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connecter // truth seeker // breathwork & meditation teacher // mental health & integrated health grad student

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2025-01-26 11:07:19

I love Costa Rica

2025-01-22 00:30:02

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🥳
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2025-01-22 00:19:30

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Agree with you on this. I’d add the caveat that trauma can (and often does) go far beyond overt child abuse. I like to think about trauma as an adverse response to something negative that happens in a person’s life that impacts their internal schema and their perception of their lived reality negatively. I.e, trauma isn’t what happens to us, but our neurobiological response to such events. Hope this makes sense. But to your point - child abuse is a silent epidemic in the US that must be adequately addressed for the betterment of society.

2025-01-21 14:50:03

This TikTok madness and spectacle of an inauguration beg the age-old question - why would anyone be pro more government?
Are we not mortified yet?

2025-01-19 18:21:15

TikTok is already back up 🤣🤣🤣 what a waste of influencer tears

2025-01-19 00:33:27

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If you figure it out lmk

2025-01-17 17:33:50

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So good

2025-01-15 01:16:52

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👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

2025-01-15 00:34:15

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100000%

2025-01-15 00:16:56

treat people like trees
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2025-01-13 22:48:55

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I resonate with this so deeply. Going to dig into it further. Seems like it could be really supportive for both myself and the people I work with. Thank you for sharing 🤍

2025-01-13 19:49:53

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2025-01-13 19:26:54

sunset in santa teresa last night
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2025-01-09 07:49:26

‘Those that say, don’t know. And those that know, don’t say.’

2024-12-13 04:04:30

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What I’m working on is psychoeducation for high school/aged girls, so I don’t think the term anti-fragile would translate well in this context.
I haven’t heard of the term eustress. This is a super interesting concept, I’m excited to do some research. I can definitely relate to experiencing post traumatic growth, but we never hear it spoken about in therapeutic contexts. Thanks for offering this perspective

2024-12-10 05:10:09

Love this perspective. Consider my mind expanded this Monday evening.
I’ve been working on a project where I refer to “mental-emotional resilience” as a key indicator of mental health. It didn’t feel right, so today I changed it to endurance. Not sure about that either.
I love the idea of striving for something greater than merely “getting through” hard shit, I.e. displaying resilience, and instead repurposing the experience to create something productive/sustainable, I.e. anti-fragile (whatever that means in context of said “hard shit”)
#note1dxm…8e8t

2024-11-22 04:43:28

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BBC replicated the experiment in 2002 and found that group dynamics and leadership were major factors in influencing the guard’s treatment toward prisoners, I.e. void of leadership - the guards were not motivated to participate in violence or abuse toward the prisoners. It’s covered in the doc and easily found online. That’s why I used that specific language when responding to what conclusions could still be derived from the study. However, given the obvious flaws in the design of the study - I’m in agreement that we should default to not knowing.

2024-11-22 04:31:27

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Agree with you on this. The point I was making was that the study doesn’t prove that people are inherently evil when given access to power. Can see how my phrasing sounded absolute and appreciate the clarification.

2024-11-21 22:50:17

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Yes, when directed leadership, people have the capacity to do bad things- as we have seen historically. However, it is not an individual’s first nature to be evil, violent, bad (whatever synonym resonates) unless influenced. The current understanding of the study is that when given power, all people are bad, which is incorrect and harmful.

2024-11-21 22:06:29

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The phD who led the study rigged it to get the results he was after. A ton of issues with the study - the guards didn’t know they were subjects, he told the public there were no rules except no physical harm but he did a day of training to prime them to be aggressive, etc. highly recommend checking out the doc. Many of the subjects came back and share their POV

2024-11-21 21:41:14

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The Stanford Prison Experiment: Unlocking the Truth. Streaming on Hulu via National Geographic. Was just released last week on 11/13. It’s wild.

2024-11-21 21:32:45

Am I the only one who didn’t know that the Stanford prison experiment was a complete scam? Looking back, it was referenced constantly in my social psych lectured in undergrad. Now I understand that it’s only so well-known because Zambardo was manipulating the scientific community and media to make money & gain power. Shocking!
Important reminder to be critical of “science” until it can be proven as _science_
And highly recommend you watch the doc on Hulu if this is new info to you too.

2024-11-07 07:11:09

I haven’t been active on nostr lately for reasons largely unrelated to the application itself…
It’s no coincidence that I popped back on the day after the election. I had a feeling that people would be having honest, informed conversations here. I can point it to craving humanity over the msm driven illogical perception of collective tragedy.
My intuition was right. Nostr is a safe place to disagree, be curious, and communicate with authenticity. What a breath of fresh air.

2024-09-07 16:00:31

Also we need to get houseinhabit aka Jessica Reed Kraus on here. If you don’t know her, I highly encourage you to look up her work

2024-09-07 15:58:25

What’s the nostr equivalent to primal for longer form writing?

2024-09-05 12:47:19

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Can relate

2024-09-04 22:16:30

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2024-09-03 17:41:24

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Thanks for sharing!

2024-09-03 16:10:34

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Yes have heard so many amazing things about the carnivore diet. I’ll eventually implement it myself. My boyfriend was on it for quite a bit. If/when she starts feeling better, this could be a super supportive next step. Thanks for sharing!

2024-09-03 16:01:50

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She is aware that her alcoholism is rooted in early life and complex trauma. She’s seen therapists on and off for years. Gone to rehab, done everything she could with what she knew. Psilocybin has been clinically proven to mitigate dependency on substances & improve depression symptoms, so we are hopeful.

2024-09-03 15:57:20

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Of course, will update on here as I have them

2024-09-03 15:57:05

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Absolutely!!

2024-09-03 15:43:43

My 67 y.o. aunt has worked as a nurse in a traditional hospital for 40+ years. She has struggled with depression & alcoholism for as long as I’ve known her and has not found a biomedical treatment that works. More notably, she is the funkiest, coolest, warmest, and most loving woman I know.
She saw that I’ve been talking about microdosing mushrooms as a mental health intervention on socials & expressed interest in giving it a try. We just got her all set up for a consultation this week and then she’ll place her first order.
Massive win for my family member’s health. All it takes is an open mind and a little bit of hope.

2024-08-30 02:29:18

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So happy it landed with you!

2024-08-30 01:42:48

💭💬🗯️
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2024-08-30 00:48:06

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Hi Brooke!!! Hope to see you soon 🩵

2024-08-29 16:52:34

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Ooooh I can’t wait to explore this! Hi @npub1qt0…3u0d 🦋

2024-08-29 16:28:09

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Completely agree. I’m in school to become a psychotherapist, so everything you mentioned are tools I’m aware of, will leverage in clinical work, and practice many of them personally.
In my work specializing in women’s health & trauma, I view breathwork as the most powerful holistic healing modality to heal. But it’s all about whatever works for the individual, there’s no one size fits all model to healing. 🩵

2024-08-29 07:02:16

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Sent you another one ❤️

2024-08-29 07:02:03

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I’m laughing so hard

2024-08-29 06:56:31

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Could not agree more on all of the above.

2024-08-29 06:55:01

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Yes, completely agree with the power of natural somatic experiences. I haven’t spent too much time exploring positive psychology but it is totally up my alley. Need to do some more research.

2024-08-29 06:51:23

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In my experience, the impact of breathwork on my health & relationship with self has far exceeded balance and burnout. Not only does it allow us to shift from sympathetic to parasympathetic nervous system functioning, but it creates openings to altered states of consciousness, increased connection to our subconscious, and the creation of new & improved neural pathways.
Love the comparison to the volatility of bitcoin. Specifically your mention of the pause between the inhale & exhale and the power that space holds.

2024-08-29 06:45:45

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Totally - and inner freedom translates to outward expression, i.e. progress

2024-08-29 06:32:06

gm 🤣🤣🤣🤣
#note14r0…uhmg

2024-08-29 05:30:24

Bubbling up this post I wrote a few months ago. You might notice that I put breathwork on par with Nostr and Bitcoin as it relates to potential for societal impact. I’m sure many of you will disagree with me. Please do. That’s why we’re here.
I believe breathwork is revolutionary in that, like Nostr and Bitcoin, it’s a freedom tool.
Connecting with our breath allows us to exit the matrix of suffering and small mindedness bred from chronic stress & fight or flight functioning. It serves as a vessel to unrealized expansiveness, creativity, and safety in our bodies. Breathwork created inside-out transformations. Although the science is sound, I often refer to it as magic.
Without breathwork, I wouldn’t be on Nostr fighting for a healthier society. I would still be hiding from the world. That alone is enough to convince me of its power.
#note1060…8avq

2024-08-29 04:43:36

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The myth of normal by Gabor mate

2024-08-28 14:15:46

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Agree. So much more work needs to be done, but it gives me hope that people are finally becoming aware of the gaps in healthcare for women.

2024-08-27 22:42:05

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🤣🤣🤣🤣

2024-08-27 22:41:23

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Welcome!!! Can’t wait to connect on here.

2024-08-27 22:36:07

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I’ve never been introduced that way before but I will take it! Hi!

2024-08-27 22:35:32

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Vegetables work too

2024-08-27 22:31:38

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I’m not. I’m a grad student in school to become a psychotherapist. I pursued a six month breathwork certification, as I believe it’ll support my clinical work as a somatic processing therapeutic modality. I definitely invested in the training, but with the motive of better supporting the people I will serve through my work.

2024-08-27 22:26:34

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Hey - thanks for keeping me honest on this. You’re totally right, my math was way off. That’s why I’m in a non-technical profession lol. I also saved the meta-analysis you shared. Lots of powerful data in there.

2024-08-27 20:40:44

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This is awesome. I’d love to connect with her when she joins!

2024-08-27 20:34:53

Aside from what Nostr has taught me about Bitcoin, I’m so fucking grateful to have been introduced to decentralized social media.
Prior to being on @npub12vk…pugg , I didn’t really talk about the things I care about on the internet. It felt counterintuitive and dishonest to talk about health on centralized platforms that consciously make us sick.
I’m so thankful that Nostr has given me somewhere to start playing with my voice. It has given me hope and community.
I’m wholly convinced of its ability to create a free, autonomous, creative, and connected global community. A healthier society.
We just need to keep sparking our neighbors’ fires.

2024-08-27 20:13:48

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Thanks so much! Happy to be here.

2024-08-27 20:12:32

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LOL

2024-08-27 20:12:05

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I’m very grateful for them

2024-08-27 20:11:20

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This is a super fair point. There was definitely a naivety present, but what I meant was that I hadn’t made the critical connection between money and health until I joined Nostr. Hope this helps.

2024-08-27 11:48:26

Hi!
I just got back from a breathwork retreat in Hawaii and learned that @jackmallers shared the story of how I became a Bitcoiner through introducing me to @primal.
Jack’s right, I’ve never been very interested in money (or at least I thought I wasn’t). What I am interested in is people, our integrated health, and the implications it has on collective society.
Nostr helped me to understand Bitcoin not only as a superior monetary technology, but an unparalleled humanitarian tool. Here’s why I’m so bought in:
- It’s been proven over and over that safety is the foundation of integrated health
- Centralized unsound money = collective lack of safety
- Decentralized sound money = collective safety
- Collective safety = better integrated health & healthier society
It’s really as simple as that for me.
I’m grateful Jack shared my story because it perfectly illustrates how change happens. By making it matter to people in a way that sparks their fire. Jack is really good at that.
My spark has been lit. I look forward to lighting my neighbor’s through honesty, connection, and freedom - three tenets of bitcoin that make me a believer.
#note1psg…z94y

2024-08-12 18:24:45

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Thank you! That means a lot

2024-08-12 16:53:51

Re last post, I strongly believe that PMDD impacts more than 3% of people who menstruate. The 8% figure makes a lot more sense to me.
I think about the implications of lack of awareness and access to care in lower socioeconomic / less wealthy environments constantly. Imagine how many women don’t have access to diagnosis + care who are forced to live a nightmare plagued by severe mood swings, depression, intense irritability, panic attacks, and fatigue — to name a few. These women have no choice but to believe that there is something inherently wrong with them because they don’t possess the ability to maintain relationships, show up to work, comprehensively function in their day to day lives for half of every single month. It’s a very real disorder with very real consequences when untreated.
It took me over 5 years to get a diagnosis and I’m an affluent, upper middle class white woman.
The lack of funding for PMDD research is yet another example of a systemic failure by a government that gets paid to protect its citizens. I see none of that happening. Shocker!
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2024-08-12 16:40:44

The more you know….
I’m hell bent on bringing awareness to this Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder.
If roughly 2.3 million American women suffer from PMDD and the suicide rate of those with PMDD is 34%, that means an estimated 782,000 women are dying from this disorder annually.
WHY ISN’T THIS BEING ADDRESSED????????
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2024-08-12 15:26:05

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The top down narrative surrounding these hugely powerful modalities in healing people who are sick is disgusting. I’m so sorry to hear about your family member. We need to keep talking about this so the conversation shifts for future generations.

2024-08-12 15:24:12

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I totally agree with you. I’m grateful that this tool is getting to people. It’s frustration with how corrupt the system is. But thank you for reminding me to see the light :)

2024-08-12 15:22:29

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Thanks for sharing. Couldn’t agree more with everything you had to say. It’s systemic failure after systemic failure because we can’t trust the people with decision making power over our health.

2024-08-10 19:27:50

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Correlates*

2024-08-10 19:27:15

MDMA assisted therapy officially rejected by the FDA. I genuinely believe that directly correlated to many lives lost to PTSD and depression. Abolish the FDA. Start from scratch. What a joke.

2024-07-24 23:15:38

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Easy to ignore evidence if it doesn’t align with your agenda

2024-07-24 23:15:09

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I was interested in this too. I’ve seen some research that both IBS and fibro are onset from chronic stress/trauma. My assumption would be that the psychedelic treatments are used to supplement root cause therapy sessions. Need to research more though.

2024-07-24 22:02:45

Weaponized incompetence from the government, shocker
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2024-07-24 21:11:09

At the very least can we hold ourselves accountable for how educated we are as a nation and not simply believe everything we are told?
Critical thinking skill is basically non-existent as it relates to politics and it’s baffling.

2024-07-24 20:59:57

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Louder for the people in the back

2024-07-24 20:36:28

With everything happening politically currently, it is clearly recognizable how blind many Americans are to the reality of the state of our government.
Speaking psychologically, people in power are always going to strive to get more. Politicians no longer need the people to get it.
They need us tired, sick, depressed, and unhealthy.
The most recent FDA ruling against using MDMA therapy to treat PTSD is a clear as day example of this.
The research on this drug is ASTOUNDING. Leading researchers noting that its outcome is “almost double that of existing medications”.
Just ONE member of the FDA advisory committee had expertise in psychedelics. This member argued that the committee might have “misunderstood the aspects of the treatment”
To that, isn’t the only logical reasonse is that those with decision making power should ensure that they understand the treatment.
This shit makes me sooooo fucking angry. They understood. It’s threatening to the power the gov holds if people wake up and are healthy.
Ughhhhhh ksskdkdj
So much work to do

2024-07-16 17:43:11

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Words of Gabor Mate… I found it profound as well. Even more, I’d argue that true curiosity requires compassion.

2024-07-16 17:42:14

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2024-06-26 21:13:13

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The more curious we are about others behavior, the more we can understand/empathize with their lived experiences, motives, influences, etc. therefore resulting in more compassion for them.

2024-06-26 20:27:54

What if compassion is a side effect of curiosity?

2024-06-15 00:07:47

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Oooooooh this is so good

2024-06-14 20:38:57

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Couldn’t agree more

2024-06-14 04:23:04

Once you begin to really get to know yourself and value authenticity, it’s terribly difficult to engage with those who don’t. I try to remind myself that they are likely operating from a place of disingenuousness as a protective mechanism to avoid pain and/or rejection.
The most “real” people I know have gone through times in their lives where they lost themselves completely and operated from a disconnected place (I include myself in this statement).
Resilience is finding the strength to remember who you are again, in your own time, at your own pace.

2024-06-12 19:59:50

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🤣🤣🤣

2024-06-11 20:25:33

👏🏻
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2024-06-11 20:25:13

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2024-06-11 04:24:01

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Days 3-8 — not 3-6, only 2 days left of the first round then 5 days integration before round two. Curious about shifts in consciousness during the 5 day integration period.

2024-06-11 04:19:10

Hi- I haven’t posted daily updates because it felt important to allow myself enough time to draw material insights from the subtle shifts in consciousness I’ve experienced over the past few days of microdosing 🍄🍄‍🟫
So, without further ado, here are my day 3-6 insights:
- the largest shifts remain the same as days 1&2: increased mental clarity, elevated mood, experiencing deeper connection to and presence within my environment, yet more detached from passing thoughts and emotions
- I’m experiencing a subtly stronger connection to subconscious / God / spirituality, find myself focusing on it more & praying with ease, God feels like a more material part of my daily life — which I love. Im highly spiritual by nature & have felt a connection with a higher power since a young age. Lost it a bit due to mental health stuff yada yada but feels gratifying to feel like its natural to lean in
- I feel more in control of how I respond to irritants and stressors. I feel an increased ability to maintain agency over my responses to my external environment
- _significantly_ decreased PMDD symptoms leading up to my period which I’m so thankful for 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 those who live with pmdd will seriously benefit from this and it gives me hope. I will likely start microdosing during my luteal phase every month and tracking my symptoms. This part of my cycle is when I experience the greatest difficulty in maintaining healthy relationships with my mind & body bc of hormonal shifts that lead to extreme anxiety and depression. I feel like I’m cracking a code for integrated health intervention for pmdd and I’m pumped about it
⭐️overall I feel more authentically myself with just a subtle .1 mg of psilocybin in my system for the past 6 days. I feel more connected to my purpose, my environment, and the low time preference values I hope to lead my life with
Looking forward to continuing the experience - I’m considering altering the dosage slightly after this 10 day round ends this weekend so will post about that if so

2024-06-11 04:00:11

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I went through blue Sunday marketplace - super easy. Set up a 5 min consultation, you get access to the marketplace, they express ship it to your door. The site is: https://www.bluesundaymarketplace.com

2024-06-05 11:08:48

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I just looked it up and will 100% be reading when it comes out, thanks for sharing

2024-06-05 04:00:38

Microdosing day ✌🏼insights,
I woke up feeling pretty low energy. Lethargic and foggy from the second I woke up. My body felt heavy as I walked my dog a few blocks.
I took the .1 cap of psilocybin & a lions mane cap on an empty stomach, made breakfast, did virtual therapy, and within two hours I felt significantly more mentally clear, energetic, and overall in a more gratifying mood. This could be correlated to the mushrooms or the fact that my body had a few hours to turn on the engine. Either way not complaining about the turn around
I decided to read 10 pages of the Bitcoin Standard everyday while I’m doing this. I’ve been picking it up, reading a few chapters, and trading in for a psychology book that is more my speed for a few months. Buuuut I challenged myself to finish it while on the microdose regimen bc I want to learn and it could be an interesting experience to assess
I’m about halfway through the book and it’s the first time I’ve ever taken notes while reading. I was able to connect the dots more clearly between concepts relating to the economic impact of national currency & the current mental health epidemic and “toxic society” founded on loneliness, high time preferences, and trauma that I read about in Gabor mate’s most recent book. Again, could’ve been a placebo but making neural connections b/w new & old data felt more seamless today
Other than that just a normal day, no material difference in my somatic processing or perception of surroundings (as expected given low dose and antidepressant suppression)

2024-06-03 22:24:09

Microdosing day ☝🏻 insights..
As expected, nothing earth shattering happened today.
I woke up, walked my dog, showered, did Breathwork, prayed, set an intention for the next month, and took my first .1 capsule.
I’m in the luteal phase of my menstrual cycle (5 days out from my period) and as someone with premenstrual dysphoric disorder, that means chaos. Quick to tears/heightened sensitivity, irritability, decreased capacity to regulate emotions, decreased sense of self worth. It’s a party in my body right now 🥳 in all seriousness, I’m used to this as I experience it for a week out of the month, every month.
With this, i’m taking it easy today. I went to the park with my dog and read a little bit. Grounded with the grass. Took a nap. Resting & being. My best friend is making me dinner tonight to keep me company because @npub18uk…quqm is out of the country for a few weeks.
I’m hopeful that after a few days of microdosing, I might start to notice material improvements in my mood and relationship with my mind-body as I navigate the next week of PMDD symptoms.
Will be taking the caps for the next 10 days, will take 5 days off to integrate, and then another 10 day cycle.
Honestly no idea what to expect but I am hopeful and excited!

2024-06-03 22:14:50

Love this.
Therapists are trained to support you in reaching optimal clarity, authenticity, and integrity in your relationships with yourself, those you prioritize, and the ecosystems in which you reside.
Therapists are NOT meant to act as authoritative figures in any capacity. If that’s the case in your therapeutic relationship, RUN and find someone who knows that they’ll never know you better than you know yourself. We are only here to help you remember the most authentic, powerful, and alive version of who you are.
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2024-06-02 19:11:04

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I went through blue Sunday marketplace. You can find them on google. They’ll want to set up a quick consultation (to make sure ur not the cops) & then will send you the package I received. There are options to do honey, capsules, or tinctures. It was a really seamless client experience.

2024-06-02 19:08:55

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Absolutely. I’m taking .1 mg capsules daily. I have read extensive research on the integrated health benefits of microdosing psilocybin, so I’m going on this journey with an open mind & open heart to see what might arise. No specific KPI’s at this point. I’m currently on 50mg of Zoloft which does interact with the mushrooms so I’m interested in seeing how that impacts the experience. I’m really doing this to use myself as a self-study for future psychedelic assisted mental health work with clients.

2024-06-02 19:05:19

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The reiki infusion was such a nice surprise! Made me feel safe

2024-06-02 19:03:53

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Elite* omg

2024-06-02 06:56:56

Okay I didn’t start micro dosing today bc I did Breathwork and something in my subconscious told me to wait a day, BUT what I will say is that as far as seed oils go, funyans are slept on. ELETE processed snack

2024-06-01 00:49:24

!!!
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2024-05-31 23:42:22

Day 1 of microdose regimen starts tomorrow. Gonna use primal as my personal diary as I go. Stay tuned 🕺🏻❤️
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2024-05-16 03:58:01

Without a common sense of what is “right”, groups fracture and the fragments wander. Science and knowledge can guide action; they do not cause action.
(The moral determinants of health, Berwick, MD)