npub1c6kx4fmc9zrdqnxdk8wu0tqgx2x0nnf7a2gtgpz5zh7uhdygemvsjee5c5 (npub1c6k…e5c5) I went back and read your earlier post that's linked to this and now i understand what you mean better.
I've also been trying to boost myself more so your experience hit home for me. I don't want to have to boast about myself because that's not the kind of world I want to live in, but I'm trying to learn how to do that, because the alternative is unfortunately worse.