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🧠#MentalHealth /👁️#Privacy Advocate.

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I dislike politics for how its polarized the country I love. 🇺🇸

❤️ Love Thy Neighbor. Not love thy neighbor who agrees with you, looks like you, prays like you. No Its love thy neighbor, period.

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2024-11-14 12:21:30

My life isn't over and I will shine again. I will use the tools that have been given to me to help others understand the pain people who suffer from mental illness struggle with.
Verbalizing that pain to those who are scared of us because we battle our own minds is my calling.
We must normalize the treatment of mental illness and end the stigma.
#depression #bipolar #ptsd #anxiety

2024-10-21 00:57:20

For my mental health I will be eliminating my social media. So no more Instagram or Mastodon. I think its time I look inwards instead of outwards.
Thanks for all the kind words and messages sent to me. I hope sharing my pain has helped at least one person reading this feel less alone.
#anxiety #depression #ptsd #bipolar

2024-10-05 19:38:39

I Just #voted
Make sure you #vote like the US as we know it depends on it. Because it does.
#mailinballot #election2024

2024-10-04 23:50:38

Some days you just feel empty. You stay in bed and try and forget the problems of the world exist.
There is a level of isolation and loneliness that only some one with #depression can relate too.
Today is one of those days, tonight is one of them nights.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#bipolar

2024-09-09 21:33:59

#RIP James Earl Jones.
#JamesEarlJones

2024-09-05 16:13:58

When someone lets you down maybe it was your expectation of them that was unrealistic.
We tend to blame the person rather than ourselves for expecting more of that person.

2024-09-01 22:18:39

Some days I don't know which is happening faster, me losing my mind or the world around me losing its collective mind.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar

2024-08-15 14:51:29

My #COD account was hacked and I was banned from all COD games because whoever got ahold of it cheated.
You just made my switch to #Linux easier #activision
But I really should have used #2FA so it was sorta my fault.

2024-08-06 12:38:43

it's difficult to build self worth if the people in your life devalue you. When your told your worthless over and over, fighting that feeling and finding self worth can be challenging.

2024-08-03 20:21:48

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@npub1wup…vrs5 I assure you it was meant as a compliment.
You rock and I always look forward to your posts.
Have a fantastic day!

2024-08-03 20:12:23

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@npub1wup…vrs5
You don't even look old enough to have had a geocities page.
Back in my day we hung up phones on modems to get on the interwebs lol.

2024-08-03 14:18:02

Look at what you made me do #Windows . You talk about taking screen shots and putting ads in the taskbar! You made me buy a #Mac . I am tired of being in this abusive relationship with you #Microsoft now because of you I joined the #Apple cult!
Btw I now run #Linux on my desktop! Screw you Windows!

2024-07-16 00:04:06

Red or Blue your just as much of an American. Don't you think we both have taken this too far?
When will sane minds prevail?
Being civil to each other and not cutting someone off just because they don't vote your party. Damnit America, your better than that.
"A house divided cannot stand"

2024-07-15 20:54:50

People will show you there true colors in times of hardship. When things are bad, look around and see who supports you in your time of pain. Those are the genuine people.

2024-07-12 21:19:12

I have been battling with Social Security for disability for over 7 years for mental illness. I've written my Senator and Congressmen. My amazing psychiatrist wrote a 2 page letter on my behalf. I use to pull back to back 16 hour shifts in one of the business hospitals in NYC. If I could work, I would work. I love this country despite its faults but tonight it just feels like its failed me. I feel defeated.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-07-12 21:08:24

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@npub14e9…k85w Thank you Ryan.

2024-07-12 21:08:14

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@npub1shd…yzwy
This was really sweet. thank you.

2024-07-10 21:49:30

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@npub1je6…xjdw
lol Yes.. I need to invest in a silicone replacement faceplate and some baby wipes.

2024-07-10 21:07:27

Okay, So I guess I can get a decent cardio workout in VR.
#vr #supernatural #fitness

2024-07-06 21:49:58

If your having an extra dark night tonight and just feel the very pit of feeling worthless. It will end and there will be better days ahead of you. Pay no heed to that feeling of loneliness because I am right there with you. And so are many others. You are loved and deserve to feel better. Cry it out, and just do your best. Doing your best can look different each day.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-06-12 13:47:12

Someone reading this needs to be told they are loved today. I may not know you but you deserve love so today I am going to be that person. I care and I love you. I know this world can be so cold and isolating but you hold a special place in this universe. An intrinsic value that NOONE can take from you. Be this person for others and spread the love.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove #selfcare

2024-06-09 23:53:01

When your trying to make a video on men's #mentalhealth awareness month and your depression is telling you you'd be no good at it.

2024-06-08 15:40:14

"Living in a new world with an old soul."

2024-06-07 21:23:00

$30 #Meta #Quest credit when buying a device.
https://www.meta.com/referrals/link/BaZurk.com

2024-06-04 00:11:16

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@npub1v4r…fh0r
depression can be a slow boil and sneak up on you pretty fast.
When I feel it coming on I sit on my front porch and just get a little fresh air.
Your not alone my friend, remember that if anything at all.

2024-06-04 00:01:47

Let me say this totally clear, I am not ashamed to be #bipolar I am frustrated by it but not ashamed. This is not something I asked for. I was dealt this hand in life and I am trying my hardest to play it to win. But fuck if the dealer is on the take and feeding me shit cards.

2024-05-25 01:24:19

One of the reasons I still walk this earth is in the hopes someone out there can relate to my pain when I post and feel a little less alone.
Helping others has always healed a part of me nothing else could reach.
God I miss my old job.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-05-22 20:40:27

This darkness, it grasps at what's left of my inner peace. It weights me down to the bottom of the ocean like an anker. Depression you still have me but I'm learning more about how to fight you each day. I will use my mind to help heal my mind and overcome the evil illusions you haunt me with.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar

2024-05-18 03:03:34

People without depression will never understand how alone and isolated it feels. The darkest corners of ones own mind where the coldness and lack of hope prevail over all.
But you answer that your fine when people ask you because if they really knew what you battle, you'd scare them away.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar

2024-05-17 01:18:35

7 years I've tried to get disability from a program I paid into my entire working life.
What do they think? I woke up after a successful 16 year career at a hospital where I had been promoted 5 times and decided one day not to fucking work?
Well I am sorry I seem not to be able to prove to you my fucking brain is broken.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar

2024-05-10 22:07:36

Whether it be by personality or by my bipolar diagnosis, I am and always have been a passionate and sensitive man. Trying to figure out where I begin, and the mental illness starts continues to be an ongoing struggle.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove #selfcare

2024-05-10 15:01:18

Pain is a part of life, its a teacher if you can open your mind and heart to it.
Art can flow from pain as well as a deeper understanding of ones self.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-05-10 01:07:56

One thing I can't stand is crying in front of people. it's not that I am totally ashamed of crying because I understand I need to let the pain out. Its feeling vulnerable in front of people I don't know. The feeling of people looking at me when I have a difficult enough time looking at myself.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove #selfcare

2024-05-08 15:39:22

This whole fucking world is half crazy, the only difference is I admit it, face it, battle it while most run away or deny it or normalize it.

2024-04-29 02:21:55

Pain flows as tears down my face,
Memories haunting me like long dead spirits.
The cold hug of depression sinks in and the light in my eyes dim to a empty chasm.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-04-25 18:54:18

Feeling lonely.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-04-24 03:39:56

@npub15c0…hxke locked out of my account after one attempt?
How would I go about fixing this? Whats the proper channel?

2024-04-16 20:36:51

I didn't ask to suffer from mental illness. This is something that happened "to" me.
Why does the world treat me like it was my choice to suffer this path?
#anxiety #depression #bipolar #ptsd #mentalhealth

2024-04-16 02:19:14

https://media.social.lol/media_attachments/files/112/278/500/265/307/287/original/6b191b425c67c46c.png

2024-04-10 14:58:03

#Tidal is the new king of streaming music.
#hifi #music
https://media.social.lol/media_attachments/files/112/247/508/222/943/490/original/7b171fe696e453a4.png

2024-04-09 21:16:38

https://tidal.com/browse/track/159646953?u

2024-04-08 00:43:35

Just hold on Dave, this pain won't last forever.
"Bad things grow in the dark" So I will do my best to shed light on this painful battle I, and many other face to shed light on it.
Today I just can't stop crying.
#anxiety #depression #bipolar #mentalhealth #ptsd

2024-04-01 00:43:00

You deserve to be loved.
#depression #anxiety #bipolar #ptsd

2024-03-30 00:31:06

You deserve the love shown to you. No matter how depression lies to you.,
You deserve attention to your feelings. Express yourself.
You deserve to let that pain out. The only way out, is through.
Your worth practicing self love. Always be kind to yourself.
#anxiety #depression #bipolar #mentalhealth

2024-03-29 15:33:41

From this Roman #Catholic on #GoodFriday #Ramadan Mubarak to all my #Muslim brothers and sisters.

2024-03-27 21:04:39

“You will have bad times, but they will always wake you up to the stuff you weren't paying attention to.”
― Robin Williams

2024-03-24 17:31:42

Helping people heals my soul.

2024-03-23 11:51:10

Hold on, there will always be another sunrise where you see the world differently.
Good morning world. I am not defeated yet.
https://songwhip.com/the-wallflowers/one-headlight

2024-03-23 03:14:47

Episode 2, My story.
#mentalhealth #bipolar #anxiety #depression
https://www.instagram.com/p/C41woJhLOOZ/

2024-03-22 13:05:57

You don't "own" a #cat they own you and if your lucky enough for them to love you, you can consider yourself blessed.
https://media.social.lol/media_attachments/files/112/139/484/097/941/172/original/256f2093cbef8ee9.png

2024-03-21 02:40:35

Since my breakdown 8 years ago I deleted all my social media and left the state. Partly out of shame for my mental illness.
Most of my coworkers and "friends" I have not spoken to or seen in 8 years.
Well I am back on social media and I am tired of hiding my struggle. What sort of a hypocrite former Patient Advocate hides because of a condition he did not choose to have?
I am done hiding, This is who I am and I battle #bipolar
#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression

2024-03-20 13:51:28

For 7 years I have battled to get social security disability for mental health reasons.
I woke up this morning to another denial.
My country, as much as I love it despite its problems, refuses to take mental health seriously.
I was a healthcare professional for 16 years before my breakdown. A advocate for people. I could really use one for myself this morning.
#anxiety #depression #bipolar #MentalHeath

2024-03-20 03:37:06

This might be the first status message I've written mid panic attack.
This fucking sucks and I would not wish this on my worst enemy.
#anxiety #depression #bipolar #mentalhealth

2024-03-19 20:26:44

My first attempt at short form #mentalhealth videos.
I am not very good at them but I will continue to make them in the hopes it reaches the right person on the right day.
#anxiety #depression #bipolar
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6R-BhJCVtk

2024-03-19 18:36:29

I am alone..

2024-03-18 16:10:12

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@npub1kpl…2az3
Wait a second, you mean he lied? No way!

2024-03-17 16:40:49

Be carful of the questions you ask, you just might get answers that hurt you.

2024-03-17 03:06:47

"Sometimes when God makes individuals, He's showing off. Look At Ali" Mike Tyson on Muhammad Ali.

2024-03-13 15:20:44

Reality does not dictate mood, mood dictates reality.
You can steer the boat but not control the water.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-12 15:44:40

Jake Paul you are an idiot for fighting a close to 60 year old man. Mike Tyson is a valued part of my childhood and if you hurt that man the level of hate I will have for you will boil.

2024-03-11 23:20:25

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@npub1jx4…mf6e @npub1zpc…l3up
He's a good guy. Sucks we lost him to the Eagles but I wish him the best, Just not vs my #Giants
#NFL

2024-03-10 00:11:37

On average, there are 132 suicides per day in the United States.
Stop the stigma behind mental illness. Bringing light to those in the darkness and doing so without judgment can save lives.
If your in pain and need help. Please talk to a medical professional. Your worth it.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-08 14:19:40

"Hold onto me cause I'm a little unsteady"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0lw3qylVfY
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-05 17:24:58

Dark Chocolate hummus with fresh strawberries is fucking orgasmic.
That is all.

2024-03-05 17:18:34

You don't need to be anything other then your genuine self for you to deserve to walk this earth.
When depression hits you, please remember you are worth the love others show you. Even if our own minds lie to us.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-05 15:56:07

Forgive yourself and give yourself the grace you deserve.
Holding onto pain and guilt deteriorates our souls. Love yourself enough to let go and heal.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-05 15:55:43

Forgive yourself and give yourself the grace you deserve.
Holding onto pain and guilt deteriorate our souls. Love yourself enough to let go and heal.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-03-05 15:49:31

I have been humbled many times in my life and I would not give up those moments for anything.
The greatest lessons are best learned while on ones knees bowed in humility.

2024-03-05 15:45:08

The older I get the less war makes sense to me. The reasons behind it always seem empty and pointless. The justifications shallow and without merit.
Men of power and influence trying to gain more of both at the expense of the masses.

2024-03-05 15:29:47

#Music has the ability to bring emptions out of me in a way nothing else can. It can relay a sense of peace to my chaotic mind.

2024-03-05 13:06:44

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@npub1cze…4lua
No but I own the game. I'll try it for you.

2024-02-29 16:18:48

I am so done.

2024-02-28 15:15:19

"Sometimes I smile to keep things easy, I hide in corners hope that no one see's me."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUbTU1ojKho
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove
#selflove

2024-02-23 23:45:25

To be a man by Dax
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHxip2x-PLc

2024-02-18 19:29:14

"But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;"
Matthew 5:44

2024-02-18 01:13:53

Typing this on a #meta #Quest3 on a VR keyboard.

2024-02-15 18:41:15

Sting - Fragile
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lB6a-iD6ZOY

2024-02-14 16:50:46

Pain levels are overwhelming today.
#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove

2024-02-14 03:10:06

Oksana sleeping
#cat
https://media.social.lol/media_attachments/files/111/927/633/588/983/542/original/1d5806520587a016.png

2024-02-10 23:09:52

I do
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tm8LGxTLtQk

2024-02-08 14:15:39

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@npub1ewx…y3dm you provide awesome services and it's the least I could do for someone who is always trying to improve them.
Thank you for all that you do, you are appreciated!

2024-02-03 18:36:53

Empathy is the key to fixing this world full of cold dark places.

2024-02-02 23:27:35

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnrVk2InT3Y

2024-02-01 05:37:28

Goodnight world.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zzyfcys1aLM

2024-02-01 02:37:27

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@npub1yud…a0zl
Got the email and gift sent ordered!

2024-01-29 01:20:28

This #Giants fan really wants to see the #Lions go all the way.
#NFL

2024-01-28 13:36:13

When you hurt so bad you just want to scream into the dark until someone gives a shit.Or at least be told to shut the fuck up as an acknowledgment of being seen.

2024-01-27 20:13:04

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWrGjzBheno

2024-01-25 21:42:26

It bothers me with how much I hate #meta I still want a #quest3 so badly.
I am having trouble reconciling these feeling.

2024-01-25 13:17:54

Good morning people. We each bring something special into this world. Find your calling and run like the wind can't catch you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrMLMV6E4CM

2024-01-24 19:12:17

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@npub1c9a…knew
Very uplifting of you, thank you.

2024-01-23 19:32:39

Because we all need to be told we are loved.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YjVXPlutAMI

2024-01-23 16:14:21

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@npub12gj…j3qh
Yeah I can see that. Good idea letting us choose the region we are willing to ship too. well thought out tbh.

2024-01-23 16:07:05

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@npub12gj…j3qh I was able to get my friend from Asia to join. Hopefully you get more Europeans.

2024-01-23 16:02:04

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@npub12gj…j3qh
How's the turnout so far?

2024-01-22 03:51:38

#mentalhealth
#anxiety
#depression
#bipolar
#selflove #selfcare
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2024-01-22 01:57:12

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@npub1x24…cx77
Good game, like a heavyweight fight.

2024-01-19 20:28:34

I've come to understand that a person can jusitify anything to themselves.
Label a person into a group you disagree with and you can completely dismiss them.
Alienate them as somehow subhuman and you wont bat an eye when they are mistreated and abused.
Give in to toxic triablism and that "us vs them" attitude can even penitrate the most "religious" of us.
It's a shame mankind has forgotten how interconnected we really are. How the wealth of our differences enrich us all.

2024-01-19 14:56:59

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@npub1ena…3hxk
🇬🇧

2024-01-19 06:19:22

Wide awake thinking entirely to much tonight.
Thinking about people in my life that I have lost, friends, family.
People that I would have never imagine not having in my life.
Friends who felt more like family.
I guess I am just feeling extra lonely tonight.