npub1gg8jda85zwydw5ejh3s87fdt4s377cusafhn2kf9gurk9xl5tt9sl4439g (npub1gg8…439g)
So feel so much of this.
I always took care of my mom.
She wanted to die most of my childhood, threatening suicide, I would plead with her not to bc that meant I would be left alone, the sole focus of my father's abuse, I spent time trying to convince her to leave him. So much so, he wrote a manifesto about how he needed to "eliminate" me because I represented "strength" to her.
I eventually convinced her to leave.
But my role was sealed. I went on to always be the parent. I didn't know how to not be.
This all said, I miss my mom. A lot.
She would always allow me to vent about work and she was down for a rant about trump (all my life).
Wallflower🌺 /
npub1gz…3dkg4
2023-10-03 08:22:44
in reply to nevent1q…2cdm
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2023-10-03 08:22:44Event JSON
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