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2024-01-29 16:46:57

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@npub1k0h…xygc All I can say is, lmao. You're not special lady/dude. Quit riding your horse, you're not orgasming

2024-01-29 14:58:41

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@npub1dph…t7jj I know myself

2024-01-29 13:16:59

The extent to which religion has stretched its roots into society is concerning. Destroy every god rooted belief. It's unproductive ah putting it conservatively

2024-01-25 12:50:29

Calling someone dumb doesn’t help. It’s the lazy way out. Most people don’t and can’t care
As for me, it’s highly conceivable that I’m autistic (or adhd, not officially tested), which when left untreated all these years rolled into an unbearable burden. Turning me into a socially crippled (I always had a hard time talking to new people, well before the secluded depression), academically waning and all the usual characteristics

2024-01-22 07:05:07

They maintain centralised blocklists to keep their herd in mental harmony ig, https://github.com/fyrfli/fedi-blocklist/blob/main/blocklist.csv. Includes the usual suspects including mine. Ironically, a good place to lookup favorable instances

2024-01-18 18:15:17

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@npub13hd…u8sh Unrelated but distro of choice? I see you're using i3wm or sway too

2024-01-01 13:17:12

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I awkwardly whisper greeted and walked out asap

2024-01-01 13:16:22

I'm out. As I walked out a 10 something year old greeted me like I'm a 50 year old. Maybe she was trained like that. Damn, I'll have to be careful whether I look young and modern. All these years of stress and depression killed my soul and body. It shows

2023-12-31 08:06:18

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@npub19uj…ctex It can be a friend or a partner as well according to Merriam Webster. The context has the responsibility of clarification
"a person who is important to one's well-being
especially : a spouse or one in a similar relationship"
https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/significant%20other

2023-12-31 07:51:41

It's hard to decipher what girls think of me for the role of a life long SO. I can read faces a little bit. Definitely need to talk. It's like I'm purposely disabling myself despite having fully functional vocal cords

2023-12-30 16:01:36

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@npub19uj…ctex you inactive on Matrix these days?

2023-12-29 15:17:10

I just ate. I'll now have to get down to wash my hands and face from this uppermost berth. There's a beautiful woman whom I'll have to face inadvertently. I hate putting on bad impressions. Out of my control now. It would be fine if it was a kid, man or an ugly woman

2023-12-29 12:50:02

I normalise when outside. Who would've thought the solution to rotting inside my room is to gtfo

2023-12-29 11:21:35

Is it just me, that it takes an awful amount of effort for me to concentrate and understand

2023-12-28 08:03:12

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@npub1kce…nezs I did. Yesterday. It's irregular, every alternate day on average. Why?

2023-12-25 08:46:01

2 pm. Without the game, I'm spending the time on the phone listening to music, writing shit on Husky or listening to audiobooks, podcasts and lectures on YouTube from the likes of Russell, Hitchens, Kafka and Spengler
You might think I might have transformed into a greybeard intellectual by now, being into philosophy, science and shit, and away from the current thing-s. The truth is, I'm painfully slow at understanding and absorbing knowledge. I've to rewind three times or so. You already know why. I'm not sure if there's an inherent genetic factor
https://annihilation.social/media/bb298aef-ab3c-44a8-8ee5-c4b3a20bec57/Screenshot_2023-12-25-14-02-49-69_af127cd2724e3e44d1f9db7d6c946c06.jpg?name=Screenshot_2023-12-25-14-02-49-69_af127cd2724e3e44d1f9db7d6c946c06.jpg

2023-12-24 17:01:31

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@npub19uj…ctex ChatGPT is the goat "smart" dictionary, nobody sees as such

2023-12-24 16:47:36

Terse
"The term "terse" is an adjective that describes something brief, concise, and to the point. A terse statement or writing style conveys information in a succinct and straightforward manner without unnecessary details or elaboration"

2023-12-23 17:43:21

I'm stuck in an infinite loop of indecisiveness

2023-12-08 11:04:58

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@npub19uj…ctex I probably failed to word it in the native norm. Elaborating, I'm at home and my family has been trying to be lean and more reasonable after my official diagnosis of depression instead of the usual "do what I tell you do dumb mf". My father is a naturally pushy and extremely dominant character. He told me to bathe asap because it's the winter season. I instead relented it to after half an hour. He exploded into rage; guilt and shamed me and the usual suspects. It's the first time I "talked back" instead of a normal back and forth reasonable conversation. They think I'm too dumb and inexperienced to even be understanding basic shit like this

2023-12-08 10:34:01

I'm taking my atheist propaganda to the next level after a feud with my sperm donor after he tried to vigorously push me to bathe me at a specific time as he normally does. I talked back like any other self respecting adult does for the first time. Small things like this integrate to an unbelievable amount of covert control even throughout adulthood. Asian parenting for you. Fuck society

2023-12-03 02:55:41

Everybody is being incredibly supportive. Depression made me think everybody wants to harm me

2023-11-15 17:57:18

I don't want to reply to any of the comments. Exhausts me mentally. I don't get their unhinged support for nazism. Whatever. I'm here for free speech, not politics

2023-11-14 12:23:18

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@npub1t77…hu5t Yes, it's legal and close to the minimum wage. Can't disclose the country, but somewhere in Asia

2023-11-14 07:13:07

Witnessed someone with a $260 per month salary buying an iPhone :facepalm_cirno:

2023-11-10 14:25:04

For the average person here, a salary of $30,000 is considered the baseline for being classified as rich

2023-11-02 11:58:38

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@npub1vm2…uh2l Looks about right. Plenty of undiagnosed issues I can correlate to. Might as well add this to the list

2023-11-02 11:38:31

Nothing interests me anymore. Just kill me
https://annihilation.social/media/7b2c0614-f5ef-43de-a2e2-44a769a98c4b/tenor_gif4420771675058203042.gif?name=tenor_gif4420771675058203042.gif

2023-10-18 04:56:41

I've stopped thinking. Most of the times I parrot

2023-10-07 08:26:47

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@npub1lar…q5vr What else remains the alternative? The few friends I've can't help much (because they don't know much), plus they don't wanna spend time untangling a big fuckup like me. Parents don't believe in mental health, themselves having the emotional maturity of a 10 year old. I've tried to do it myself, but the progress has been slow af

2023-10-07 08:16:23

Why do I keep feeling it's illegal to see a therapist? My parents? They had monumentous amount of control over me for such a long time, rendering me incapable of thinking for myself, even under obvious circumstances. I just can't get myself to do anything they possibly will disagree with

2023-09-20 02:14:35

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@npub1x6h…c3yv @npub19w2…rr2f So you're not a girl

2023-09-19 03:00:32

If you're in a privileged position and refuse to interact with less privileged folks (actual reasons, social anxiety), they are going to turn against you, if they don't want to obliterate their worth

2023-09-17 05:23:42

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@npub1lar…q5vr Specially the goth. Can't wait to get my hands on one 🤤

2023-09-17 05:12:36

:goth_gf: :pepe_idiot: :sad: :open_pepe: :pepe_cat:

2023-09-11 08:15:26

Validating my feelings through others? Why not

2023-08-26 14:51:27

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@npub1gke…3xp3 Some deep shit

2023-08-20 14:28:33

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@npub1c9k…727g @npub1zna…wtpl Have you tried RCS? With the Google Messages app you also get individual and group encryption. You just have to replace the default SMS app with it, if it isn't already

2023-08-20 13:06:58

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@npub1zna…wtpl As expected. That's where most FOSS software tend to die out for the average user

2023-08-20 04:27:20

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@npub1zna…wtpl Why? If you don't mind answering. Aren't you worried that telegram is by default unencrypted

2023-08-20 04:06:56

I'm a coomer... I'm a coomer...

2023-08-20 01:39:59

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@npub1lar…q5vr You religious by any means?

2023-08-20 01:33:38

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@npub1lar…q5vr I will try to be consistent today. It's hard, specially when it involves social interactions. I will have to do it anyways, if I don't want to die homeless
It's 7 am. Fresh morning, with some birds chirping. It rained last night. Hmm, perfect time to begin. I usually wake up at 9, because I stare at my goddamn phone all night, until my body forces me to sleep. Not last night
Good morning btw

2023-08-20 01:14:20

If I actually do the things that I write in my to-do list. I will improve