Sedj on Nostr: I wouldn't rule it out. But I also don't hold my backstory as unique, except in its ...

I wouldn't rule it out. But I also don't hold my backstory as unique, except in its entirety.

But why would you ask? What I know about my father makes general sense without assuming autism. I think the same could be said for me.

Try this on. As emotional trauma during the exact period of maturation where individuation and identity are being explored and formed caused a protective suppression of my emotional development, allowing my intellectual development to proceed unchecked. I become extremely analytical, but have a lot of issues comprehending emotion and expressing how I feel. I can easily tell you how I should feel, but struggle to really experience the feeling.

For a while, I thought this could be a form of sociopathy or some disaffective disorder. I've come to accept it doesn't need a diagnosis, just ways to work with it to continue to achieve my goals, and use it to my advantage when I can. Same would be said if it was determined to be autism.

Have you dug as hard at trying to figure yourself out? It is very rewarding at times, frustrating at others. I wish you success on your journey!