mk30 on Nostr: This morning, for the first time since the beginning of the fitness journey, I woke ...

This morning, for the first time since the beginning of the fitness journey, I woke up and thought "I'm gonna go jog, I'm gonna come back, and then I'll do the rest of the day." Which I consider a big win, because it means that my brain treated jogging as a default instead of an option (like, "should I or shouldn't I, I don't want to, but I do," etc.).

So I'm very happy that I had the brain on board this morning. The body is, of course, still struggling, but that's what the fitness journey is about. And the brain is really the important part: if the brain doesn't want, then nothing happens.

Also, here are the stunning cattleya orchid blooms that I get to see at a neighbor's place at the terminal point of my jog (the place where I take a breather and then head back) 😻. Seeing these orchids is my treat for getting to the terminal point.

As an aside, I probably have the CPTSD symptom called "mood dependent behavior", which means that you mainly do things only when you feel like it, and you have a very difficult time developing habits or getting yourself to do things when you don't feel like it. Working on the "mood dependent behavior" thing is the current big thing I'm working on with my CPTSD. Not easy, but I'm trying. Just a little bit every day.

#CPTSD