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2025-04-03 19:25:47

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@nprofile…k0gl Very well, eat bad food.

2025-03-30 18:13:43

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@nprofile…5f97 It's true it's true but I have a very particular brain. I only know 3 people who I feel normal around

2025-03-20 23:54:59

Not to talk like a zoomer but being a zoomer is so hard everyone your age has attachment issues and will randomly stop talking to you cuz they're idk afraid or something

2025-03-16 21:18:45

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@nprofile…t7vk @nprofile…cqa5 @nprofile…hpkt NARUTO THE JUNGIAN MASTERPIECE

2025-03-16 21:15:35

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@nprofile…t7vk @nprofile…cqa5 @nprofile…hpkt One time I showed Ao Haru Ride to my deceased husband Leaf Lord and he was like "This is too powerful... the normies must not be aware of this manga.... the dangers of the kali yuga........"

2025-03-16 21:13:05

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@nprofile…t7vk @nprofile…cqa5 @nprofile…hpkt Yeah? Well I read all 13 volumes of Ao Haru Ride twice in two days!!!!!!!

2025-03-16 21:09:35

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@nprofile…cqa5 @nprofile…t7vk @nprofile…hpkt I watched four episodes of the og dragonball at my friends house those guys are pretty strong for being a foot tall

2025-03-16 20:33:16

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@nprofile…t7vk I practiced in the hyperbolic time chamber (Imagining the several paragraph long descriptions of dresses in the Wheel of Time)

2025-03-16 20:20:43

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@nprofile…t7vk 1. I like to imagine it in mist with little droplets of water going down it too

2025-03-08 16:50:11

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@nprofile…k0gl Teehee doing a little time traveling back to childhood it's like a fantasy book

2025-03-08 04:01:59

ptsd has been kicking my ass the last few weeks

2025-03-07 02:12:28

Sometimes people tell me "I wish you'd watch/play/read x just so I could hear your opinion on it," which feels like the fateful outcome of being forced to learn critical art theory at like four years old by my parents

2025-02-22 02:45:58

I had a very bad day I need some grump music

2025-02-22 02:15:56

I don’t really get gender war stuff. As far as I’m concerned women and men are both perfect

2025-02-18 19:28:47

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@nprofile…k0gl Nuh uh nuh uh nuh uh me and From Soft broke up after they put out an open world game

2025-02-09 03:03:41

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@nprofile…3j8n @nprofile…hpkt Also tbh I think the focused aspect of it isn't as fun. I like that I get to work out my entire body at once when I'm doing actual labour, feels more wholesome somehow

2025-02-09 03:02:42

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@nprofile…3j8n @nprofile…hpkt It just feels sort of empty to work hard when I'm not getting anywhere or doing anything

2025-02-09 02:57:02

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@nprofile…hpkt It is mentally painful for me compared to physical labour

2025-02-07 23:46:14

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@nprofile…hpkt Never meet your heroes I suppose :blobsob:

2025-01-20 23:36:21

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@nprofile…k0gl Good, been working hard translating and editing. Feels amazing to have a job I enjoy and to be starting a career. My pissing has been adequate I would say. How have you been king Benis?

2025-01-20 23:29:05

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@nprofile…k0gl Ehhh ehhh???? Ecchi ecchi hentai baka !!!!!!

2025-01-02 02:33:31

Can any transgender or transgender brained (computer expert) people explain to me how ro verify element on ios after updating it?

2025-01-01 05:36:25

https://youtu.be/H6wmm8XXWd4?si=9zWQcu69I_5ZUuPL Listen to the good shit goodnight

2025-01-01 03:12:31

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2024-12-31 18:58:34

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@nprofile…t7vk Ah is the daimon supposed to be the higher self?

2024-12-31 18:55:02

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@nprofile…t7vk Fascinating (i have no ifea what ur talking about)

2024-12-31 18:51:12

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Just laugh at them

2024-12-31 18:48:49

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@nprofile…t7vk Or hers

2024-12-31 18:48:43

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@nprofile…t7vk Yeah and then beat his ass

2024-12-31 18:48:26

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@nprofile…8v9a Anything that gets you to have “lightness of heart”

2024-12-31 18:47:00

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@nprofile…gfl4 Probably have but the cult of literalism makes it impossible to know what demons are intuitively since they’re really just like psychic flora and fauna basically

2024-12-31 18:43:41

I keep trying to teach people the one quick trick to demon immunity and they NEVER listen what the hell

2024-12-31 18:40:03

I am too ill to party today so I am inviting my mother over to watch movies

2024-12-31 18:38:45

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@nprofile…w4fy Nothing personally to me. It’s just sad watching people I love make the same mistakes forever, and being unable to help!

2024-12-31 18:35:28

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@nprofile…k0gl @nprofile…lq09 Are we bullying Grips into getting swole????

2024-12-31 18:31:25

Often I have zero expectations of people and they still disappoint me

2024-12-31 03:39:11

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@nprofile…ja0h This is all made up btw

2024-12-31 03:38:17

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@nprofile…5f97 Idk how to say this but that's the most beautiful and romantic thing anyone has ever said to me thank you

2024-12-31 01:32:21

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@nprofile…5f97 https://kyl.neocities.org/books/%5BSOC%20BER%5D%20the%20unsettling%20of%20america.pdf read it

2024-12-29 16:56:01

I should make an actually good translation of the Dao De Jing

2024-12-29 16:01:56

Had a dream where me and fedi user bot became best friends and played Halo 3 together

2024-12-20 23:22:38

Feeling kinda billions lately

2024-12-20 05:25:04

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@nprofile…xfx6 @nprofile…azjd How is saying I die melodramatic? Lol. Immortality is not here yet

2024-12-15 06:44:02

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@nprofile…cf8e Bless them. I’ve come a long way but I’ll probably be insecure until I’m married for ten years lmao

2024-12-15 06:18:25

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@nprofile…cf8e Nuns not being bothered make sense buy yeah it’s pretty impossible to imagine a woman in society not being insecure about her appearance. That’s our entire existence mostly, we’re meat competing with photoshopped plastic

2024-12-15 06:13:03

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@nprofile…xfx6 I should become a politician

2024-12-15 06:12:45

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@nprofile…z5q5 That makes sense

2024-12-15 06:11:39

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@nprofile…xfx6 Lololol true

2024-12-15 06:08:21

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@nprofile…3cxa It’s all projection yeah but I’m sure it’s fun while it lasts

2024-12-15 06:06:59

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@nprofile…3cxa Narcissism is insecurity

2024-12-15 06:05:58

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@nprofile…3cxa PERHAPS

2024-12-15 06:05:49

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@nprofile…3cxa Have you ever met one lol

2024-12-15 06:04:34

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Pre menopause ofc

2024-12-15 06:04:27

Is there any woman on Earth that isn’t extremely insecure about their appearance honest question

2024-12-14 23:51:58

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@nprofile…96ll Your car could probably be used by the fbi to assassinate someone

2024-12-11 17:52:21

Everyone likes joining fanclubs but would you all join my Nietzsche hater club

2024-12-11 00:13:00

Straight women my age always play flirt super hard and it always makes me feel strange. Like stop playfully calling me your wife and kissing me when you literally have a boyfriend omg

2024-12-06 02:57:49

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@nprofile…4w83 It's winter I need a toque or I die

2024-12-06 02:52:58

My head hurts a lot I think my toque is too tight

2024-12-05 23:48:22

Fedi is the only place on the internet where I can be anti drug and people agree with me which makes it extremely important for my mental health

2024-12-05 20:14:08

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@nprofile…4w83 I'm friends with a Buddhist religious studies professor at Yale and she was teaching me allegedly pre-sectarian Buddhism, then taught me about Theravada and Mahayana

2024-12-05 19:43:15

I have been enlightened about Buddhism and i now realise the truth, it's pretty fucking cool

2024-12-04 01:16:56

I feel like people on fedi must all have souls or something. If I talked about love transcending time and space anywhere else I'd get told I'm insane instead of having a bunch of people say "same"

2024-12-03 21:36:01

Whenever I'm going to fall really in love with someone in the future I notice it within one or two conversations with them. I get this sudden realisation that feels like it comes from outside time and space and I go "Ah, it's going to be them..." Then I expect it to go on forever, but it doesn't. Maybe third time will be the charm.

2024-12-03 19:19:10

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@nprofile…9xz0 @nprofile…xfx6 Where'd you visit?

2024-12-03 18:50:51

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@nprofile…xfx6 Better economy than everywhere except America, and is not retarded unlike America. Lots of different unique pockets of localised culture. National culture of neutrality and polite tolerance while respecting privacy. It's just a country where I feel like I can be an individual, but not in an American way where you're forced to put on a persona and sell yourself. And ofc, it's full of space and nature.

2024-12-03 18:44:12

I actually love Canada

2024-12-03 02:37:18

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@nprofile…msu3 YA fight me

2024-12-01 17:35:09

What side do you fall on
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2024-11-30 22:44:45

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@nprofile…k0gl @nprofile…4w83 Yes but not for fart sniffing, it's not by a German, Daoism believes that the Dao is beyond words so it tries to express it through paradoxes and strange parables

2024-11-30 22:38:27

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@nprofile…4w83 This is definitely true in a lot of ways, Ancient Chinese is a super ambiguous language, in a sort of primitive caveman way. A lot of the words are full of strange mixed symbolism that blends into each other. The first passage of the DDJ for example would literally be something like "Way that is wayed goes against regular way," which frankly makes no fucking sense on its own and requires a lot of effortful interpretation and a lot of context from the rest of the work and surrounding works to make sense. There's also a lot of commentary on it throughout the centuries, but it's impossible to know how much of this commentary and how much of our modern understanding is a tradition we project on an ambiguous text and how much of it is an accurate reading.

2024-11-30 20:25:58

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@nprofile…4w83 Translation of the ddj is really hard because a lot of lines have 3 or 4 meanings but you can only render one in English, which is why I wanna do a commentary too

2024-11-30 19:59:11

I've been considering doing a translation and especially commentary on the DDJ since I still haven't found one in English that seems remotely satisfactory, but I also worry it will be completely illegitimised by some random obscure Chinese text that I missed and have no way to know about

2024-11-28 20:27:42

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@nprofile…vk8e Different ancient cultures perceive consciousness as originating in different parts of the body so it's totally possible that chakras aren't merely where we experience the sensations of emotion, but that imagining the chakras also makes us experience the sensations of emotions in those locations and allows us to work with those created locations in particular.

2024-11-28 00:59:58

I thought Canada was expensive but UK houses and food are twice the price of ours lmfaooo

2024-11-22 19:52:15

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@nprofile…evh7 @nprofile…g05m It’s not separate from them. It’s just outside of time and space in a particular way. This is why in China there are two souls, one that leaves the body and one that stays with it.

2024-11-22 19:50:13

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@nprofile…hwva @nprofile…5y84 That would be incredible. Wrestle next time you’re in Canada? @bot

2024-11-22 19:43:32

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@nprofile…g05m That’s why i love mathematicians

2024-11-22 19:43:04

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@nprofile…g05m I don’t think anything exists outside the universe. I think our senses, our mind, our tools, our microscopes and math are tools that measure parameters, and the “soul,” of a person is not transcendant but rather an immanent gestalt of everything that person is, which cannot be defined or understood by any of the parameters we use to measure the world, but rather through our own existence as an immanent gestalt of everything that we are. This is the “thing in itself,” a nearly inconceivable mystery which is irreducible and cannot be turned into any other form. The best we can do with all our parameters is summon it, or lead us to it with metaphor or paradox, or display everything outside of it.
You can completely know someone, but the form of knowing is different from what you expect, since it requires reaching out to them with that part of yourself, that immanent totality of you. This is how great artists, seers, prophets, mystics, etc, approach the world.
This part of you feels transcendant, because it is not beholden to the mind, and as such feels as if it is outside of time, because our linear experience of time is generated by the mind. In reality time has happened, and we are acting through it.
This easily explains the free will conundrum, but it’s hard to understand why without direct experience. The reality is the universe is material, but something else as well, and we can intuit it and share it and act by it and overthrow it, but we cannot calculate it.
You’re sort of right. Paradoxically there is no actual barrier between you and me, and yet there is something material that makes us separate. Everything in existence both exists individually while being a part of and entwined with everything else in existence. This bends reality and reaches beyond time, which is why we can touch a dead man’s soul in his works, or love someone who we cannot touch, or identify with something that is not us.

2024-11-22 19:26:22

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@nprofile…g05m You can see every level of a person, but the part that sees is just as deep! You can do the same with objects and moments and stories and plants, just have to learn to look at the thing in itself with the thing in itself.

2024-11-22 19:14:21

@nprofile…5y84 Here
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2024-11-22 19:10:05

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@nprofile…g05m Not sure if I agree that real life has imperceptible things, or that stories are all perceptible. I’d say the big difference is a story is a story and real life is actually physically happening but what do I know.
You’re not too far off. The quote has very specific metaphysical implications in the context of the book. But yeah, you have to see through every outer layer of a person to see the thing in itself that is them, something which is rather difficult and rare! Which is why true love and true recognition are so incredibly valuable.

2024-11-22 18:58:12

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2024-11-21 02:00:06

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@nprofile…w4fy No i just refuse to read on led screens. If I got an ereader id pirate

2024-11-21 01:55:06

Why are non fiction books so insanely expensive? First time I’m considering an ereader. Can I petition the library to buy them or something??

2024-11-20 01:40:10

Is it normal to crave red meat basically 24/7

2024-11-17 14:33:14

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@nprofile…cmzh I’m just scared of homeless people in the dark okay…

2024-11-17 14:29:59

Waiting for the sun to riiiiise so i can go hike

2024-11-08 22:44:24

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@npub1c60…r7tq i never drink skim cuz it ruins my stomach

2024-11-08 22:38:17

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@npub1c60…r7tq I don’t know. Maybe cuz it’s like 3.25% fat

2024-11-08 22:36:39

>get home after an exhausting day at work
>needmilk.jpg
>take the milk carton out of the fridge
>remember it says shake before serving on the carton
>violently shake it
>covered in milk from head to toe
I am literally the most vacant person ever born omfg

2024-11-08 18:36:49

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@npub19fh…22k2 Yes, perhaps it’s good to just trust in what I know is right. Although it may not seem so in front of my eyes, i know the universe is inherently just in some manner, and I can keep heart knowing that what I do will ripple to somewhere far away, whether it’s the next cycle in this every revolving wheel or somewhere else unknown.

2024-11-08 17:19:06

At times, I feel like a tiny helpless mote trying to stand against all of entropy. If this universe is nothing but an endless domino effect of karma, consequences fractally expanding outwards eternally until the universe fades away, I want to stand against that and bring something good into the world, somehow, even if it lasts only a moment.

2024-11-08 16:57:18

Will Trump defeat xenoestrogens or is he useless

2024-11-06 03:37:10

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@npub1kdy…2hnf He’s a good writer, his fiction is quite lovely

2024-11-06 03:18:30

Leaf Lord was right

2024-11-02 00:15:06

I think the Catholic church is genius because my estimation of it has increased by 50% after seeing Luce

2024-10-15 03:11:16

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@npub12kq…f4j5 @npub1scj…el3p @npub16q7…jrgp @npub1g55…xdg2 I like all of my family, even my mom although I'd prefer she is not very involved in my life at all. They're all dumb but I love them and enjoy their company

2024-10-15 03:06:07

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@npub12kq…f4j5 @npub1scj…el3p @npub16q7…jrgp @npub1g55…xdg2 I prefer Robert Jordan's phrasing "She was handsome rather than pretty"

2024-10-15 03:03:55

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@npub1g55…xdg2 @npub1scj…el3p @npub16q7…jrgp Actually my grandma with dementia screamed "That's a man!" when she saw her so that was accomplished already. It felt too mean though so I felt bad