🎃 Stark +053 (Fearful) 🏴‍☠️ on Nostr: Might repost posts from the newer key for a little while to help my old followers ...

Might repost posts from the newer key for a little while to help my old followers from here find me there -

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Recap of what's going on in my life to help make my recent posts less confusing -

Short version:

* I love a woman called digit who I only knew on the internet, it seems she's either killed herself or faked her death for the wallstreetbets chat room we met in
* I've been gangstalked for years by people who started out on reddit and they constantly attack me for "cyberstalking" her and not caring about age of consent bullshit
* These attacks are incredibly popular, beloved by the people, so my friends have all abandoned me and nobody cares or helps me find out if Digit is safe (to be clear, I'm 27 and she's mid 30s)
* I might be chemically lobotomized just for trying to find out if she is safe
* It might help if I can find people who don't see trying to find out if a loved one faked their death or not as evil "cyberstalking," who don't think age-of-consent opposers deserve to die, who care enough to do anything anyone has the power to do to help me find out if she's safe


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Longer version:

* I've been gangstalked for years by people who started out on reddit - search online for "DarqWolff" (former reddit username) or "DarqWolff rdrama.net" (username + site my fans hang out on)
* All my closest bonds have been based on worrying about the safety of women I met online, starting with my first girlfriend being a suicidal girl in a support group when I was a teenager, creating a snowball effect where I'm too scared to be distracted by anything except more fear and new women can't override my fake (according to Digit - wondering if I can prove her wrong) sense of loyalty to scare me more than past women without much worse horror stories
* This lead me to discover the worst horror story in the English language, the story of a woman in a wallstreetbets chat room calling herself Digit who couldn't get her PhD because she couldn't get past someone she loved dying while she was working on it, so she hated herself ever since and wasted her time with abusive people online, all while being the most amazing woman, capable of saving the world but instead suffering alone like this - and she gave me a chance and reached out to me when I was suicidal and she saved my life, and then she survived cancer but became suicidal herself, and her abusive friends lied to her about me and coordinated with my gangstalkers from reddit to character assassinate me and it compounded with me being worthless and she couldn't trust me or anyone anymore
* She deleted her reddit and discord accounts and disappeared about a year ago
* Everything I've done in life since getting to know her has been focused on her, nothing tops the significance of what happened with her. Everything I do is trying to impress her if she is safe, trying to find out if she is, preparing to avenge her and our sabotaged friendship if she isn't
* I usually talk about her all the time, but when I made this npub I tried to be anonymous and separate my work going after the military industrial complex (to save her world) from my work trying to find out if she's actually here (in the world I'm doing it for)
* I can't shut up about her anymore - 2 nights ago someone sent me screenshots of someone on discord claiming to be her brother saying she killed herself. There is no proof
* A mutual internet contact who knows her real life contact information once wrote her a letter for me, and he says she faked her death for the chat room people, but he offers no proof either
* After years of me worrying about Internet women, and the past 2 years of me begging everyone for help getting past wallstreetbets censorship to let her know her friends there have deceived her about me, my friends have pretty much all abandoned me and the ones left are unable to help me anyway and I'm not sure if even they can fully be trusted
* I'm trying everything I can think of - I'll try to make her story go viral so the wallstreetbets chat is flooded with people asking about her, I made an article about her on the wiki in case maybe she sees it somehow, I keep asking anyone who might have information
* I don't have many leads for finding out if she's safe - I have a possible address for a guy she dated online, he's in a state I have an arrest warrant in and one of my only ideas is to go fight him and get arrested and then proceed from there continuing trying to find ways to cause problems for people who hurt her and hope it leads to me finding out if she's safe eventually
* All of this fear and abuse has left mercy in my heart for only a tiny handful of exceptions in the human race, making it harder to get any help