tforbanan

The bizarre misadventures of a man in search for meaning.
Basically just another breathing idiot, go follow someone else.

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2024-05-20 23:28:29

I haven't posted here in a while.
A lot of things happened many months ago, like someone I cared about suddenly passed away for unknown reasons.
This started a chain reaction of events, I broke up with good woman - a descision that I later came to regret.
I said goodbye to some friends where boundaries had irreversibly been crossed, still miss you but I think it's better this way.
I hid in solitude and waited for the toxicity to spiral out, housecleaning, workout, work, gardening and more work on myself, letting go.
It was a horrible night.
And you already know what they say about the morning sun.
I'm ok 😊🙂

2023-12-09 15:48:39

I kinda figured it out, the more time you spend productive and not thinking about whatever it was.
The less hold it gains over your present and future.

2023-12-06 13:01:46

I am very upset right now. I responded to a late night call last weekend.
Showered, shaved and went out into the freezer.
Everything was fine and dandy, we had fun, but ever since Monday I've been receiving a barrage of messages about STD issues that makes me want to jot down the last lines of my will.
I made a few calls and scheduled for testing.
I wish to make a statement, this is not ok behaviour.
And is highly unattractive.
If you ever suspect or have issues im the nether regions, go get tested first. Period.
I'm out!

2023-12-05 21:43:33

Gm nostr, what a beatiful day~

2023-12-02 11:58:27

My heads hurts.. I geralted deep into uncharted territory... I made it out alive, for now. I think..
#nevent1q…a37d

2023-12-02 11:51:29

Gm nostr, found this post stuck in outbox, but the context is sadly lost to me as well:
The suspicion that you're the elephant and nobody's willing to tell ya.

2023-11-28 22:07:13

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Since it's nostr, your nsec should never leave your browser, cookies are created by servers
So the only two other locations I can think of is localstorage and indexeddb.
Try running this in your js-console
```
localStorage.clear()
```
That's all I have :'-)

2023-11-28 21:34:25

Hit the gym, pondering my dope-low and the meaning of life.
Anyone else feeling like finding the right one, settling down and produce offspring to hopefully keep ya occupied?

2023-11-28 21:27:07

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There are more ways to store data than cookies.
1. Visit site
2. pop your dev-console `Ctrl+shift+i` or just right click anywhere and chose "inspect element"
3. Locate tab "storage".
4. Right-click everything and choose delete/purge
Hope it helps :-)

2023-11-25 23:57:37

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@npub1q9y…wty4 - this is the thing you were fixing right?

2023-11-25 00:19:17

Do do doodie dum dum, dodie do do, crash!

2023-11-24 23:04:06

Jidderstop i min kropp

2023-11-17 03:11:31

What do you do when your achievements have piled up, your motivations grow pale and you're tired of everything but don't have the funds to escape?

2023-11-12 04:22:31

Oh sigh, went to party, while trying to get the entrance fee sorted, girl comes up to me and starts flirting.
I haven't even set foot inside before she proposes to take cab to her place.
Note to self, wake up earlier & goto parties earlier to enjoy the music.

2023-11-09 21:19:01

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The golden ratio for sugar was discovered.

2023-11-04 13:22:01

I hate missing people of the past,
Looking forward to meeting you of the future.

2023-11-03 03:12:53

Today I confessed to a girl and asked her out on a date and mere 2 hours later I responded to a random bootycall.
It feels like messed something up but I can't put my thumb on it right now.
</drystreak>

2023-11-01 23:01:46

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No-coiner reporting in, where are the rest of us?

2023-10-29 21:42:06

Politely asked the doctor for a reality check. She confirmed that i'm ☣️.
Respect and gratitude to the graceful women out there.
Logging out
#nevent1q…m7tx

2023-10-29 01:17:37

But damn, chapter 9 is killing me. I need the gym. Ttyl

2023-10-29 01:13:28

OK, here's the hard truth, I went to the wrong party.
It was wierd, I got the eff outa there, honest mistake.

2023-10-28 23:26:18

OK , danced some, consumed 3 hearts, shared to insta , party is looking better #shitfaced

2023-10-28 22:50:40

Moon rocket landed, texted bro, and bosslike dude and also texted with some chick I met abroad.
Shit i'm at a party and i'm playing with my shiny square, bad party

2023-10-28 21:38:19

Here we go again wish me luck 🤙
#nevent1q…t62a

2023-10-28 11:23:10

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Why aren't citizens revolting?

2023-10-28 01:21:35

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Whatever you decide just do it so I don't have to think to much, that's my only request.

2023-10-28 00:35:24

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Uh, does that mean I need to adjust my lists to get some quality content?

2023-10-28 00:31:32

Also tonight I had a wierd conversation with a pretty woman, she told me she's afraid of dick but still can't get enough of it. I held a straight face and replied "I love licking pussy, it's so soft."
For some wierd reason she got offended, provably something else I did wrong, point is i had just fallen down a flight of stairs, the adrenaline was still pumping in my ears, i'm good though, completely unscathed 🤙
Anywhoo, let's pretend I didn't share this gotta go sleep, big day tmrw.

2023-10-28 00:23:00

I'm so in love with life.
Fuck last time I was this happy some woman came and ruined my life.
Eh eff it. I'll just lean into it when it happens, i'll live.

2023-10-26 22:00:24

I'm back home again, cleaned the apartment, unpacked the bag, watered the plants, finished work.
The chaos is starting to overflow again. I don't know if it's my ego talking or the id.
Thursday, Restless 🧛‍♂️

2023-10-26 21:54:26

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I haven't figured it out yet, I don't wanna register at some place and I got no clue what happens to zaps if my selfhosted wallet is offline.

2023-10-25 23:04:47

Speak what you wish #nostr but keep your 🚾 habits sporadic, and be sure to apologize properly to those you may have wronged.
It's mature/sexy.
#nevent1q…ksfu

2023-10-25 23:00:08

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Yes that is the rational conclusion, one which we usually arrrive at after having ventilated all of that bottled up 💩, I think as long as people don't start ventilating in unison then nostr's pipelines should sucessfully be able to dissapate the pressure away from the mainlines.

2023-10-24 11:28:03

I love soltitude, because I need it sometimes.
I love people, because I need them sometimes.
Keeping it balanced is important.
Thank you to all the amazing people who's path I trod 🙏 you people are amazimg ✌️

2023-10-22 03:03:09

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I have exactly zero memory of posting this,
The fuck was I upto?

2023-10-22 03:00:32

The end of chapter 9 is true, i've known it for while.
If you're single guy, drop porn as it harms your connection to women.
Besides it's much nicer to get it done for you given that you know how to comfortably ask politely.

2023-10-20 20:20:52

It's the journey that matters, not the destination.

2023-10-14 02:32:53

This is so wierd

2023-10-13 13:29:36

Back straight bro, eyes onto the horizon and you'll stub your toes onto the straight running tumble.
#nevent1q…pf05

2023-10-13 03:24:35

Holyshit, ikväll träffade jag valkyrian bruna,
Holy fucking shit vad du

2023-10-13 02:59:26

Fuck lissabon, du är en jävla slyna
#nevent1q…cyxq

2023-10-11 18:48:27

Hey i'm not sure if you're still around.
But I went through some old notes and it seems that one of them contained the solution to the equation.
I've gone a full 360 in in about 20months. Effin' A!
#nevent1q…h4vn
#nevent1q…9ycc

2023-10-11 00:52:39

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This is hillarious but made me lol, yes, it doesn't matter if you moon or Martian, wanna open up shop in Europe then gotta comply with regulations, kinda hope musk fails to respond, twitter gets euroban and nostr gets more relays/jewsers.
No wait, I immediately regret my words.

2023-10-08 22:18:36

Still reading the book, some parts are a bit painful, others reminders of struggles in the past.
Starting to wish I had it paperback and a marker.
That date the other day turned out to be a no,
am a bit bummed out about it but it's okay.

2023-10-08 00:56:47

I'm reading a book, first chapter was good. Don't spoil it for me 🙏
https://image.nostr.build/b1d2f1ac4e53600c6c47e82beeae658c698baf8ebd65dd465b5f73562cd70436.jpg

2023-10-07 01:27:11

OK, i'm allowed to post today.
my life is as usual a bit messed up.
But at the moment... it's 3am and while i'm not fully fluent in she-speak, that's not a "nope, nuhu, forget it" ))
Native translations appreciated.
https://image.nostr.build/9dd2cc3894173f997d3a80f2b3514c3b77f0737cdc66000579f60fef27385ad8.jpg

2023-10-01 01:46:57

Oh my effinng God, today I met a person who is not supposed to exist anymore, she was very sad once and I gave her a piece of my soul to cheer her up, I let her fall in love with me just enough to stand up straight.. She used that piece to destroy my life as a knew it...
I lost the woman I loved and truly believed to be the mother of my children, I lost my finances, and I lost my sanity.
The worst part is that she apologized for fucking up my life.
This is not just not fair.

2023-09-27 02:51:26

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Category follows already exists, it's called multiaccount.

2023-09-24 01:47:50

I'm waking up again, it was a good to rest

2023-09-23 01:13:14

Went on a date with the girl of my dreams tonight. Somewhere along the way I realized that the dreams belong to younger me. The girl healed me a little bit though,
I feel warm inside,
I wish it would last

2023-09-16 06:57:20

Damn it, another shit dream woke me up at 08:00 on a Saturday, where's point in that??

2023-09-15 00:57:15

Shit, i started having nightmares and trouble sleeping for 3 days now.
It's only September but the perpetual darkness that blankets my geolocation has already begun.
I gotta get out of here..

2023-09-12 20:55:35

If u feel toxic, go for a walk, snap a photo even if it sucks, post it somewhere or hang it on your wall and u gonna be good 🙏

2023-09-12 11:45:19

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Actually you can stop bitcoin, the exact same way that calendars get changed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5wpm-gesOY
It's just a question of time.

2023-09-12 11:14:53

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"Network Of Stigmas, Traumas, and pseudo Resolved issues."
That's how i'd sell nostr to my x, except I'm not talking to her.
In your case it depends, kids that age dont process information the same way, you were most likely fully focused on the emotional state of your parent - consuming the TV events only indirectly.
Depending on maturity, it can be difficult to balance dopamine rich news versus attention for their toddler.
If anything exceptionally bad or good happened to you directly afterwards, then it is possible to develop a false strong reaction to similarly percieved situations.
Bottom line, unless you took part in the actual events, then the impact on your psyche should have been minimal.
If you're still bothered by it in your adult life.
Then find the original news casts on some internet archive, watch them on a old CRT and once satisfied; throw the whole thing out the window.
🙂

2023-09-11 20:46:31

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Welcome to nostr :'-)

2023-09-11 19:17:50

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If you don't know the just try it and decide afterwards, what do you got to lose? 🤷‍♂️

2023-09-10 22:50:47

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Lol, i tried damus on a raspberry before, it followed some ginger kid and auto-boosted his every post.
I thought that was wierd.
Anyway, might as well call it a day.
Thanks for the sanity check bruh🤙

2023-09-10 22:38:37

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Searching by hashtags gives fresh posts.
Did you manage to fix yours?

2023-09-10 22:32:53

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But how am i supposed to troll people now???
I can't roll like this, #amethyst vitor pomodoro, Please help! 😥

2023-09-10 22:29:52

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?? 🥺

2023-09-10 22:27:50

Updated amethyst, now my global feed went silent.
What's going on??

2023-09-10 11:32:19

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Never give up

2023-09-10 11:20:27

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Captcha failed, better luck next time 🙂

2023-09-10 11:14:46

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Hmm, how should I put it, asking people to install a phone app is like frenching a blind date before shaking their hand.
Looking at the pictures, your app seems to feature a different set of characters, with random replies.
Quite psychadelic but a bit dark.
Did I get it right?

2023-09-10 10:29:23

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Bro. Trying to give intelligence to people via Apple testflight is not a good way to go.
Can you describe your app?

2023-09-10 10:23:09

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That's good, guns are dangerous and redundant.
What's that black thing with a red button?

2023-09-10 10:19:30

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Don't mean to be impolite, but you got some sort of tourettes thing going on there or?

2023-09-09 11:27:43

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If that's a profitable hustle then times must be bad.

2023-09-09 11:20:36

In old Norse, Saturday was named Lordayg
Which translates to "The day of the Soap"
Basically monday for vikings..
Comone Lads, I hate to be the one to tell you but the last pair orange eyes were sold off at an antique auction.
Go shower then #newprofile yourself.
#nevent1q…g7qk

2023-09-09 10:56:44

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Noo! What the heck, don't listen to that troll ☹️
You know how guys can wear the same shirt for a year and underpants if allowed to?
Well I found your frequent switch of costume a pleasent change to an otherwise dank network.
Please change as often as you feel like ✨

2023-09-08 20:57:01

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Atheism is a gateway drug to communism? Oh brother.
The real Alan watts was a taoist right?
Hence he knew the lesson of live and let live.
What you're preaching is a bit different.

2023-09-08 20:39:27

Point is, I'm out tonight, not quite feeling it, my low alcohol tolerance put me ahead of everyone else, what do?
(Bored AF, gimmie a quest)
#asknostr

2023-09-08 20:29:42

Hmm, it's just 22, it feels like 01. The weather is good but it's dark. So wierd

2023-09-08 18:54:09

Slow night, smooth grooves. The music in this place always hits the spot
https://image.nostr.build/e31efc67e0539efdf10371136b72bc971bffc6b707ddf5863db72de17438e532.jpg

2023-09-08 18:50:45

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At the moment i'm trying to figure out what makes a discoball go round.
Did you figure out something cool?

2023-09-08 18:16:36

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I'm 39, still figuring shit out, keep goin! 🤙

2023-09-07 22:15:14

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If it looks like a duck, sound like a duck, it's probably a duck.

2023-09-07 22:12:27

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Whoa, useful OCD! But I can't see the A, I saw an amethyst with a nostrich in it and a speechbubble,, and now I see a building or a hut. Or maybe some online shooter mmo. Colors were fine though

2023-09-05 19:42:52

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I see.

2023-09-05 19:39:56

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What were we doing before the invention of currency?

2023-09-04 17:22:45

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Not a fan.

2023-09-04 07:01:41

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I stopped smoking a month ago.
Wish I had done it sooner.
As for the latter, on and off, I think it depends on physical exercise, stress levels and maybe the position of the moon.
Do you know how it works?

2023-09-04 01:41:38

Good gosh, I trashed my own profile yesterday. Hard night =/

2023-09-03 02:16:01

Bro, I don't know how tell you this,
But everytime you #postr you gonna end up in #fapster
It's just the way it is..
Don't look at me, i'm just your alter ego in this.
Accept it respectfully and #reboot your habits with grace. Bring news from the IRL 🙏
#gnnostr
https://cdn.nostr.build/i/ad23528fbb18ac35854da29ccbbe8246c51b2ac8472e1272d9fb6ac5c2bea2cb.jpg

2023-09-03 01:42:53

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I see..
maybe it's just our female population's way to communicate.
I learned the lesson that some movies are better not to watch like S&C-movie.
99% pain in that one was self inflicted🤦‍♂️
But still..
Was it good end/bad end?

2023-09-03 01:31:44

I'm sorry bro, I don't know how to tell you but everytime you #nostr you end up in #fapster. That's just the way it is, accept it politely #reboot
#nevent1q…g9md

2023-09-03 00:40:31

I still haven't seen the Barbie movie, how was it? #asknostr

2023-09-02 19:47:36

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I can't be the only one to find this dark-key attractive?
Cute girl reading a book in suggestive stockings, what could possibly go wrong??

2023-09-02 19:19:19

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Took an oath of silence 😏

2023-09-01 22:54:50

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Thx for the shout out Bruh 🤙

2023-09-01 20:57:54

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Why don't you write a nip?

2023-09-01 20:53:43

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So tempted to answer

2023-09-01 20:53:05

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GBG 🤘🤙

2023-09-01 10:25:18

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Trevligt! 😁🤙
Norra lr södra?

2023-08-31 16:59:28

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I see, yeah, well most men are agressive due to natural testosterone.
Modern technology gives you a virtual outlet for frustrations and promotes a culture of secrecy where we all produce/consume more extreme content online than IRL. Which I think is stupid, you're alive, go explore until the spheres are balanced.
From a genetical perspective, yes you do have a unconformable point. Many men are commiting slow suicide.
**My general advice to guys who haven't had a woman in a while:**
- STOP BEING A WANKER!
- boost testo production through physical exercise.
- fast/always be a tiny bit hungry.
Careful it will cause you to devolve back into your primal/animalistic state.
But you will get laid/survive and you gonna have fun. If you end up in a cage it's on you. We're all responsible for managing our own animals.
Same goes for married women:
Stop feeding your guy. Replace screen time with take you out for a dance time. Try on something new. Communicate.
**My general advice for women:**
Beat's me, I'm a man 🙂
---
What you wrote about female psychology on rapeplay makes a lot of sense.. I guess an unstoppable neanderthal is a solid confirmation of desirability.
Never thought of it that way before... Thanks.
Double thanks for the vent 🙏

2023-08-31 00:40:30

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Then how would we learn without the guidance of silence?

2023-08-31 00:37:41

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Would that limit tags by tag-type or general count?

2023-08-31 00:35:19

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Mmm, a bit mainstream broken but loads.
D/w buddy there's still hope

2023-08-31 00:22:33

🏴‍☠️╮(︶▽︶)╭ 🏴‍☠️
#nevent1q…mqmj