CJ54 on Nostr: journal entry earth date 2024-04-11. couldn't sleep. been working on database ...

journal entry earth date 2024-04-11. couldn't sleep. been working on database maintenance for the past three weeks. hit a blocker and feeling very angry for not being done yet. feeling inadequate and depressed.

restless legs. desire to enter combat. tried to sleep it off. 1 hour nap and right back to worry and anger. intense desire to punch a hole in the wall. slept for another 20 minutes.

woke up incredibly angry. thought about going to pick a fight with a stranger. settled on donkey kicking my cabinet.

Fuck, now my cabinet is broken.