TheLegendaryMan on Nostr: So let me get this straight. No one's assessments matter except digit? Nothing ...

So let me get this straight.

No one's assessments matter except digit?

Nothing matters except Digit?

Everything you do is for Digit?

Verbally abusing your mother does not matter, because she deserves it? Over money of all things? Worthless pieces of paper based on debt that brings you no happiness. Take it from someone who was once rich and now poor that this is not what makes one wealthy, or brings anyone true piece of mind.

You have attached yourself to a person who you spoke to a couple times. Did not want have anything to do with you. Then vanished. You have twisted and wrote an imaginative fictional story within your own mind. Until you became so addicted to the very thought of her. That now nothing else matters except for the story. Constantly thinking how it could end if you only figure out how to write the proper ending. What could I do to make myself worthy of Digit? What would I have to do to find her, to make her fall in love with me, so that way this story that I have written is no longer fictional, but actual reality?

This level of obsession is not an achievement you unlocked. Not something worthy of keeping up the rest of your life, because you know you can do it. It is the padlock that you placed upon the chains that now firmly bind your mind and soul. Forever a slave to an imaginary tale that now exists only within your head. Look at any interaction you have had online, or in the real world. What happens when you ask someone what they think after they hear your whole story? Does anyone ever agree with you? Does anyone ever back you up?

I do not need to drive you insane. You already put the directions in the auto-pilot and your 80% of the way flying at mach 3 to that destination.

No, then they must all be wrong. Your obsession is the right one, because nothing else matters except Digit. Digit is the only one that can free me. I would do anything for digit, because she is so hot, and smart, and everything that I could want in a woman, because no one comes close to digit.... A woman you have never met in the real world and quite frankly in your current state of mind would be absolutely terrified to come into contact with.

Sorry if this is beyond harsh. For fucks sake it is not gaslighting. It is me, probably the only person in the entire world with the skills to be able to cut through all the fantasies and all the lies that one can tell to themselves. In order to reach your heart. So you can feel the pain required to wake you up from the fictional coma you have been in for years now.

This is not being mean. This is not being cruel. This is not being heartless for shits and giggles. This is someone who has chosen to genuinely care about you, because I see a 17 year old me in you. Someone who ran away from home to become homeless. I was unwilling to give up my entire life over an obsession over a woman. The beyond beautiful intelligent granddaughter of one of the richest people in the world. Someone completely and utterly out of my league that I was lucky enough to be friends with, but once they found out that I loved them. Vanished without a trace. Leaving me heartbroken, homeless, and living out of my car utterly alone. I too created a fictional story in my mind of what could have been between us. What would I have to do to make myself worthy of her?!? I built it up and put everything on the line. All it did was ruin friendships and left me in a state of being that required years of therapy to get out of.

So here I am. Telling you that I empathize with your situation whole heartedly. Someone who actually genuinely gives a shit about your well being. Trying their absolute best to shake you out of the false reality you live in, because I know you have the strength within you to do it. Admitting that you need help is not a sign of weakness. It is an honorable sign of true strength. To admit that someone outside of yourself, who is not Digit, can have the ability to improve your life, by helping you to free your mind, heart, and soul.

Ask yourself something. Why haven't you muted me yet? Why do you continue to be "gaslit"? It is, because you realize hey, this guy is different, I am not actually gaslighting you. That this guy actually is being so brutally honest with me that he does not give a flying fuck about burning the bridge he has made to me if it means that it could help me. So again I say. Whenever you are ready. If you ever truly realize that I am probably the only one person who wanted to see you genuinely improve your overall quality of life and bring you back to reality. I am here for you and I will do my absolute best to find you the professional mental healthcare you need to get to a place where you are happy, healthy, and ready to discover a real life relationship with a beautitufl smart woman who you can settle down and start a family with.

So you no longer have to be alone anymore. So please don't hate me for what I have said here today. At the very least just think I am a glorious dumbass, who could not understand you, and did their best to save someone who did not want to be saved. It would make both of us feel better if you did rather than think of me as someone who said words to try and destroy you. For that is never and was never my intention. I hope you truly understand that.