streetyogi on Nostr: If I’m not working out, I get sentimental about my past, So I start to work out, ...

If I’m not working out, I get sentimental about my past, So I start to work out, just a little bit, and immediately feel better. Months pass, trainings get longer and I limit myself to not ‘overdo’ it. Now the sentiment hit again after months of 1h+ of daily trainings. That’s just not me and I need more. I’m at a critical phase now, will try to limit myself to 90 minutes of exercise. But sooner or later I know the moment will come were nothing else matters and 3h+ of daily trainings become the norm, and the rest of the day is reserved for discipline, nutrition, meal preparation, education on muscles, strength, flexibility, endurance…
I already have the feeling of reluctance to everything artificial, the same repulsion majority feels towards healthy eating habits and exercise. I need to find that balance point but struggle, it’s an eternal wave from one extreme to the other. How do I stay on that perfectly balanced middle point?