Sarah SoupBox [Zap.Cooking] on Nostr: i think my problem is i have quite the foresight of the direction it could go and i ...

i think my problem is i have quite the foresight of the direction it could go and i look at the journey as if i am reading a book and i can see what happens - the good and the bad. And how I end up feeling about it. i am like, do i really want to be in this position? do i want to live a life i know the whole story to? maybe i think because i can see it, i am bored. or maybe it isn't something that excites me every day? like, i don't wake up and say oh my goodness i cant wait to start my day....i want a career that i feel super pumped going to. Like i want to geek out over podcasts and tarot, and interviews...and this business is the same thing i have always done. maybe its something i keep falling back on because i am too scared to do the thing i really want. its my safe thing. kind of ramble. just hashing out my thoughts in real time, i guess.