mleku on Nostr: after how bad i was feeling last night i finally have made the decision to stop ...

after how bad i was feeling last night i finally have made the decision to stop drinking alcohol altogether

the reasons were that red wine had allergens in it, and the acid and tannins were messing with my kidneys, the spirits were not so bad but generally i was mixing them with orange juice or schweppes mixers that have cyclamate and saccharin, which both are taxing on the kidneys...

but i picked up the tobacco again, and am finding that it seems to fill the same hole that was keeping me on the bottle so yeah, i am really actually swapping the booze for the brown weed... still annoying issues around burned throat but overall the less toxic for my weak kidneys so i will likely smoke for a while as i recover

very likely my kidneys have started to really get back to function as i eliminated red wine and coffee, i was getting frequent mild pain in the area of my kidneys for some time and now i'm about 3 weeks clear of caffeine, i don't have any pain any more

i'm not afraid of quitting the nicotine at some point in the near future, but i want to give some time to get adjusted to the lack of alcohol

probably the nicotine is also helping by having some suppressive effect on my appetite because part of what i was drinking for was the energy content, both the sugars and the alcohol itself, so having less hunger means i'm not craving for the carbs so much

i'm also dialing back my intake of fried potato chips too, i'm sure that the sunflower oil and canola oil was not helping in some way as well

i am feeling much more calm and focused now without alcohol or caffeine and i think the nicotine helps a little bit with the focus, so i probably will smoke for a month or two and then finally be fully straight edge