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我以前一直错误的认为，留学生应该是更开明的群体。但实际上，我忽略了一点，既得利益者的二代，是不希望做出改变的。跟几个朋友聊过这个话题，最终无非就是聊到在一个没有法制低道德的社会里可以快速聚敛财富。这无可厚非，毕竟人为财死。包同学也劝我在什么位置想什么事，不如赚钱把自己的日子过好。我是利己主义者，所以我不觉得这有任何错。
而我错的就是太过在意那些虚伪的嘴脸，满嘴仁义道德，却不在意历史是否充满谎言，国是否在鱼肉蹂躏人民，是否不同的声音被一个个的消灭。
你看不到的，便是不存在的，你好，便是这里都好。
刚去美国的时候，跟比我早很多年去了HK的一个青梅竹马女生因为政见不合，闹的老死不相往来，而当时，我是一个敢在关于Dalai Lama问题上交白卷的粉红……现在，我也终于明白了当年为什么别人会觉得我那么不可理喻。
从今天起，做一个随遇而安的人，不再焦虑，不再忧国忧民，一个人，一个民族，生死自有定数。轮不到我这个小人物操心。

I used to believe that International students from PRC are more open minded. But now I know that I’m wrong. For those who get benefits from the system, they would not or will not make a tiny change to it.
I’ve talked to several friends, we finally agreed on that in a society without legal system, nor high standards of morality, it’s easy to amass wealth.
My friend Bao told me, I cared too much about everything, the homeless, the stray cats and dogs, except get enough money to earn a high standard life for myself. As an egocentric, now I totally agreed with her.
And I don’t think anything above is wrong.
What I believe I did wrong is that, I paid too much attention to the hypocrites. They said they believe in God, but they never mind whether the history they were taught was full of bullshit, they don’t care if the government is bullying the people, they don’t care if all the media are corrupt and no other voice can be heard.
What they do not see, does not exist. As long as they are fine, the world is perfect.
When I first got to the States, I had a fight with a girl who I know since I was 7. She went to HK, a democratic society 4 years earlier than me. We fought about CCP so hard that we never talk to each other again. And at that time, I was a “little pink”(fan of CCP) who delivered a blank paper to my professor since the essay topic was about Dalai Lama.
Now finally I understand why she thought I was unreasonable at that moment.
From now on, I do believe in “carpe dime”, it’s non of my business anymore if others still believe in CCP.

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