jade

We only grow when we’re willing to sit with our own discomfort and learn from it 🌱

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2024-05-14 13:05:09

Society: You must cover your genitals at all times but wear clothes that represent your genitals because while you’re not supposed to think about other people’s genitals I get very uncomfortable when I can’t tell what genitals other people have.
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Genitals.

2024-05-09 19:28:13

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@npub19fc…ay3c One of the greatest indicators that I was finally an adult was when I realized I could buy, cook, and eat bacon whenever I wanted.
Enjoy!

2024-05-08 13:22:24

Happy Wednesday!
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2024-05-04 03:19:04

Cyberpunk is a warning not a goal.

2024-05-03 13:53:48

Barbie Girl in a minor key slaps.
https://youtu.be/aTHqfM3VDAU

2024-05-01 16:20:09

I want to lick boots because the hot lady told me too, not because I live in a fascist police state.

2024-04-29 19:50:11

Me at International Mr. Leather
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2024-04-29 01:42:00

“Your order has shipped.”
You just mean the label was created and the tracking number doesn’t work yet, right?
“…”

2024-04-28 23:35:13

Caught between “haha, get fucked fascists” and the reminder that simply using a restroom risks violence.
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2024-04-23 00:16:01

Folks. People. My friends.
“I’ve always supported the LGBs but not the Ts until more recently” is a super weird thing to say to a trans person you just met.
Just don’t do it.
I don’t want to hear it.
Just stop it.
Stop. It.

2024-04-17 20:42:53

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@npub1483…lv2w Sending this to my Buffalo born-and-raised dad who thinks he’s an expert on Buffalo wings.

2024-04-11 14:41:51

“Today’s affirmation: I’m hot and I’m bi. Making me mentally stable would have been unfair.”

2024-04-10 12:16:01

You got this. We got this. 💜
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2024-04-09 23:46:42

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@npub1k7q…3lrw Hello cutie!

2024-04-09 01:41:45

Gay marriage in the US has been around longer than the Confederacy.

2024-04-08 15:52:39

If you can’t handle me at my shitposting you don’t deserve me at my good takes.

2024-04-08 03:30:45

When you violate the seemingly small and inconsequential boundaries, I can’t trust that you won’t violate the big ones.

2024-04-07 20:05:13

Purple crest bitches! 💜
CW: selfie, eye contact
#TransJoy
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2024-04-06 19:27:23

The most punk thing you can do is care about vulnerable people in a society that actively discourages it.

2024-04-05 12:08:12

New super gay Orville Peck and Willie Nelson duet just dropped.
https://youtu.be/BirJMnMcfBs

2024-04-03 19:32:47

At least I’m self aware about it. 😅
https://media.hachyderm.io/media_attachments/files/112/208/954/451/404/563/original/ab1c4472ec3aa264.jpeg

2024-04-03 00:41:42

Stop trying to be liked by everybody.
You don’t even like everybody.

2024-04-01 17:51:40

Support your femme presenting she/they AFAB enbies and your masc presenting he/they AMAB enbies.
Support your cis she/theys and cis he/theys.
Stop fucking gatekeeping queer identities and pronouns you clowns.

2024-03-27 00:24:08

More trans stories like this please.
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2024-03-24 19:13:46

Watching X-Men cartoons and doing my nails on a lazy Sunday afternoon. The childhood that was stolen from me.

2024-03-24 13:46:33

Parents be like that's my emotional support eldest daughter
Parents be like that's the third parent in the family, my eldest daughter
Parents be like that's my parent, my eldest daughter

2024-03-23 18:32:15

Do you ever just stare at a word until it doesn’t look like a word anymore and ceases to have any meaning?
Or just me?

2024-03-23 16:04:06

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@npub1gmx…atcq I’ve had far more interesting academic conversations in the past year on here than a decade on birdsite.

2024-03-23 15:59:59

Feeling much better, now. Here is a wholesome meme for you all.
Remember: emotions are human. We live in a society that has taught us to suppress rage and sorrow, but that is the path to the dark side. There is no such thing as a “negative” emotion. Feel and express *all* of your emotions for a healthier inner world. Don’t let society shame you for your justified rage.
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2024-03-23 14:10:19

Wish there was a single support in my offline life that didn’t weaponize shame against me in some way. My therapist is the only one but we only talk to them for 1 hour a week.

2024-03-22 21:40:52

Another one of those totally cis memes I saved before I came out. What’s your score? I’m at 4 subclasses right now.
#trans #transfem
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2024-03-22 12:43:56

Good morning! You are loved. 💜
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2024-03-21 19:32:32

My therapist had to cancel this afternoon so I’ve picked three relatable mental health memes to share with y’all instead.
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2024-03-21 17:23:16

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@npub1lvw…fuem @npub1gmx…atcq We know you have issues with executive functioning, but here’s a 3 day window for you to call your psych for a new Rx and pick it up because we don’t allow refills or mail order.
K. Thanks.

2024-03-21 17:17:29

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@npub1gmx…atcq Oh big mood. A large part of my childhood trauma is my dad being mad because of me not doing/remembering something and him taking it personally. I had ADHD the whole time, my guy. Plus a side dose of being treated like an addict by providers and pharmacists alike simply for having an Adderall Rx.

2024-03-16 16:38:28

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@npub1k7q…3lrw @npub1mew…tau6 I use edibles every day and they absolutely help me communicate better and also do so emotionally safer as it numbs the feelings associated with trauma triggers. Sure, some people might call me a stoner, but it’s a tool in my toolbox and I monitor my use with my psych and therapist.

2024-03-11 12:06:01

It is a good time to remember that you are loved. 💜
Good morning!

2024-03-08 13:13:24

Your yearly reminder to not be weird to non-binary people on International Women’s Day. They aren’t women or women-lite unless they specifically identify as such.

2024-03-05 19:56:38

Sorry I skipped church, I was too busy practicing witchcraft and becoming a lesbian.

2024-03-05 18:27:16

People actually giving a shit about me instead of who they want me to be is is something I never experienced until I came out. I love the queer community I’ve found here and elsewhere.
But I’ll keep the bondage too, thanks. ⛓️
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2024-03-05 15:39:08

Evergreen: you aren’t responsible for other people’s emotions
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2024-03-04 13:03:15

He lets me hit because I respect her by using all of their pronouns.

2024-03-03 21:28:09

Protect your peace.
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2024-03-03 06:48:54

The first Pride was a riot.
https://media.hachyderm.io/media_attachments/files/112/030/418/858/063/293/original/4e52d13067550b83.jpeg

2024-03-03 00:43:53

Billionaires aren’t “self-made men.”
Trans men are self-made men.

2024-03-02 23:59:09

If you’re a trans woman, I promise you look like a “real woman” (whatever the cop in your head says that is).
You’re a woman, thus you look like a woman.

2024-03-02 21:57:13

We’re just trying to be ourselves.
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2024-03-02 11:20:37

Another day, another opportunity for joy.
Remember that you’re loved and good morning!

2024-03-02 01:18:03

The first step is admitting you have a problem. 🙃
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2024-03-01 04:28:31

I have questions.
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2024-02-29 13:38:15

Remembering that time when an “anarchist” I was actively organizing with in a community defense org called the cops on me during a mental health crisis.
Getting a little re-mad to be sure.

2024-02-25 21:20:27

Normalize having phases. Phases aren’t a bad thing. They’re an opportunity to find out who you are or who you are not.

2024-02-22 00:51:17

Post a picture that’s already in your reel that describes the trans agenda.
https://media.hachyderm.io/media_attachments/files/111/972/389/615/812/866/original/f25b9b8c46094bf8.jpeg

2024-02-19 23:49:44

I have gained one (1) self-esteem.

2024-02-18 14:37:42

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@npub1k7q…3lrw
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2024-02-08 13:07:58

This children’s show put eyelashes on one of the cartoon crabs at the bottom of the ocean to make sure you know it’s not a couple of gay crabs.
Eyelashes on a crab.

2024-01-28 14:05:28

It’s okay to be wrong. It’s okay to have your views challenged and to change your viewpoint afterwards.
It’s human to make mistakes and the sign of a growth-minded person is one that accepts their mistakes with grace, learns, and moves past them.
Mistakes aren’t a sign of weakness, they are a learning opportunity.

2024-01-27 01:35:35

Pretty disappointing that most gender reveal parties "reveal” genders I already know about. What kind of reveal is that? Where are the new genders?

2024-01-26 13:49:51

Take a deep breath and remember that you deserve respect. Even, and especially from, the one person it may be hardest to get respect from: yourself.
You are human and allowed to make mistakes. You are not perfect and can never be. You are doing the best you can with what you’ve got. Remember it and have empathy for yourself.

2024-01-24 14:01:02

Time for a new #introduction post. I'm Jade Pixel, a genderqueer #trans woman, #cybersecurity analyst, and storyteller.
I'm early in my transition and post a lot about it with some trans humor. I'm in the process of becoming the cyberpunk hacker girl I always wanted to be.
I’m a #Zen Buddhist with a little #witchcraft thrown in and endeavor to practice radical empathy every day.
Interests: #TTRPG #anarchism #privacy #feminism #antiracism #psychology #neuroscience #SFF #camping #solarpunk

2024-01-21 20:26:05

The only ethical use of a love potion.
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2024-01-18 12:40:18

The term girlfriend implies the existence of a girlfoe. This is a service I am willing to provide.

2024-01-17 23:56:01

Are there any sci-fi #trans coming of age adventure novels?

2024-01-15 23:25:42

Realized something about the way and my also autistic ex communicate:
“You’re stressing him out” while referring to the dog really means that something one of us is doing is bother the other and we communicate through the dog. 🧐

2024-01-13 15:07:20

Explained to my mom that her rich white suburban lady Free Group on Facebook where folks ask for and give stuff away for free is a type of mutual aid and is basically anarchist-style organizing and she and my dad started to get it???

2024-01-12 12:38:35

In case you needed non-toxic gym motivation this morning.
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2024-01-10 00:05:53

Legal name implies the existence of illegal name.
Legal gender implies the existence of illegal gender.
…
Be trans, be crime

2024-01-05 00:34:11

Mansplaining could have been called correctile dysfunction.

2024-01-03 17:37:38

Learning to block fast and often is really good for your mental health.

2024-01-02 21:12:34

Found my queer punk meme archives. #queer
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2023-12-06 02:16:02

I love him so much. 💜
#DogsOfMastodon #dog
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2023-12-05 17:10:01

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@npub1k7q…3lrw Folks need to understand that Christmas can be cultural for some folks as much as it can be religious for others. I have religious trauma from being raised Catholic as a queer person and don’t engaged with organized religion at all, yet spent time this weekend decorating a Christmas tree with my mom and listening to Christmas Jazz music. We contain multitudes.
Also, just don’t shit on other people’s joy? Not hard.

2023-11-30 00:07:09

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@npub19fc…ay3c @npub1y09…ktkj
Don’t take life too seriously, no one makes it out alive.

2023-11-29 23:48:29

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@npub19fc…ay3c Not really. Certainly not as an individual consciousness. I think all living beings are part of the Divine because Life itself is my concept of God. Living is Divinity. We live on after physical death through all of the actions we took through our life that nudged Life in a direction, however small.

2023-11-22 15:08:37

My mom, who misgenders me almost daily, just sent me this. 🤔
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2023-11-11 18:06:10

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@npub19p0…pgpm @npub1hsj…d2sx @npub18lj…80hq
It turns out I’m actually a girl but my favorite drinks remain whiskey on the rocks and strawberry daiquiris. Let people drink what they want. Cheers to Dave.

2023-10-26 20:11:35

My therapist sent me this after session today.
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2023-10-26 13:23:43

Overheard my dad on a business call telling a coworker his *daughter* helped him get Teams working. 💜
He regularly corrects my mom when she accidentally misgenders me.
He’s never intentionally nor accidentally deadnamed me.
…
A few months ago he asked me if I was “still going to be trans.”
A few years ago he told me my partner’s they/them pronouns were a sign of mental illness.
A decade ago he actively avoided becoming friends with gay people.
…
He’s 64. Never stop growing. 🌱
#TransJoy

2023-10-25 20:38:22

Rampant transmisogyny in leftist/progressive spaces is really easy to understand when you realize plenty of cis people with a pride flag in their profile still fundamentally see trans women as men in drag.

2023-10-02 18:22:38

Shout out to all the visible trans people in tech and infosec, specifically, who unknowingly helped me feel safe enough to start my transition.

2023-09-28 21:48:50

We aren’t responsible for our trauma but we are responsible for our healing.
This is a simple concept that’s really fucking hard to accept.

2023-09-08 02:20:56

He’s such a good boy. I love him. 💜 #dog #DogsOfMastodon
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2023-08-31 00:00:29

“No.” is a complete sentence.

2023-08-18 20:55:55

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@npub1qjr…kgt0 It’s called a partial hospitalization program and is designed for crisis management. It would be like a step down from an inpatient psych ward. Instead of being at the hospital the whole time you go to a doctors office for ~6 hours/day M-F for group therapy. It’s all voluntary, so group participation is much better than a psych ward (which I’ve done once, years ago, never again).

2023-08-18 20:01:48

Discharged from outpatient program. Several people told me they appreciated learning about trans people/ a trans experience the last two weeks. I think I was the first trans person that many/most of them had ever interacted with for any amount of time. Feels good! #TransJoy

2023-06-24 22:26:41

Starting DS9 S2E26: The Jem'Hadar.
For the first time.
I know I’ve read about the Dominion War on Memory Alpha before, but recall little. I’m guessing it’s about to heat up in S3.
#StarTrek