Kimochi Whyui (Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?) on Nostr: i guess i should be taking every opportunity to spend my life force on working ...

i guess i should be taking every opportunity to spend my life force on working effortfully to carreerize and successman
i could very easily apply for some job openings using the skills i didnt want to learn but do use for employment currently
or could at least fake
or could at least get up to speed with good excuses
requires some committing to the bit, as they say
accelerate discomfort by 300% for 100% pay raise?
calculated lifespan impact... indeterminate. will still find ways to be a lazy penisman in alternate scenario.
impact to personal life? negligible. slightly worse but for reasons that most others find better. im built different (bad)

this is not a desire or a dream or ever thought of as a goal
not like i really have one in the first place so do i deserve to aim for goals
the goal is to smonk fat blunts and play old video games
any other action would take me further from that goal
but i dont find that goal to be especially powerful in determining my life path