It's wild writing my resume and realizing that the last 15 years of my life was lived in a mindless fugue that I don't even really remember. It was just a dysphoric haze.
I keep thinking "What I do is–" and then realizing that, no, I haven't actually done that. I went to graduate school for that, and I wanted to do that, but then dysphoria became too much and I just mentally vanished for 15 years.
Fucking hell.
Eldritch Cumslut of Cthulhu /
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