Jessi

Behavior technician. Writer/artist.  Mother of micro preemies, Jake and Julia (15); join us as we navigate modern healthcare & life with multiple disabilities.

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2024-09-20 00:35:57

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 13. How do you visualise a scene when writing it?
Emotional mapping.

2024-09-19 01:06:38

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 11. Do you write old-school or digital? A mix?
Both. I have trust issues.

2024-09-19 01:05:32

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 10. Do your characters have birthdays or anniversaries during your story?
Yes. Many are based off the accumulated tragedies that seem to cause flashbacks at those times. Lots of deep wounds exposed and those can be traced. Have to be able to trace them in order to heal. Some of the characters are psychologists, they enjoy those kinds of journeys.

2024-09-19 00:58:35

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 9. Do you go to book festivals?
No.

2024-09-19 00:39:13

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 6. Where is your book listed?
It's not.

2024-09-19 00:34:57

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 5.
What kind of birthday cake would your main character/s enjoy?
Devils food chocolate cake with strawberries and whipped cream. Total indulgence.

2024-09-18 23:57:41

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@npub18wd…vs4h
Sounds good. 👍
Have you thought about a whole food diet plan? I find that it helps with cravings and boosting discipline. Or finding a social diet group? Then you could combine a couple of those goals.

2024-09-03 03:00:38

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#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 2. What is your favourite part of the writing process?
Freedom vs discipline.
>creative balance<

2024-09-03 02:56:26

#writerscoffeeclub - Sept 1. What have been your writing-related achievements in the last year?
Refocused priorities. This had a cascading effect on open writing projects and my life in general. Change is good.

2024-08-28 03:20:27

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@npub18wd…vs4h
I have way too much energy right now. I'm trying to find the ability to sleep but I'm kind of enjoying not being tired. 🙃

2024-08-28 03:18:49

I had time to explore outside yesterday. And yes, the lake mirror effect is so pretty. I'm continually stunned.
I love this time of year. Will love it even more when it finally cools down another 10-15 degrees. 😆
#kansas
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2024-08-17 00:24:11

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@npub15te…wdn7
We've had a lot of rabbits here too. More than usual and pretty bold. When I'm out running, they don't even scamper away. 😆

2024-08-15 22:25:41

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@npub1yf8…5j7z
😆 I love to see honesty in my feeds.

2024-08-12 23:30:08

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@npub18wd…vs4h
Hope it got better.

2024-08-02 02:52:53

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 31 - Next> Many writers have a wealth of ideas. What will you write after your WIP? Let us know.
I'd love to be more candid on SM about the real dynamics behind raising developmentally disabled children and assisting others with communication challenges.
But like with anything, privacy and advocacy is a tricky balance. ~which is why I like to escape into fiction. Maybe one day I'll figure it out. ❤️

2024-07-31 01:17:08

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 29 - Acknowledgements> Will you acknowledge anyone for this work. Who? You don't need to be too specific.
Just my kids. This is how young they were when I started writing. They're in high school now.
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2024-07-31 01:08:55

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 28 - Epilogue> Does your WIP have an Epilogue? Share a snippet. How do you feel about Epilogues?
No epilogue. Just doesn't fit with my style.

2024-07-31 01:07:08

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 27 - Denouement> Is everything tied up at the end, or are there questions remaining? Can you give us a hint/clue/cryptic clue?
Morals matter.

2024-07-31 01:03:15

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 26 - Favourite Scene> Share a snippet of a favourite scene in your WIP.
I've been stuck on this one for a couple of days. I can't think of a favorite place. I think it's because I like the transitions from scene to scene better. The immersive gaps. But that's difficult to describe without understanding the process of flashbacks/ptsd and the particular character. >That was then, this is now. Relearning security.

2024-07-31 00:55:53

I have way too much fun at work sometimes. 😀
#worklife
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2024-07-25 23:01:32

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@npub18wd…vs4h
I'm not jealous. 😆 I snacked on fudge brownies a couple times today while at work. Made them with black walnuts, was special. Oh the kids were so active today though. Needed the calories.

2024-07-25 22:53:08

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@npub18wd…vs4h
Oh wow. Yeah, that'd be worth it. 👍

2024-07-25 03:05:57

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2024-07-24 23:03:04

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@npub1l7s…xwpn
Exhausting but full of fun.

2024-07-24 02:55:48

It's been a long day.

2024-07-24 02:53:08

Was so behind on my writing prompts. 😆
A rose. 🌹
#bloomscrolling #photography
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2024-07-24 02:32:29

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 24. Pace> What's the mix of character, description, dialogue and action in this WIP? Is this your usual style?
I like to follow the natural problem solving filters of life. Absurdity can exist, it just has to become believable. Intelligence itself is seductive. It conflicts with conscience choice. Reaction or silence.

2024-07-24 02:21:09

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 23. Subplots> Does your WIP contain any subplots, perhaps between secondary characters? Share a snippet.
Drastic measures.
Grief navigation.
Complex manipulation and deceptive tendencies.
It's impossible to have a character wander off the page and not wonder of the background entanglements.

2024-07-24 02:07:45

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 22. Tone> Does your WIP contain any humour, romance or horror elements? What's the tone? Share a snippet.
Tone: discovering information they don't want to know + coping skills.
So a little bit of all.

2024-07-17 00:27:02

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 16. Theme> Is there an overriding theme to your WIP? What is it?
Grief, survival manipulation, love. Misguided passion.

2024-07-17 00:22:43

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 15. Antagonist> Does your WIP include an antagonist? If so, who is it? What's their relationship with the MC? Share a snippet.
All of my characters struggle with internal demons. Some truly are their own worst enemy.

2024-07-17 00:19:27

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 14. Setting> Where is your WIP set? Why did you choose this setting? Describe your world-building.
Modern times. I wanted to capture some of the raw survival nature of our world.

2024-07-17 00:11:54

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 13. Story Inspiration> What inspired you to tell the story in your WIP.
Write what you know. ~a college professor as he encouraged me to write fiction for a career.
For a poor creative, natural talent doesn't pay the bills so I didn't take his advice. Until one day I had a dream I couldn't let go and a life situation I wanted to escape. It all kind of bled together.

2024-07-13 00:17:59

Yay, weekend!
#bloomscrolling #kansas
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2024-07-07 14:33:50

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@npub18wd…vs4h
wow, you've had the exact same thing as me this week. Nice succinct summary too. 👍

2024-07-06 19:08:51

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 6. Prologue> Does/will your WIP have a prologue. Share a snippet if you've written one. How do you feel about prologues?
No. I don't have a prologue for this WIP. Yet I feel like they have their place. Opportunities to provide clarity and context help.

2024-07-04 15:08:46

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 4. Front Matter> Do you have standard front matter (copyright, TOC, promotion, etc.) that you'll apply to this WIP, or does it vary between projects? Share your design.
Yes.
100% proceeds towards the care, advancement and protection of developmentally disabled children & adults.
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2024-07-04 00:32:28

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@npub18wd…vs4h
I actually felt like I was caught in a time loop today. So I feel you.
Got to the end of the day and then the billing software crashed. Couldn't leave until the notes were done. Yeah, good times.

2024-07-04 00:22:35

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#writerscoffeeclub - July 3. Title> Do you have a title for your WIP or just a working title. Please share. How do you decide on a title?
Fairly set on this title: EVOKATIVE as it's a play on the word evocative and the character who haunts them all, Kate.

2024-07-03 22:57:11

Local. #kansas #disability
https://www.kake.com/story/50982870/discipline-used-in-wichita-public-schools-was-discriminatory-the-justice-department-says

2024-07-03 22:45:50

I think it was because it was rainy all day. ☔
Plus it was hot, so it was like a sauna.
#bloomscrolling #kansas
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2024-07-03 22:36:41

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@npub1tfp…0mnp
I really appreciate all your prompts.

2024-06-30 20:46:57

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@npub18wd…vs4h
oh this weekend is slipping away faster than I'd like but lots of rest happening. Helps that I bought a watermelon.

2024-06-30 20:34:48

I've been blessed with a huge load of tomatoes again. I love this variety.
Last year I picked one of these 'ugly' tomatoes at an Atwood's nursery on a whim, was a strong performer - even with the ongoing drought and typical Kansas conditions.
Usually I grow heirlooms from seed but this year didn't have time. So happy I'm getting the same results.
#tomatoes #gardening #kansas
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2024-06-30 19:52:12

Great information.
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2024-06-30 19:48:04

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2024-06-30 15:33:36

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 29. If Netflix were to make your WIP into a series, what would the soundtrack sound like?
The music wouldn't have words. It'd be dynamically chaotic. Actually whatever I'm listening to right now is fairly close. Song: Lost (instrumental) - Pylot - Solai

2024-06-29 03:01:32

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 28. What audio/visual artistic work (TV, movie, play, painting etc.) has been the biggest influence on your writing?
Real people living their lives. Especially the 'invisible' ones that society has discarded or forgotten.
It's raw passion, imo.

2024-06-29 02:00:58

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@npub18wd…vs4h
Thanks. 👍

2024-06-27 01:48:20

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 26. How much time elapses between your WIP's first and last chapter?
Not sure because I haven't settled on the exact scenes but it's a negative amount. I like backwards storytelling. Firm believer in the 'once you know you can never go back' frame of mind when it comes to character development because it mimics real life discovery.

2024-06-22 00:33:50

Tonight's flowers. The heat has been kind. Finally got a chance to water them. ☀️
#flowers #bloomscrolling #photography
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2024-06-18 02:15:58

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@npub18wd…vs4h
I'm not even sure I can recall what a cicada looks like. I don't think we have them here yet.

2024-06-17 22:30:32

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 17. Do you lose track of time while writing or editing?
Yes. At one point I was addicted to the escapism factor. Everything else seemed like a waste of time. It was super unhealthy but I can't honestly say that I regret pushing the limits because I now know what it's like and what is possible. I had to lose my sanity in order to find it.

2024-06-15 02:43:32

Political Emotional Cartography 001 - Mirage
'so far to go'
#watercolor #painting #pollart
A new series.
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2024-06-12 01:43:21

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 11. Is it okay to use a comma before a dependent clause? Or anywhere else?
Sure. I'm tired and I'm not sure what that means. 🙃

2024-06-12 01:14:43

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 10. Do you revise and add more plot if you feel your story is too short?
I can't imagine writing a short story in the first place. I guess I'm stuck in epic mode.
Although I do admire those who write poetry.

2024-06-12 01:07:29

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 9. How do you select ideas from all the ones floating around?
It's unconventional but I create excel spreadsheets.

2024-06-08 03:40:36

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 6. Have you queried agents for traditional publishing? How did it go?
Not really. I'm disappointed with traditional publishing and SM. I'd much rather hold my own agency.

2024-06-08 03:24:45

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 5. Have you ever dreamed about characters in your work?
It's one and the same for me. I spend a lot of time daydreaming.

2024-06-08 03:17:03

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 4. How do you handle highly intimate scenes?
As general as possible. Some things are better left to the imagination.
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2024-06-08 02:58:25

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#WritersCoffeeClub - June 2. Do you have any regrets as a writer, or do you never look back?
Writing is a free flowing process for me and unending. No.

2024-06-08 01:58:01

A rose from the garden. 🌹 ❤️ #bloomscrolling #photography
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2024-05-21 03:33:53

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@npub18wd…vs4h
I haven't been on here in awhile and yet I scrolled through tonight and saw your posts. And started laughing. 😆
I hope all is well.

2024-02-10 16:28:11

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@npub18wd…vs4h
me too. Finished my first full week of in person employment. Such a huge life adjustment.

2023-11-22 16:41:54

I have a personal rule that I do not drive that often around Thanksgiving, so I'm kind of stuck indoors for the next few days.
If someone has ever driven around Wichita, you understand.

2023-10-01 20:45:58

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@npub15te…wdn7
I've been looking to upgrade, love Canon's. Thanks! 👍

2023-10-01 00:33:30

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@npub15te…wdn7
Looks delish! 👍

2023-09-18 13:42:03

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@npub15te…wdn7
We need a gentle barn here. 👍

2023-09-15 14:59:38

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@npub15te…wdn7
Good luck!

2023-09-15 13:47:56

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@npub1ahq…wjwd
Thanks for including me. 💖
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2023-09-08 13:01:37

This was from yesterday but still pretty.
#BloomScrolling #photography
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2023-08-30 13:29:43

More flower combos. Today is hibiscus and roses.
#BloomScrolling #photography #garden_backyard
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2023-08-28 01:14:01

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@npub15te…wdn7
Ooh I wonder if that's the same part of Arkansas my ex husband was dispatched to for utility work emergency. It was really nice there. I just can't remember the name of the town but it involved Walmart. If so? Yeah, those were gorgeous builds and area.

2023-08-24 02:48:06

Crazy things I found today while out on the mall adventure.
Gummy hot dogs? 😆
#explore_joy #candy
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2023-08-21 02:17:02

Sourdough banana bread. 😊
It was delicious.
#Breadiverse #sourdough #glutenfree #food
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2023-08-18 23:58:24

I do enjoy being a mom to highschoolers. ❤️

2023-08-18 23:54:49

From 2012. I told Julia her new reverse walker probably wouldn't work on grass, but she wanted to try anyway. 😊
#FlashbackFriday #determination #disability #cerebralpalsy
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2023-08-10 19:57:22

Another sunflower, why not? I have so many right now. 🌻 😎 ❤️
#BloomScrolling #photography #kansas
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2023-08-10 17:26:45

From this morning, I found a bird dropped a seed into my water fountain. It sprouted. 🌱 😍
#photography #nature
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