leila :verifiedtrans::verifiedsapphic: on Nostr: I sometimes wonder if I project the hatred and trauma I have from these two onto ...

I sometimes wonder if I project the hatred and trauma I have from these two onto myself, causing me to just keep that weird mechanism of “turning into her” running, and making every passing day a depressing mess of hating myself.

I don’t want to be like the people who hurt me and my friends the most.