So because I don't know anyone personally on Nostr, I can say things from my real life!! I can be sincere into the void!!
I'm concluding a work trip to collaborate for my, typically entirely remote, job.
I'm a mech eng, and this girl I'll be working with very closely with on a project for the next 12 months is an industrial designer. This is the first time we've interacted in any significant capacity. We've met before but was very much in passing. We had significant chunk of 1on1 time this trip.
I'm having a very hard time trying to keep the relationship in my mind strictly professional. I've gotten the impression we're very compatible and conversation is VERY natural.
I'm really really wishing we had a disagreement, or butted heads on SOMETHING, some aspect to her personality or mannerisms or opinions that grated on me to keep my mind out of that realm.
I hate that my brain does this. It's not appropriate. I don't get any sort of rush from the taboo of the idea of workplace romance. Only anxiety. Its absolutely fraught with problematic circumstances. It's a bad idea. Hell we don't even live anywhere near each other. I've never been presented with this problem before, if only because I work in a very male dominated industry. I mostly likely won't even see her in person again until August.
And a big chunk of me KNOWS that any special treatment of her will come off as creepy or like an unwanted advance (even if I don't mean it to be). So I have to be very careful about how I conduct myself.
I'll never know the feeling of a woman in her shoes, being around dudes that probably have had similar feelings I have for similar reasons. I'm at least self aware enough to recognize this fact and how much it must suck to have to worry about men you have to talk with frequently, coming on to you.
While she may be very very pretty and checks my boxes of physically attractive qualities. I don't feel lusty about it, so at least there's that.
I've never lost that feeling of having a crush on a girl in school. Feels like that. I have several female friends that I think are pretty but I easily see them as friends and nothing more.
But goddamn it guys, all my life I've been a love sick FOOL.
Women of Nostr: help, talk me down plz, lol
PizzAndy / PizzAndy🇺🇦
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2023-03-03 06:33:44
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