and words and relations and differentiations will only reveal your capacity to blind yourself from the living truth.

2024-07-10 19:47:39

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I consider the lillies. Call it what you like.

2024-07-10 19:03:56

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I don't know what that means. Direct experience is all I refer to, friend. It's no heresy because it's not thought, its not words. It can't be described. It's just living in the moment before thought and ego arises. Its phenomenology. Like being a new born. Deny it all you like. Give it a name so you may fear it. God isn't in the words, he is the word. The only word that creates. All other words are a misrepresentation. Good luck.

2024-07-10 18:19:11

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It doesn't need imagination. In fact, any mind bases view cannot see what he means when he said that. If you find your heart, you find Christ.

2024-07-07 19:42:58

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Kant, Jesus, Buddha, Rumi... All non-dual teachers as best as they could be. In fact, when you see it -like things go all 2D and shiny and ultra HD and you lose the sense of your eyes being the things that are doing the seeing or that you exist at all... You see that everything is screaming at you to wake up. A tree is a better teacher than anyone. Your spouse can bring you to the answer. Forget Kant. Forget books and knowledge and getting there. Its now. Its not you. You never existed.

2024-07-04 21:36:19

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I wouldn't worry about that. No thought is true. Including the word pure. Everything is as it is. The mind labels things like a fool thinking it can know what a thing is by naming it. It does not. Its impossible to know. Start there.

2024-06-27 11:52:21

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My wife wants to buy a house.

2024-06-24 07:54:16

Statism starts when you believe with all your heart that your partner doesn't fill the dishwasher correctly.
Heal your own wounds.
#nevent1q…46sl

2024-06-19 17:40:16

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How did you get it to work on your phone? I feel like I've tried everything.
Any tutorials you recommend? I'd zap you all my SATs if your advice leads to it working.

2024-06-19 17:38:11

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your country and mine are run by the same families, brother. There are no borders. I didn't choose "my flag" and neither did you.

2024-06-17 20:19:26

Have you gone through the part in the awakening process where things go 2D and there's no distance and time is an intense torrent of NOW screaming at you even though you're looking at a cup?
Wild.

2024-06-17 20:15:24

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Hedonist

2024-06-17 14:20:41

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Curious. I'm in the power industry.

2024-06-17 14:18:22

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Where are you?

2024-06-17 12:45:47

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500 euros per year isn't bad where we are. Slavery costs more elsewhere, therefore we're lucky tax slaves. I'm grateful to our masters.

2024-06-15 06:20:47

If you want to be a criminal, work for the government.
#nevent1q…zpjm

2024-06-14 13:35:22

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How in earth can anyone be kicked out of their religion?
God has no religion.

2024-06-14 08:55:28

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Facts are a scam.
Calling it cognitive dissonance is inaccurate.
It's inner emotional resistance to the experience of Now. It's the creation of time in the mind.
There are no facts. Every thought is a lie. The horror lies in the resistance to the realisation that you have no way of "knowing" anything at all.
It's not the thought that's the problem. It's the failure to realise you shouldn't believe any thought at all.

2024-06-13 18:31:11

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Shill me your set up. I want a nice camera.

2024-06-13 13:29:26

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This is probably the plan.

2024-06-11 07:37:58

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That reminds me, I need to make a blood donation.

2024-06-11 05:27:07

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Graphical. I've got two small kids and a life. I haven't got time to screw around on forums trying to remember what I set up 6 months ago on fucking ClamAV or tailscale or rsync or whatever.

2024-06-10 16:31:11

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1) what?

2024-06-10 16:30:30

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Hate to break it to you, but banks are run by people.

2024-06-09 19:49:33

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I tried wahlometer before voting. I was given binary choices with no nuance. My choices were pro humanity, pro peace. Many I was on the fence on.
I came out as an AfD voter... Go figure.
That's not how I voted.

2024-06-05 21:39:32

The fact that this is difficult to verify is the FUCKING POINT.
WE ARE WINNING!!!
#nevent1q…lh9l

2024-06-04 18:54:22

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Correct.

2024-06-02 18:53:22

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That too, is an illusion. There are no kings.

2024-05-31 21:03:33

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Get a circular drill bit, cut out the damaged parts, use them to template and cut new inserts, glue / secure in the holes.
Like you'd repare a hole in dry wall.

2024-05-24 05:49:38

Bitcoin's doing a thing I don't like and I say NO MORE! Stop it, you naughty unstoppable thing.
#nevent1q…0vp8

2024-05-24 04:42:14

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Looks like mental illness to me.

2024-05-20 15:29:47

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My freedom

2024-05-20 12:13:05

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What is mu?

2024-05-20 05:49:28

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I think if you realign economic incentives with sound money, you'd be surprised what people "want"

2024-05-20 05:47:24

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I paid to get mine back. Minibits dev offered to pay me back but seems like they're having a tough time of it keeping up, so I see it as a donation.

2024-05-20 05:23:49

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The app now has recovery options on it. They didn't work for me.
Here's how I fixed it: get the enuts app, recover using the seed words, connecting to the minibits mint of course. Then just start from scratch on minibits and transfer the funds over, if you want to continue using it.
Props to the minibits dev for his help.

2024-05-17 03:29:51

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If bitcoin goes below 5k again I'm selling the wife and kids.

2024-05-15 19:08:51

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No. It worked on enuts. I got 10k back - was expecting 12k. No big deal.
When I tried the recovery on minibits it shows zero in my wallet though it has the same seed.
Also as mentioned my personalised address disappeared.

2024-05-15 13:36:32

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I can see a balance now (not the one I was expecting) but still something wrong.
https://image.nostr.build/98d91c8feb9e8a279d90ae1d1c7223ef17185a828b964777428bc33ec9c559ea.jpg

2024-05-15 07:49:38

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Updated again this morning. Something odd is happening. https://image.nostr.build/32643ba1093229ba33e4a8978d4bd7de87d5ea6cca09adc07dc9f5dabd30f596.jpg

2024-05-14 20:02:42

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That doesn't fix it. That's just for the last 10 transactions

2024-05-14 18:10:08

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It just rugged my receive address and balance.

2024-05-12 09:17:22

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Nothing you think at all is real. Pablo was gravely mistaken.

2024-05-12 09:15:59

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This is an outrage, Patrick. How can we get involved?