JNL on Nostr: I just attended a gorgeous online vigil for ceasefire and mourning ... and truly and ...

I just attended a gorgeous online vigil for ceasefire and mourning ... and truly and utterly lost my shit sobbing. Still not done, I can tell.

I am fine, to the extent that any of us are, but I did not see this body response coming AT ALL.

But should have.

Tomorrow my words and my day will be for my Jewish friends and loved ones.

Tonight what I have to say is that some of us caught in the in between are also carrying a lot, and I think we forget that ... I forget that ... because we are constantly surrounded by so much incredible pain that is not ours. In many of our cases, 'on both sides,' though I hate that phrase and its flattenings.

Those of us who love (people) and who know (people) and who advocate (for people and their futures) and risk (reactions and response and retribution- again, from people) have had a hell of a year.

It is not a contest. Tomorrow, in my heart at least, belongs to a particular thing.

But this year: it has been hell.

Take care of yourself. ❤️ 💔 🕯️