Good question!
You find that out through a process of self-discovery. The first step there is to note what events in your life still hold sway over you. They might be things you feel ashamed, guilty, or angry about. You dive into those and ask yourself questions about what your agency was regarding those events (i.e. what you did to cause them), what made you feel those emotions, and how you would act now if those were happening right now with your current knowledge and agency you have today. Usually these will be events that still have emotional charge for you even if they happened over a year or two ago.
Next step is to notice your reactions to things happening in real-time. This is a bit hard to describe in this format, but the goal is to find any patterns in your behavior which might potentially cause you to undermine yourself, your goals, and relationships. You'll eventually notice patterns of behavior on longer time scales. These will clue you in on what it is that you unconsciously worship.
A somewhat easier path is to have someone you trust tell you. Other people notice these things much faster than we do ourselves, but take their input with a grain of salt, because they don't know what's really going on within you in order for you to exhibit a certain behavior. Their input is bound to be their own projection onto you, but will always come with a nugget of truth which is yours to find through introspection.
I found that looking into my dreams also gives clues on this journey, but dreams are a bit tricky to interpret for yourself. If I find the dream confusing I will ask an AI nowadays to try to crack open some of the symbolism of the dream. Usually that gives a good start, but it's rarely a meaningful, actionable interpretation. Handing the dream over to someone familiar with working on dreams is helpful.
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