mleku on Nostr: one of the key things to understand about Christianity is that the central thing you ...

one of the key things to understand about Christianity is that the central thing you need to understand is that what you fear, you must put it somewhere else, in the hands of someone else, who will carry it for you, someone who can carry the weight of the whole world

why is this important? because fear stops us from living, it stops us from learning, it stops us from having a future

> Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

- Phillipians 4:6-7

the other thing is understanding that part of that weight is something you simply cannot carry, and so you bumble along, under the weight of a yoke that you can't see, being driven like an ox to perform labor for someone who only wants to watch you suffer

you let go of that burden by saying "Jesus, take this from me, I cannot do this by myself"

last night it became lucid to me what this actually means, not just words that sorta wash past my ears and don't enter into my mind

i have been slowly poisoning myself because i can't carry that weight, for decades, and i'm finally fucking over it

sin is error, and we can't help but have some in us, all of us have errors in our code, and we can't see it properly by ourselves, and that feeling of doom that it's going to run you into the ground itself runs you into the ground even harder

it's been a thing for me anyway, today is a new day and the beginning of a new age of my life... in fact i am coming to my first Jubilee - in 11 months time, and it is past time to renew