ninja8tyu

I do whatever I want.

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Last Notes

2024-11-17 08:40:17

why my piss orange

2024-11-05 21:09:41

i watched a few videos by a channel that was about people who quit their jobs often or don't find meaning in their work
it said that i shouldn't take my work so hard and seriously
then i recall someone here, or somewhere, said to me that a factory job would be easy, even a chimp could do it
and i recalled a video of a guy making a part from a machine from a youtube short
and then i thought about it a bit
the video said that it doesn't matter how well you do your job, your next jobs only care that you were in that position to begin with
and i realized that for some reason, some part of me believed hard work would reward me, despite the fact that i did more work, broke my back more, was tired more, that i was getting paid about the same as i was lazing around at one of the slowest job locations in the world
although i advertise myself as a hard worker and believe that i need to fulfill it fully so i don't get fired or replaced, at the end of the day, if my work matters nowhere, then the notion that i should work hard is simply idiocy
i could probably apply to mcdonalds, shouldn't be too hard of a walk, and get my money through there by working fast, since i naturally do quality work even when i slack, but i guess the big question is if i can survive it again after everything that's happened to me.
i'd rather try my hand at retail than go back to fast food chef.

2024-10-28 09:54:26

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i finished the prologue story character dynamics i want to write
honestly it's trauma flashbacks for me trying to write this part, but it's how i envision this story

2024-10-24 04:46:31

oh boy, can't wait to snitch on other creators and have their channel demonetized for not marketing more to kids or can't place ads on child-friendly videos
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2024-10-11 07:02:52

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alongside that, is there some other ???al that isn't easily known?

2024-10-03 07:14:04

i really don't understand people
they're only human when it's convenient for them, but otherwise drones

2024-09-06 21:46:14

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well seems like my screen has stopped flashing, but now my second monitor's resolution is dogshit for no apparent reason

2024-09-06 19:22:03

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reinstalled it a-fucking-gain but this time using the power of gravity to let it sit where it needs to
hopefully no more fucking flickers
also took out a plastic cover for one of the displayport slots i didn't intend on using, not sure if the plastic was getting in the way, but whatever, removed it just in case

2024-09-06 01:59:51

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no err-
RIGHT AS I FUCKING GO AND TYPE "no errors so far" IT FUCKING FLASHES BLACK THIS PIECE OF SHIT GRAPHICS CARD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

2024-09-06 00:37:25

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so turns out reinstalling the drivers did jack shit
so i took it out and put it back in again
this time, i laid my computer tower flat when i adjusted it in its slot and screwed it in that way
maybe installing a graphics card without considering gravity was a bad idea? idk but guess i'll find out if it fucking flickers even once again

2024-08-20 08:40:13

well today i learned that doctors actually may sometimes try NOT to save you if you're an organ donor to harvest your organs
of course, i do imagine it happening even to those who weren't registered, and that was the point made against such worries to encourage being one
but i never really realized that it's a way for these criminals to have a slight legal comfort to harvest organs

2024-08-14 06:50:03

i'm not entirely shocked my coworkers hate me, but i really wouldn't care if they did their job properly
but i'm unable to genuinely take to heart my claims that they're animals, and i'm disappointed and disgusted they choose to hate rather than improve
the complex network of shitfest this place is at is astounding

2024-08-01 04:38:30

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2024-07-31 03:33:32

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@npub1q5d…70ad as in the literal wojak simplicity? yeah. that's an easy ten bucks lmao

2024-07-23 21:36:52

is this a real vtuber in gotchard or a fictional one they made for the show
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2024-07-23 06:33:26

>Survivor's Guilt
:kekw: i don't even watch kancolle
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2024-07-20 04:20:18

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wanted to copy how he draws his mouths, did a simple sketch
https://varishangout.net/media/a40122ef-622d-4904-a671-38dc732c112b/tassha_cutemouth_rkgk.png

2024-07-20 02:19:54

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@npub1p4h…2q5v @npub144s…8kjg
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2024-07-19 21:44:36

holy :cum:
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2024-07-18 20:31:52

never thought i'd see ntr in a lego children's show but that was something

2024-07-17 16:07:30

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can i just toss out this entire fucking story/lore part of my bloody debut and just prepare the video for the debut.
i fucking hate writing. even when i limit myself to basic short stories and not taking it too seriously, it sucks.
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2024-07-16 02:25:48

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@npub1kas…w2th people with good taste buds

2024-07-16 02:02:49

a lot of food porn is getting uploaded
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2024-07-13 14:03:01

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2024-07-11 23:17:30

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all i have left for my debut is maybe working on the story and a few more drawings, or just skip that entirely, then recording everything, editing the footage, and finally planning the debut date
even for a bloody pre-recorded video debut... it's such a fucking pain for what is going to be literally twenty bucks per year at very hopeful best...

2024-07-02 14:43:26

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@npub1jj5…3am4 @npub1gx5…teuu could be that undercooked pork and salmon i ate a few months ago

2024-07-02 14:41:24

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@npub1gx5…teuu i thought long covid was just some weird bullshit either caused by the jab or confusing symptoms with other illnesses

2024-06-29 05:21:19

why are street shitters like this
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2024-06-28 12:01:16

is this some grifter vtweeter
what's the drama
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2024-06-28 10:07:46

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@npub1z5d…vwec still hoping i got a saline solution (my mom and sister hasn't suddenly died yet, at least)
or if not, i can somehow fight the infertility jab through being healthy and eating well

2024-06-27 07:59:59

damn. did they really chase this guy off the internet because he didn't finish his game fast enough?
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2024-06-27 07:26:55

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2024-06-23 12:42:33

this exploit only really works if your channel is already doing well and you're making good videos
i've done so many 6-10 hour streams early on and they do jack shit both in views and revenue
it's not exactly going to be game breaking for me when i've already done it and the game works just as much against me as it did then
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2024-06-23 00:12:24

guess i'll set my current to-do project a new vtuber model
gonna be a pain, but i got nothing better to do with my time
the thing i'm confused about is how others add shading and details to the artmeshes without it turning janky

2024-06-16 07:51:08

maybe i should make a cheap money grab game which exchanges digital goods for money to make easy money, regardless of how low it is, to get some passive income
https://varishangout.net/media/5ea7b77e-dd8a-4bd6-9e14-7cd48ae661d9/image.png

2024-06-15 15:11:32

there's a lot of 3dpd art being uploaded to gel for some reason and honestly i feel like that's just begging for an incident to happen

2024-06-13 03:59:00

i've had weird vibes from this vtuber, but what's with the drama from everyone else?
also yeah, what's up with the lgbtq+ complaining about catfishing when it's their identity
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2024-06-12 01:38:45

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@npub1p9p…gu59 how did it get that fucked up to begin with

2024-06-11 23:29:51

decided to get some pizza, been kinda craving some italian and tomato stuff recently

2024-06-11 08:54:23

what the FUCK?
https://varishangout.net/media/1055b1de-938d-46a0-abb5-5bc84bab00e7/GPwiOKRXkAARTxJ.jpg

2024-06-10 23:12:12

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@npub1c6n…ulja birds are probably one of the best pets to have

2024-06-10 03:19:23

can't feel sorry or don't believe evil is bad
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2024-06-09 22:16:52

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i'll live, probably
https://varishangout.net/media/76267aa9-d310-4d96-a85d-8927414ce8a4/Screenshot_20240609_171354_Photo%20Editor.jpg

2024-06-09 18:40:53

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@npub1guf…3lkv if mick ain't back and bethesda and their shitty abusive existence alongside their entire staff are involved, i'll avoid paying money

2024-06-09 05:19:47

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@npub1p9p…gu59 i'm not sure if i'm glad i haven't perished from the initial two jabs i got yet even after 3 years or waiting my inevitable death in a few years from now

2024-06-09 05:01:32

how do you survive a room that is a biohazardous ecosystem consisting of mold and diverse forms of fungi thriving on a drawer full of vomit but get fucked over by a virus
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2024-06-05 14:02:15

yeah time to stockpile
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2024-06-05 02:13:04

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2024-06-04 13:25:12

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@npub1jdh…qt97 what classifies as a good frying pan? good heat spreading? durable non-stick coating? shape?

2024-06-04 06:19:12

shit's going on on twitter and i'm not sure if i care
my ass hurts from doing 100 glute bridges and sideway donkey kicks 2 days ago while sick
i'm not sure if working out while sick is a good idea, but i did and am suffering from it
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2024-06-03 23:13:23

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@npub1p4h…2q5v yeah i'm sick
might be the common cold tbh

2024-06-03 14:31:25

i feel sleepy
finally... i don't cough

2024-06-02 05:22:30

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:pog_stare:
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2024-06-02 04:52:44

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sophitia is best girl material lol
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2024-06-02 04:44:14

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>harder time keeping their emotions in check
DRAIN MY BALLS, LITTLE SIS! MY COCK IS (LITERALLY) STONE RN
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2024-06-02 04:34:20

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sibling boobs
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2024-06-02 03:54:28

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being a siscon saved me from death
remember kids: fuck your sister to save the world
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2024-06-02 01:44:20

SISTER SEX LET'S GOOO
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2024-06-01 03:24:27

i'm slowly becoming racist against mexicans

2024-05-29 16:05:30

i can fix her
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2024-05-28 01:22:53

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2024-05-27 14:25:57

:sob_drawn:
https://varishangout.net/media/99303331-8197-4b34-bef6-2879ee33c412/410c96ef0b62d26fc0847009e988854b.mp4

2024-05-25 20:45:20

i haven't made enough money this year quite yet to justify buying a sex doll
expenses really fucking pile up

2024-05-19 06:14:17

i can't tell if i have mantits or if those are chest muscles actually growing from doing 100 push-ups regularly

2024-05-16 17:33:07

nice
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2024-05-14 05:24:10

>beaten and robbed people irl
just like a nigger
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2024-05-12 16:54:42

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2024-05-12 16:52:34

i didn't undercook this salmon, did i?
i know for a fact every surface on this thing is burnt and i kept it at a consistent medium heat to make sure it didn't burn and cooked roughly evenly the entire time, until the near end where i jacked up the heat just slightly until which it started to smoke and burn
it's clearly orange on the exterior, a little pink inside, smells cooked, everything looks fine...

2024-05-09 04:11:53

tfw i found out the answer personally by accidentally starving myself for months
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2024-05-08 03:13:57

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well fuck i'm dead
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2024-05-08 02:39:17

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@npub1kas…w2th i don't temp my meat tho

2024-05-08 02:37:30

how much pink in pork is undercooked

2024-05-05 21:18:05

honestly based
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2024-05-05 03:46:53

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60 squats, why do i feel so exhausted if i don't take creatine and protein regularly?

2024-05-05 03:42:30

i ended up ordering take-out again~
so being the fatass that i am, i must do 100 consecutive nonstop squats
and pray that i don't vomit, since i've only been drinking soda, and honestly that still takes energy to digest and i can only imagine how i'm going to vomit it all out
would get rid of all the sugar currently in my stomach acid tho

2024-05-04 00:35:09

nothing like an email from toydemon that says my points are going to expire in 3 days
i mean, it's not like i go out buying new onaholes frequently...
and honestly, i'd be impressed with the vitality of those who are able to fucking do that for a massive length of time...
i'd lose roughly 2 cents worth of points lol, and i can't easily use 'em because i'm living in a shared house

2024-05-03 20:46:30

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they didn't even season the burgers... what the fuck... do these people not care about making tasty food...

2024-05-03 20:45:16

my fatass decided to order delivery again
and they messed up my order again...
well... at least i get a few cents off, but still...

2024-05-02 23:35:42

hUma
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2024-05-01 19:51:02

federation's finally back?
nigger

2024-05-01 17:15:11

there's no way this is ai
https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/118317783
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2024-04-23 17:26:21

my roommate's worthless annoying cat somehow managed to get into my room and made a giant mess
this is why i kept her out of my room, but her persistence is going to lead me to become an zoosadist
i despite vermin whose existence is to be nothing but a nuisance that causes trouble for others
i was busy fixing up a fucking shoe rack and this piece of shit cat...
i have ideas i mustn't act on.

2024-04-22 18:43:17

technically i have all the time in the world to watch her stream today, but i'm banned and her first stream was her battling the settings more than the monsters lmao
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2024-04-18 14:11:43

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@npub1e2l…6cpk not everyone is good at cooking

2024-04-10 11:52:46

made a fucked up combination of scallops and spinach and it surprisingly tastes good

2024-04-10 11:13:48

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@npub10pt…k52g ecchi and craft

2024-04-09 02:16:05

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@npub1q8c…02w4 real shitty gift he gave me, do i get to return it

2024-04-09 00:45:52

sometimes i wonder why i'm conscious
when i was born, my body developed my brain, and some sort of consciousness would've formed eventually
it wouldn't matter if i or someone else were conscious as me
i feel like at some point early on, i chose to be "alive"
but knowing my ass, it wasn't as much of a choice than it probably was me stepping up because nothing in the infinite void of the universe wanted this baby to have a soul, and i said "fuck it, guess i'll do it"

2024-04-08 14:06:12

you know, if evangelion crossed over with blue archive, the characters would have an AT field as their halo

2024-04-06 13:45:01

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watched kamen rider gotchard, finished my food (all that's left is soda), and went to do some more push-ups, and my chest gave out
:') guess i'll just stretch my arms and chest, i don't want to do squats because i'm prone to vomiting from overworking myself

2024-04-06 12:45:28

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60 push-ups, food's arrived, but i don't have anything to watch to go with my food...
well, i guess i can finish up spice and wolf season 2 or rockman exe...
or i can try out that shota prince anime that everyone wanted to fuck

2024-04-06 12:43:58

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@npub1q8c…02w4 it's more like i never have time (and energy) to cook anything, and so even if i do buy stuff to cook, it ends up spoiling before i use it
a lot of stuff i have is expired as well lol

2024-04-06 12:32:40

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@npub1q8c…02w4 i do have burger patties at home, but they don't cook quite as well nor as fast as fast food peeps make 'em
i also ordered something pretty large in the morning for the workers there...
i feel bad for them, but i'm hungry and i'm still awake, so sorry, fast food comrades!

2024-04-06 12:24:11

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guess i'll do at least 100 push-ups before my fast food arrives as punishment for being a fatass
then it'll be a reward for my struggles

2024-04-06 12:19:43

json
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2024-04-05 20:50:24

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@npub1zwy…evtl do we welcome them with slurs or hentai

2024-04-05 19:02:21

beautiful
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2024-04-05 14:13:28

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finished watching plague dogs
nothing like a depressing movie about dogs escaping from an inhumane animal testing facility living a miserable life

2024-04-05 13:44:48

based
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2024-04-05 12:55:09

seems like youtube has measures to stop you from screenshoting movies
also i'm watching plague dogs again
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