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played badminton after a long time, with my father. Need to take care of my health too!

the cold winds striking my lower jaw's incisors giving me the same sensation that I get when my insomnia anxiety is at peak.

I saw some gen z Indian content on yt, I found the upper class mates wear expensive shit. Its a turn off and temptation at a same time. I wanna look cool too, i am a gen z too, however I am not at all into clothes, I choose what I feel most comfortable with.

the girl in the video asks guys and girls to call their best friends from the opposite gender and confess (fake) that they love them. I binged watched all shorts by that channel.

Now that I think about it, why is everyone so focused on gf/bf and sex and stuff, ig there is a lot in life other than that, however I am a virgin so idk I might be missing out on something .

I am virgin by my choice, I don't ask out girls cuz either it's inferiority complex or I think I am not ready.

but I would like to have someone, someone I can rely on, someone that cares for me, someone that inspires me to live and conquer , someone to motivate me. However I ~have~ had those someone, but they were male, and I ghosted them, I want a girl, so that's probably Hormones and not some *lonliness illness*.

I can become a perfect partner, I have az seen a video guide for that by hoe_math on yt, really recommend it, check him. According to that, I will need :

### Investment

#### to give her time :
the carrer I choose should give me plenty of personal time

#### money :
high paying job :blobCat_reach_sad:

### social presentability as couple :
manners, clothes

### no other women :
ek to mile

### galaxy :
I need to make a general galaxy interests like kpop and stufd

### looks :
face - need to fix a lot, stop f*pping, and skin care routine
body - gym? no way, that alpha male shit, badminton is enough
height - already 6 feet (good for Indian)
voice - I have fair voice, I just need to speak more clearly and like a gentlemen

### masculinity
dominance - need to learn a lot, my submissive ass
power - bruh, need to interact people in order to get power, :( don't like interactions
confidence - I don't have, need to take notes on that
smoothness - rizz they say? tbh I am above average in smoothness, atleast that's what I think
dark triad - mafia stuff? not at all interested , I am unconsciously creating my own dark triad

but does all this shit even matter, It will probably take years to become a perfect partner , is it worth it? most will say yes, social validation, and that's what my fragile ego lusts for. Therefore I will do it, starting from now !

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