Drink for me was a social thing. Never drank at home, but at work it would be a couple at lunch, and a couple after.
Then ridiculous amounts binge drinking on weekends.
I just drank socially and in extremes when that was what was going on around me.
Covid stopped it and I didn’t miss it. Due to never drinking at home, I just stopped, then never started again. Even going back to work didn’t make me feel like it.
I think I was lucky. For all the bad lockdowns did to people’s mental health, I came out in a better position than I went in lol.
I also think Bitcoin Twitter helped too - suddenly I was around people who thought drinking to excess was stupid, and I realised they were right.
It’s a similar story for me with opiates when young. I did it because my friends and their older brothers did. It’s what we all did and I couldn’t imagine life without it. Luckily I was what you would call a functional addict, so my life was complicated, but not unravelling in the extreme.
Early 30’s one day I looked around and thought it was stupid. No idea why other than having worked my entire life, I started to see what I could do if I applied myself to something for the future - friends went to jail or died, I changed my life.
Now I sometimes sit in amazement while I watch the grandkids. Nearly everything I do in life now is centred around making sure they have a fulfilling life with optimism. I know what being nihilistic does to you - I never knew that’s what it was back then, but with hindsight the lack of a vision for the future ( a better future ) eats away at your soul.
Being nihilistic is like having your finger over the self destruct button, and you have to learn that it is OK to win, and allow yourself to succeed without self sabotaging. Sounds silly to say, but I believe it. I live it.
Moid
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2025-02-12 18:20:24
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