AngelVixen / is on Nostr

Flight Attendant and casual writer

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2024-04-05 18:12:07

Even the sunset is a beautiful Bitcoin orange here in beautiful El Salvador! https://image.nostr.build/80a861a22e4c57c7bd51d53535a89ba7131bbb8d00b60de7ead6583bbf07da4b.jpg

2024-04-04 19:37:09

Bitcoin halving party El Salvador. Royal Decameron salinitas resort. https://image.nostr.build/fe3404897fea02b253079d2206fb984ab0a7d28778c8b4dbe48e8510e112b703.jpg

2024-04-04 03:17:03

Bitcoin halving party El Salvador 2024 https://video.nostr.build/0946cfb865716ec3c019b2a27245ce5d6e033780c36f01ff6808cdc366a70346.mp4

2024-04-02 19:02:08

How freaking adorable are these? I think I’m gonna have to buy them https://image.nostr.build/cc44b10ff4e46e104c8949973332eb31b97395c63aa840b011feead3e5ccba58.jpg

2024-02-21 23:22:55

Chase the Girl
There is still a percentage of women out there who are, I would almost say, “trapped” in an old fashioned way of thinking, feeling, and longing. I know it’s common place these days for women to portray the strong, independent, successful, air of not needing a man or giving off this sense of a man being a bonus that she’s simply adding to her life should she feel the desire to do so in anyway. Let me premise this with saying that I am in no way advocating against this type of behavior. It’s important that all women (and men) be able to hold their head up in pride of their accomplishments, their strengths, their stories of survival through roadblocks, challenges, tragedies, devastation, adversity, biases, doubt, ridicule, and pure expectation or verbal assertion of the inability to even do so. There is a level of respect that does feel like it has to be earned as a woman in this modern world. I don’t necessarily agree that “earning” it is the right sentiment but nonetheless, it does feel like that is the case in many situations.
This strong woman “movement” does seem to show a possibly undesirable (again only to some) side effect in men. Remember anything I write is just a personal perspective with its own opinions and beliefs attached. What I feel like I’m seeing though is the cautious man. I wasn’t around 100 years ago and I cannot speak from personal experience but if I rely on whatever history my mind has recorded with story telling or memories of a childhood 30 years passed, then what I come up with is a different type of pursuing being done by men back then than what we see today.
I know much of this comes down to the roles women and men have and now do play in society and communities as a whole and the culture of said societies and communities. I am an almost 40 year old American who has lived her whole life in the states and only visited other countries temporarily, that is to say not fully immersed myself by living abroad any amount of time, AND also done almost all my traveling in English speaking countries. From this background comes my accumulated viewpoint of where I’m going.
Men aren’t the predators in the dating field anymore. They don’t just see a pretty girl, strike up a contract with the father and claim them (thankfully so). They don’t call on them and take them on long chaperoned walks to get a feel for their skills and capabilities of contributing to a healthy family life. They don’t attend debutante balls and vie against other men to win their affections. They barely even approach a girl in a coffee shop, strike up a conversation, or ask for a number for fear of coming across as arrogant or creepy. Men are shier, less forward, at times even awkward navigating the guessing game of what’s going to impress a woman and what’s going to close her off completely at the get go. They’re never really sure how far to take something, how fast to take something, when to back off and when to just give up completely. A lot of times the result is to leave the ball in the woman’s court.
That’s okay for a lot of women, possibly most women. It may even be preferable. For some of us though, we are never going to get anywhere if you show no aggression whatsoever. I fall into the category of an old fashioned girl. At least that’s what I’m going to call it. We as women, believe it or not, even in our 40s can be totally lost on the proper social cues of attracting a mate. Some of us are shy, or feel undeserving, or clueless, or scared. Some of us actually believe all we have to do is be pretty and then the men will arrive. For me this comes from a deep psychological reaction to how I am attracted to someone. If I were to explore my own feelings on the matter, I would admit that the process of pursing, of making the first move, of not relenting at the first sign of defeat, of going the extra mile and putting in the work all carries a carnal masculinity that draws me. Sometimes I turn it into a game, not always intentionally or even consciously where I try to put the roadblocks in because I want to see someone want it enough to not give up. I want a man to “be a man” and I know this term has no actual definition these days but if you use your imagination for just a moment we might be able to come to an agreement on what it is Im trying to get across.
This can be super tricky on the mans part though because there is a definite art to doing it successfully. It’s very easy to overdo it or take it too far. Sometimes a girl can be generally uninterested and not sure how to show it leaving a man to look like a fool or actually be annoying in every sense possible. I get this and I feel for you guys. The more we move toward equality, the less fair the world seems. It’s like every improvement requires a sacrifice of something else. Im just of the opinion that some of the sacrifices were more costly than the reward.
I don’t want to make the first move unless the first move is a smile when you catch my eye to reassure you it’s okay to take a chance. I want to be wooed and courted and swept off my feet. I mean yes, Im sure everyone does, but I want to be selfish about it. I want to just be pretty and wait. That’s not to say that Im not going to keep improving my mind, my skills, my perspective, my horizon in the mean time. Im not going to have nothing to offer when you do arrive and put in the effort. Im not going to leave you completely hanging but I may leave you hanging once or twice. All Im saying is don’t be afraid to go for it especially in a situation where you may never see the girl again. In that case what is there to lose? Don’t let the first setback hold you back permanently. Get back up and keep running. After all tag wasn’t just a game you played when you were a child in elementary school, was it?

2023-08-04 01:34:11

Stories
It was a story. A story was what I truly wanted. All this time day dreaming away and not realising it was dreaming I was doing. Every love song, every sappy romance, every time I felt deeply emotionally moved or in the moment I realised, I was caught up in the story. In the feeling I was being sold and all this chalking it up to familiarity, time passing, getting used to each other, newness wearing off was all just part of the story. I wanted the promise of the story. I wanted that ultimate top of the world, content in the moment feeling. Not really a different person or even a different place. I just wanted the story. I wanted the story to be mine. But stories exist to fill in the gaps that reality leaves. The story provides an escape. If you let it fool you, you become susceptible to becoming lost inside it before you can even separate yourself from the false reality. From the story. We have a tendency to pull others into the story with us. It takes a while to separate yourself sometimes but the ability to do so can be profound.

2023-03-29 11:58:10

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I feel the same actually. I’ve been frustrated by this a few times

2023-03-28 20:57:51

On another episode of life in the skies:
I’m deadheading on a flight (riding as a passenger on company time). We have landed and are in the middle of deplaning. A ”smell” starts to arise around the area where I’m sitting. A little girl about 5 or 6 says to her dad:
Girl: What is that we are smelling?
Dad: I don’t know
Girl: Did you make that fart?
Dad: Nope. I just made you
Girl: No you didn’t! My mom made me
Dad: I helped! I put in a whole 5 minutes worth of effort
Me: 😳🫣🤭

2023-03-25 21:26:44

Feels Like Home
Every once in a while you meet someone that you not only connect with, you feel like you’ve known them your whole life. You are instantly comfortable in their company, you get each other, everything seems effortless and natural. I think if I were to analyze it I would suggest that perhaps what is happening is this: We’ve known ourselves our whole lives and even though we may not know who we are or who we are changes, evolves, flows, develops, even falls apart and comes back together sometimes, we have been in our own lives for it’s entirety. Maybe other peoples choices and experiences have lead them down the same thought process, the same choices, the same conclusion, and when we meet them what we are really meeting is a little piece of who we’ve always known. I think what happens is that we see ourselves in someone else and since ourself is who we resonate most with, it creates a natural bridge between us and this seemingly amazing, out of nowhere soul mate we’ve run into. Life in general is birth, experience, and death. We eat and sleep to stay alive and all along the way we feel. When you boil it down and include the fact that there are an infinite amount of other humans to interact with, then you can kind of see how running into a few like you isn’t all that crazy. After all, the circles you run in, are the same circles the people you meet run in and it’s only a matter of time before one of them eventually feels like home.
-Victoria Nolting

2023-03-24 06:00:20

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2023-03-22 23:44:55

Beautiful sunset here at Fuego
https://nostr.build/i/nostr.build_d277f37b6f819fd71798190ac2f7100844d07f0dff157ca094f962120cf2e8c9.jpeg

2023-03-22 22:12:09

If there are any #nostriches still in town we are headed over to Fuego Brewing Company just up the road from Uvita. It’s a cool tree house brewery and restaurant that takes Bitcoin. See you there!

2023-03-21 21:46:57

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2023-03-20 22:13:28

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The answer was Nostr.build. I figured it out by myself.

2023-03-20 22:12:17

Bitcoiners arguing with shitcoiners. I said it: https://nostr.build/i/nostr.build_9e7527a43a923042fbeda6db5180dc05696df5687f307e20b3ead13ff18d8c39.jpeg

2023-03-20 16:13:40

Short and Sweet
It seems to me that life is struggling through the beginning, growing through the middle and reflecting at the end. It’s realizing that it was really just a story, your story and it wasn’t half bad. There were times when it seemed hopeless and futile but from that vantage point on the map, you couldn’t see the whole globe. It takes getting to the end to really appreciate it. Just like a well read book, the last chapter ties it all together. Pattern recognition becomes so prevalent that all the mysteries left unsolved finally unfurl and a sort of peace sets in. You smile and you think, “I could have done it different, but not really” and that realization provides closure. Sometimes you get tiny glimpses of this calm, right in the middle of the wild storm that is your life and those moments are the real treasures. Those moments are the clarity. Those moments will see you through to the end.
-Victoria Nolting

2023-03-19 15:24:00

I need help learning how to post pictures. Can anyone give me a walk through of the best method?

2023-02-09 18:22:33

On another episode of Life in the Skies:
Flight attendant goes to do the exit row safety briefing and a passenger holds up her finger and says, ”I’m on the phone.”
!!!
Well excuse me mam but I am required by law per the FAA to perform a safety briefing to all passengers in the exit row before we can close the aircraft door and push back from the gate. So if your phone call is more important than ALL these peoples time *gestures broadly across the plane full of passengers* then you are more than welcome to step off the aircraft to continue it. If you do in fact manage to finish before we leave, hopefully there will be another seat available for you since you’ll be unable to occupy the exit row due to not receiving the safety briefing. Now which outcome sounds most reasonable to you while you still have the opportunity to make a choice?