I’m trying to live from my own Autistic brain, rewriting the normal
world as I go, I believe this is what developmental delays are about, and even rewrite some “science,” my way, but I have to admit, I am surely still a child, still far behind where a fully developed Autistic adult might be if they weren’t . . . feral, if they grew up in an Autistic society and world. I can sense it sometimes, my arrested development, the childish state of my thinking, that while it’s been audited for some of the most Allistic noise I can’t really use, there hasn’t really been anything to replace it all with, that I will die from age before I have a mature Autistic mind, somehow.
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Embarrassing sometimes, sometimes I have to abandon an argument, shut up before it becomes simply circular, but mostly just frustrating. I have to be this way but I could have used some help at it, and people are probably out there somewhere who could have been that, but . . . I didn’t spend my life with those people.
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