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2023-12-28 16:28:07

Guess what day it is?!
#BirthdayParty #HappyBirthday #BirthdayGirl #Birthday
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2023-10-09 18:54:16

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@npub1m36…ermh oh no. lol oh no. hahahahaha

2023-10-03 21:33:34

you ever met someone who only wanted you around long enough to find out the sound you make when you're in pain?

2023-09-28 14:41:36

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@npub19t0…27rf yeah. Wear a "normal person" face until you can take it off. Gets kinda .. itchy under there after a while.
But uh.. like these pandemic masks.. sometimes there's safety in wearing them and I hate that for the metaphorical "us" that wear "normalcy" masks around some people.
I like my pandemic mask so I can normalcy unmask more often. Weird effect, huh?

2023-09-28 14:34:09

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@npub19t0…27rf i know we were bein funny, but yeah.. masking.

2023-09-26 16:55:51

Sigh. Took advice I am unsure about.
When kindhearted people tell me to do something, I try. Because I myself am not as forgiving or nice, I lean on their guidance.
I am angry and something is unresolved. It is not my turn, but someone else's to return sincere communication.
Historically, they don't do that.
But I tried again anyway, because their longtime friend told me to.
I hope the effort was worth it but it does not matter anymore to me, I already grieved that loss.

2023-09-24 16:01:06

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@npub1m36…ermh @npub1tvl…ztgn ::willem dafoe nervous laughter gif::

2023-09-24 15:33:52

Is music supposed to have an emotional or psychological "cost" to the composer?
#DIYMusicChat @npub1tvl…ztgn

2023-09-21 19:23:52

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@npub10kp…0rjj it is what i try desperately to STAY away from here. Ugh. Had been curious about Bluesky, but not that curious anymore.

2023-09-21 15:40:43

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@npub12tz…72pn beards, i'm coming to find out, are like makeup contouring for the masc set.
first glance tho, what you got to worry about? nothin? it is a good face. you like what you like on yourself, of course.
grabby pinchy fingies on facial hair may one day win. ;)

2023-09-20 13:44:36

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No, I am not going to alt text this. No, I do not need it boosted.
This is the screenshot of what I said. As you can see, the player is online. I will let you know if there is a response.
I hate people, and would love to eat this person's entire head like a mantis. I hope the restraint is evident in my tone.
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2023-09-19 13:11:27

Ugh. Is there a service for "call and cancel my appointment for me" because I can not make myself use the phone and sit thru menus just to be spoken to curtly by people who do not communicate in helpful ways.

2023-09-16 15:16:31

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There are things he said and did. The way he would stand a few inches too close. Or how he alluded to going somewhere and pettily invited someone else.. as if to make me jealous.
Look. He might be too old, and of a professional status that should have made him not do it...
But he did and the reason it was not worse is because of various things on my part and I think he mostly knew better.
I am equal parts flattered by it and livid that it got in the way of my career and music.

2023-09-16 15:08:59

Half formed thoughts of loss because I had a real connection to someone I admired on a professional, creative level..
But confusion because I am unsure if it was that genuine.
People told me it was not possible but he complimented everything from head to toe, shoes first because he's into cool shoes. Even my stage name. And got mad when I expressed mockery about a friend dating an age-inappropriate person.
Fam, I know when someone invites me to smell their new car, ok?

2023-09-15 19:42:28

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@npub1ymh…geqx omfg do it

2023-09-15 19:29:20

Uplifting and strong..
https://youtu.be/_4GvpNakBAM

2023-09-15 17:18:53

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@npub1yr3…nrs8 it ain't great.
So instead of teaching jobs, I am trying to get in at a music store where I will be paid beans. I hope at least it comes through, so I can try to learn stuff on the job. If no one is willing to take me on, I have to keep trying anyway. If not directly, indirectly.
Tenacity, friend. Tenacity.

2023-09-15 17:16:26

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@npub1fql…nma7 completely ignored by somebody else inbetween their career levels too.. all gatekeeping my progress because of being unable to see past my being a pretty woman. Whichever part of it got in the way first does not matter, pretty.. woman.. either way.
They can't think of me as a colleague, no matter if I overachieve.
Are not musicians supposed to be stylish? Easy to market if they're hot? I am confused I guess as to what goals I was meant to shoot for here.
Fuuuccckkk.

2023-09-15 17:12:51

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@npub1yr3…nrs8 friend..
Before I graduated, the rock star said I was qualified to teach. Then the year I graduated, he himself took a job at every institution in the area.
And then he stopped communicating about working with him at all.
So he burned a bridge and took all the jobs I was looking at, and knowing he was up for them I would've never been hired anyway.
If another job comes up, I dunno if I'd get it because of him.

2023-09-15 17:06:40

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Fucked to think my career would be in hands like that.
Fucked completely that I get treated that way by both complete amateurs, and people in the god damned rock and roll hall of fame - while BOTH acknowledge my achievements and excellence at the technical parts.
I hate them in ways I have no human words for, only clenched fists and gnashed teeth.

2023-09-15 17:03:59

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It bothers me my friend thought being pretty was any consolation for being able to work on a professional level with aforementioned rock star.
It bothers me greatly anyone on a personal level sees me that way.. that I should be satisfied being a visual thing they can look at, and not yanno... a person with talents, skills, agency.....
It bothers me that both someone I've known for 2 decades, and a famous rock star think it ok to diminish me in the same way.

2023-09-15 16:58:23

Having a not great day, internally.
"Only you could get dehumanized by a famous rockstar" is not the compliment you think it is, self-soothing dialogue.
"Well at least you are pretty and effortlessly stylish" wasn't either, friend.
Had I been male, it would've went different, and that's just a fact. Ambition was never much fun for me, friends.
I have so much resentment toward SO many people today.

2023-09-15 14:49:13

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@npub18wd…vs4h i like discovering music that way, but i train my suggested algorithms aggressively. I used Last.fm for that purpose and was so very happy until they switched to populating their player with YouTube videos.. so I was often served neverending ads and mislabeled music.
These days, feels like another shift needs to happen, because Spotify being the only game in town does not work. :(

2023-09-15 13:56:41

Maybe it was the Carebears, maybe it was the child abuse.
I don't want anyone pushed down except the powerful who cause the most harm. When I was a kid, I hit bullies to stop them and they did. One hit wonder, I called it.
To this day, I can't stand to see someone glorying in shoving someone smaller than them, making them feel even more less-than.
Do not do it and tell me it is for my benefit or I will fuck you up.

2023-09-15 13:36:21

So woke, but you silenced your alarm.
I see.
☕️🫖

2023-09-15 13:23:26

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@npub1wmj…uwf7 i have access to that and can watch, thank you!

2023-09-15 12:41:42

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I get that we as artists should make MORE money on it, but why the specific Spotify hatred?
Why not Youtube, where they never pay anything but can find time to put ads on every video?
Why not Apple Music which is so global but never sends a penny?
Please explain because y'all.. it hurts to hear how many people refuse to use Spotify, it feels like a "fuck you, you don't need ANY of your royalties".

2023-09-15 12:37:07

Can someone explain why people hate Spotify, bur not Apple Music or Youtube?
I need to hear it make sense, because as an artist the only streaming royalties I get are from Spotify and I want to understand where the problems start..
Because no other platform has sent me a dime other than Bandcamp direct sales, but Spotify consistently returns small payments.

2023-09-13 10:38:45

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@npub1zu8…apnw we get FOMO ads about shoes and purses and jewelry. But that's in print mostly. Commercials are almost entirely aggressive negging.

2023-09-13 10:37:24

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@npub1zu8…apnw oo aspirations.
If only we could collectively grasp moving beyond designer handbags, aka the Reason We Can't Have Pockets.
Then women could have aspirations like consumer jealousy about stuff AND things.

2023-09-13 10:00:23

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These ads want women looking in the mirror and feeling disgust and fear.
Men, tell me what emotions and thoughts ads want from you?

2023-09-13 09:57:14

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I am afraid of small bathrooms filled with plastic bottles of random magic goos and creams designed to diminish the members of my gender.
"You aged, you now must pay a fortune to pretend to be younger. Your age is worthless, your experience means nothing unless you are a consumable commodity, so young anyone can project their fantasies on you. Can't have wrinkles on the surface or they can't see the image they forced on you."
Such is the Feminine Mystique. A blank, youthfully smooth slate.

2023-09-13 09:51:24

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"If you're afraid of aging, like me" -- random woman in her 20's says like a threat.
Gurl, I am afraid of large roaches and hair clogs, and what might be in a crawlspace under an old house.
Aging got nothin on that.
P.S. the scary part of aging isn't what happens to your face. Ain't no creams or patches for entropy.

2023-09-13 09:46:18

This week in ads that hate women..
I am aged as fk and my face is disgustingly misshapen. In fact, any woman over age 20 seems to have this problem, if the ones filming in their home bathrooms with a mini production studio piled in there are any indication anyway.
The only solution is putting gooey patches on the skin surface, and trying to roller the skin flat, because we're duct taping this decrepit old shithouse so the walls don't fall down before I'm 40.
Oh no, I'm almost 43! APOCALYPSE!

2023-09-12 13:30:55

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@npub1us2…u74s church pants!

2023-09-11 22:35:05

Bought my first pair of Liberty overalls today.
iykyk

2023-09-09 12:25:17

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@npub1c5v…jl5j we've got Simpsons clouds on the bluest sky and mild temperatures so far. hope your wish to stay mostly dry comes true.

2023-08-31 14:53:23

Y'all.
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2023-08-30 17:31:15

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@npub1zsx…zcfs equally ankle-bitey and prone to ill-temper? Checks out. Lol

2023-08-29 13:51:02

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@npub1ql3…a0kk @npub1hpc…hjn3 @npub19ja…wrad @npub1zxz…8jtz "do you want to mess yourself up this morning? Look up 'snake roundworm brain australia" and cry into your shirt for an hour"
::stares with big eyes, google fingers twitching, begging to be used::

2023-08-27 15:04:41

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@npub19ue…qaqd @npub18lj…80hq ::gloms onto the bottom of a jar like a lamprey, with a grotesque wet "schloop"::

2023-08-27 15:03:28

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@npub18lj…80hq discovered a used LEGO store where they let you build your own minifigs, so I built HER and she's become serious afterlife goals.
#ArtShowSunday
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2023-08-27 14:48:32

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I never cared for a lot of music icons because it was like they told EVERYONE how disgusting they were and no one believed it.
People like that get by on the fact most people believe in separating art from the artist.
They succeed because audiences do not like to self-examine as to WHY they are entertained by problematic material or problematic people.. nor look too deeply into the mentality of the minds that create their entertainment.
Big oof, y'all. Big oof.

2023-08-27 14:43:53

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I do not know how people did not see it. I was always branded a killjoy in childhood for this stuff, but I always commented and got tired of being ignored about these things so I quit bringing it up.
It was always a sneer not a smile. They always showed us who they were. I am glad the dominant societal homophobic cloud has lifted and more of us can finally see it.

2023-08-27 14:43:35

I mean this with love toward his fans, ok.. but he was always doing it with contempt.
He was never doing his act with love or respect for women, transgender, or queer people. Not once. It was a character he was making fun of. It is in the makeup, even.
He and Monty Python had the same energy about the gender expression in their androgynous or crossdressed looks. Contempt.

2023-08-27 12:33:13

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I should put up more decorations outside today out of spite, lol.
How dare dream brother take credit for my spookitude.

2023-08-27 12:31:19

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When I realize he once more was lying, creating a chaotic mess for me to clean up that somehow diminished me and aggrandized him, I told him to go fuck himself and bit him on the face.
Dream me deals with things her own damn way.
Now somebody convince awake me that I can calm down,it was not real.

2023-08-27 12:28:19

I was at a dream appoinrnent, bringing something to a lady for my brother - he left it behind absently - who shows up in the offfice at the sane time.
He had signed me on to do art for some book with her but did not ask or tell me, or notify me of the appointment
He was talking over me, even in the dream it was like reality. He was lying about "always" being a yard menace about Halloween. When I said he was not, he said well at home NOW he is. He is not.

2023-08-26 13:37:53

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@npub1cre…vk7n it is kinda important they know a thing like that or they can't know fraud when they see it. it is ok to admit not knowing something, but it isn't ok to admit being bad at one's job and blame the client or customer.

2023-08-26 13:04:35

it is legit shocking to me that hospitals do not have mask requirements. Any medical setting you'd think they'd prioritize.. yanno.. health.
But it can hardly be expected when society deemed profit-motive appropriate for the practice of medicine.
We are more profitable sick and/or dead than we are healthy.
https://med-mastodon.com/@luckytran/110954167477213792

2023-08-26 11:50:38

Good morning creepy ads.
Today I must cram stretchy fabric into my craw and use my taint as fulcrum for my boob support, because only my legally required bodyparts should be covered, but I must also be exceedingly uncomfortable.
Is my body merely for spectacle, or it is the old tried and true "BUT SHE BREATHES THRU HER SKIN" thing again?
Who can say?

2023-08-26 11:17:48

I have a friend who has gone rather feral for a city boy. He moved out to the country and plants vegetables and fruit trees.
He also hunts and eats anything in season.
He had chickens. A sketchy stray dog killed them. Then a big goofy bloodhound showed up and would not go away.
I met the bloodhound the day of arrival and he 'told' me he was a very good boy.
My friend kept wanting to get rid of him but is training him to do farm chores and maybe go hunting too.

2023-08-25 16:50:15

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@npub1xzh…6pyn rhetorical.
I do not actually care why someone is ugly. They just are.
But conversationally curious, what is your perspective?

2023-08-22 22:43:00

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@npub1483…lv2w the time a person told the story of Terminatur, a D&D character designed by an elder woman who bonded with her family over learning to play. She passed away, and wanted Terminatur to live on so she wanted the world to have him as an NPC or play him themselves.
There is so much Terminatur fan art from around the world because of that set of tweets, and the joy it brought everyone to help that lady's whimsical character live on forever.
https://www.belloflostsouls.net/2019/08/dd-the-ballad-of-terminatur-or-why-im-not-crying-you-are.html

2023-08-19 18:24:13

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::additional big sigh::
and did I mention.. he only started texting me about this an HOUR after he said he was on his way home, and i told him to be quiet because my husband was asleep and i was on my way to bed?
yes. he kept texting me about it for an hour, and then did not come home for about an hour after that.. so i was awake 2 hours after i told him i was going to bed, because he wanted to pick thru unwanted dead people trash instead of be courteous to us and come home and go to bed.

2023-08-19 18:17:37

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he's also mailed me things like.. very heavy bags of corn meal that they sell at the grocery store near me.
he mailed it from the opposite side of the country, like the box he sent needed to be much larger and much heavier for absolutely no reason.
yes, please waste money on mailing things i can get for less than 1/5th what you spent on postage???

2023-08-19 18:15:18

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and now i have to hang on to some dumb shit that was only marginally significant to my parents who are both long dead because my younger brother can't let go of anything.
including actual trash that no one wants.
... bro even mailed me trash once. a box full of broken glass and a cross stitch of a last name that belonged to my mom before she got married. like.. no one gives a shit about that name. not even my dead mother were she alive.
thanks for the big box i had to throw away immediately?

2023-08-19 18:12:25

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i can't tell him things he won't listen to.
i can't repeat myself until he chooses to listen to what i said.
i can't scream at him until he comprehends.
so now i have to drive him and that god damned box to my older brother's house, who i don't want to see, on an errand i wouldn't have to do at all if my younger brother FUCKING LISTENED TO ME WHEN I SAID NO.

2023-08-19 18:09:20

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i don't have any attachment to my father's belongings. my younger brother has unhealthy attachments to objects in general, especially nostalgic ones.
if my older brother has never unpacked this stuff since 2017, he doesn't care either.
somehow this stuff is in my house again because no matter how many ways I put "don't bring that shit over here i already sorted it, i don't want it" my younger brother did it anyway and blamed me for not telling him I didn't want it and already dealt with it.

2023-08-19 18:05:37

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save the shit from the trash that belongs in the trash, that nobody was actually throwing away and nobody was even interested in looking at..
stuff i already dealt with once..
stuff that was FINE where it was at my older brother's house..
stuff my younger brother can not take with him on a plane, even in luggage, it will break..
he wants to bring into my house at 10pm and tell me i have to go through it with him and deal with it again..
stuff i said to leave where it WAS..
ffs.

2023-08-19 18:03:45

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he was live texting me about all these items and telling me my older brother has them and we have to save them from the trash.. my older brother was not putting any of those items in the trash at that time or any other time.
but for some reason, it was so serious that he disregarded every response i sent back saying "let him have those things, i packed those up for him specifically, i don't want them, they belong in the trash if he doesn't want them"
.. and now that shit is in my house again.

2023-08-19 18:02:13

those of you "new here" as in haven't been following along with me on some platform or other since 2017.. my dad died back then and he was awful so don't be "sorry" just for knowing all of a sudden.
my brothers did not do much to help settle the man's estate and move his stuff out of the house.
given that, i was able to be totally done with everything of my father's in about a year and 6 months.
::sigh::
my younger brother visited this week and dug up stuff at my older brother's house.

2023-08-19 14:22:07

Just watched a douchebag Confederate soldier get eaten by a giant preying mantis.
How is YOUR day going?

2023-08-19 12:15:18

Well.. that Behringer octave pedal sounds like line noisy, high-pitched screaming shit.
Back to the drawing board.

2023-08-18 18:50:35

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@npub1fql…nma7 pretend poverty is so weird. If only there was a country word for "poser".

2023-08-18 18:37:25

No, YOU got the text you were waiting on for getting the job at the guitar shop and are crying about it while trying to put gear back up after studio day.

2023-08-18 15:30:41

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@npub1fql…nma7 they's all hat no cattle carpetbaggin no account n'er-do-wells if you ask me. ::scrapes foot on dry red soil to stir up dust::

2023-08-18 00:55:41

Stuff is buck wild out there, friends. Stay hydrated, and be heckin gentle.

2023-08-17 19:20:16

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We even made it til AFTER my dad paid the check, and we made up for his cheapness with cash tip out of siblings' wallets.
Usually, Dad started shit the second he sat down. He and my mom both did that and she'd wonder why I did not eat much. (No one likes to eat while you made them emotionally unsafe, fam.)

2023-08-17 17:39:17

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The thing that got me laughing at myself tho was the realization of how prepared I was to lean into the freakazoid side for the sake of not wanting my family to look like the freakazoids we all might be.
Like.. that's growth. Knowing the option is there, and choosing a more diffiult for you and everyone else around you path is healing.

2023-08-17 17:33:35

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I dunno what you would do.
But I had to go into that smothering every bit of eye-twitching rage and somehow metaphorically roll for charisma check on a persuasion skill on my famously indomitable father and trust the dice gods that do usually love me not to fuck up and really give YouTube something to see from several camera angles.
It was a struggle but somehow we prevailed, the charm and cunning bonus assist boost came from my younger brother.

2023-08-17 17:28:02

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I know now one of us was an uncracked trans egg. I protected that, what I sensed then. I knew.
One of us had been stalked online and had evaded doxxing attempts. I protected that.
The rest, no one wants their private life viewable in public like that.
The way my dad was so excitedly about to log in to upload our dinner to YouTube with none of our consent..
Friends.. would you wrestle your dad in public at 10pm on xmas to save your family? Lol

2023-08-17 17:23:59

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This is when we are done exchanging gifts and the food is gone.. he wants pictures and video. We are ok with pictures. We are ok with video too..
... until he says he is gonna upload it to YouTube.
I halt him right there, with the seriousness of a person about to fight a bear to save their family.
I know who we are. I know we are just weird enough to be interesting to the wrong kind of video watcher. None of us love publixlc attention either.

2023-08-17 17:20:25

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By 'normal' I mean we look buck wild together as a family but we're moving past it as a group. None of us see it anymore, but..
Pretend you are the wait staff and a weirdo family closes the big corner booth on xmas. You worry about tip.
So do the members of that family who have waited tables before, and know their cheapskate dad, and empty wallets. There was no family awkwardness this night.
Until Dad remembers his phone does video.

2023-08-17 17:16:57

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We get in there, he is weird to the wait staff like a vampire that needs to be invited inside because he is convinced they are closing right then.
It is ok. We all get him to be comfortable eventually. The whole bunch is there, we have a 'normal' dinner.
(Whole bunch at the time: me, older brother, younger brother, Dad, Stepmom, my husband, older brother's wife, and older brother's kids who were under 18 and under 10, respectively.)

2023-08-17 17:12:34

Once upon a few years before he passed, my father took us out for dinner for Christmas. Few restaurants were open. We finally found a Big Name Family Restaurant Chain, it was open for about an hour more but Dad was like "keep driving", we all said no. Lol
It was awkward from the jump convincing him to go inside. He liked to carry a small gun on him all the time then, I think he had major untreated anxiety. Anyway. Moving on.

2023-08-17 15:21:20

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@npub1cvm…ne4j imo, nice is fake. Kindness is in thought and action. Nice is just for an audience.

2023-08-17 14:30:42

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it is hilarious to me the lies they told that get passed around as fact..
...are that i'm a LOT nicer and sweeter than i am??
go right ahead, you buffoons. go right ahead. anyone who knows me knows you DO NOT know me if that's what you thought.
my violent ex-roommate who broke her bf's jaw in my house thought she was gonna fight me and no more saw my EYES when she came at me that way than she walked away fast.
please tell the world how "nice" and against profanity i am. my mom would love it.

2023-08-17 14:25:55

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i guess somehow i got to be a symbol of what all those incel douchenozzles hate about their moms or teachers or basically every female figure of authority in their lives...
how? i don't know.
one or two absolutely unhinged dudes started it. i'm not for sure how many there were because of their use of alts and the their social circles all overlapped in unpleasantly confusing ways.

2023-08-17 14:22:26

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they seem to think that i'm some sweethearted simpleton that wanted everyone to be nice to eachother like .. i dunno.. a Sunday school teacher or their babysitter.
nah. i had not one single thing to do with it, and didn't even know anyone who was on the dev team until a year after they'd hatemobbed me and i had to FIND OUT who they were for my own self-defense.
thanks, dumbshits, for introducing me to the dev team that way? fking brainworm-infested asses.

2023-08-17 14:20:04

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their lie is that i somehow, a whole ocean away, got the dev team of a video game i sometimes played to remove a player feature where they could thumbs down player-created levels.
except.. i used that feature all the time on trolly, hateful, useless things people made that shouldn't have ever been published. i used it every day i played, and used that feature to make sure those items did not start trending.
why would i of all people want to remove it? lol
they're empty-headed conspiracists.

2023-08-17 14:17:01

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i was trying to find some random thing i posted from the community and i couldn't find it..
but i did find how some random forum brought up not making profanity-laden posts and someone thought i made that statement? on a forum?
gurl, i don't use forums. especially not gamer forums. every time i ever did, some asshole comes out of nowhere to reveal himself as the local, resident asshole in chief like it is his job.
i don't give a hot wet fuck in Hell if you use profanity. lol

2023-08-17 14:14:18

::smirks a lot at the fact people still talk behind my back but the lie is that i'm a much nicer and more influential person than i am::
still yapping, more than 3 years after i quit a certain community because that certain community is an unmoderated trashheap full of toxic chan babies that hate-mob everyone.
i don't know why they decided i was the reason for every complaint they ever had, but it is kind of a riot of laughter to think they were still lying about me for at least 6 years.

2023-08-17 13:44:13

That time I thought I asked for a small portion of someone's time, but actually called them a small man.
And uh .. yeah, oops? But it was true and now that we've fallen out, it is endlessly funny to me.

2023-08-17 13:34:37

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There are only so many people I look up to.
Temple Grandin was one up and to that very moment she answered my questiom in front of an assembly of autism educators and care workers.
Was I the only one in the room with advocacy in mind? Maybe. I am known to be the one to say the thing no one else dares say. Maybe they were just being politely incurious.
I had a beef I wanted to pick at in public though, much like being at church, I gotta make a point while I can.

2023-08-17 13:31:09

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For the record, I mean in this case Temple Grandin.
You ever get a chance to ask a question to someone you look up to? Make it count.
I chose to shake the tree, grown on a pedestal. Bias shook out like so much fruit.
Disappointment was instantaneous. It hurt me to learn this about a community hero and rolemodel.
I learned more than that, tbh. It was heavy to process, but the knowledge was expected.

2023-08-17 13:22:05

i would love it if the world could move on from "thought leaders" that uphold functioning labels and discriminatory educational and care practices for autism.
it is as though humans can not accept leadership of any kind from anyone who is not old.
did you know sometimes old people take with them the inherited biases of their generation into the next?
get some new thought leaders once every few years and save yourself the trouble.

2023-08-15 03:08:50

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@npub1cqp…7vgx lol. Yw.
Wisdom from troubleshooting relationship critical failures should be passed on.

2023-08-14 22:57:15

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@npub1dc7…4rlj oh this is a topic i have many thoughts about. Lol

2023-08-14 12:23:31

He told me he felt like he was being tested.
Huh.
I don't test people who don't trip the sus wire. At that point, I'm testing for patterns, frequency, duration, etc. Call me an emotional statistician.
If you feel tested, you already failed.

2023-08-08 12:11:19

Question..
Have you ever been gifted or purchased a physical copy of music that you ended up hating so much you had to destroy it so no one else would have to listen to it either?
If so, what was it and how did you save the world from that copy?
I was reminded today of New Kids on the Block and how forced upon me that music was. I hated it a lot, and eventually put the cassette tape under my brother's tire so he ran it over in the driveway.
Good times. Bad music. Great way to break a tape!

2023-08-06 13:30:35

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@npub1yr3…nrs8 she's relentless.

2023-08-06 13:29:01

Currently doing work with a dog toy dangling from my wrist "just in case" of doggy play-attack.

2023-07-20 16:22:34

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@npub1zu8…apnw that sounds like a likely suspect, rule it out! hiss sound must GO!

2023-07-19 11:20:35

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@npub1hpc…hjn3 no one new. Just the old two opportunistic dudes everyone libertarian and/or anarchocapitalist trots out to sound pompous and cool.. if not timely or current at all.

2023-07-19 11:14:26

If you oppose fascism but advocate for people who fled prosecution of sex crimes (and major treason) to Russia...
Gurl, what team you on for real tho? Pick a side. You gotta decide what your values really are.
You can be an Edgy McEdgelord from the taintiest parts of Hell's own grundle, but you are not antifascist when you think that shit is heroic.
You are probs more anarchocapitalist and uh.. y'all are BAD wrong about EVERYTHING.
Get right, or gtf away from me at least.

2023-07-17 21:51:13

What was the best period for music in your life?
For me, I miss 1989-1994.
PM Dawn is one reason why:
https://youtu.be/Q5lByFc7HiM
#MusicHistory #90sMusic #PopMusicHistory