pasjrwoctx👽 on Nostr: I am a #disabled man living in #poverty, my #disability is 60% physical and 40% ...

I am a #disabled man living in #poverty, my #disability is 60% physical and 40% mental, and as I get older, both of those are increasingly hard to deal with, each day I try to do what I can where I live, as part of my rent is to help out when and as I can, but that is getting harder and harder to do, this morning I pulled out the weedeater and did some light weeding, and planed on doing a little bit of mowing, but two things happened, one I was sore and tired and needed a break, then my landlord needed me to ride with him to look at something he was maybe going to buy and would have needed my help with, the ride its self wore me out, by the time we got back, with no success by the way, I had one other thing to go check on so I hopped on the 4wheeler and went to check on what I needed to, when I got back up to the house, I walked back to close the gate, and one of the little chicken coops my landlords have was flipped over from the wind and 3 of the hens where out, I flipped up easy enough, but some of it needed to be repaired so I got what I needed to make the repairs, but having to get down on the ground, and back up again really is becoming a real chore for me, anyways I got that dealt with, tired, I have yet to get any mowing done, that will have to wait for another day, mentally I am spent, between losing what little strength and physical ability I have left and not getting decent sleep nor having a decent diet, things just keep getting harder, and that causes my #anxiety to get worse which causes my #bipolar to cycle, which causes more lack of sleep, and I am in constant pain, and on and on it goes, Saturday March 22nd I will turn 47, and I sure wish by the grace of God, somehow I wake up to find I have raised $5million dollars so that I can buy my own property and build my forever home, and have everything I need to never have to worry again, and to alleviate the stress of my day to day situation, and so I can really just age at a pace that wont effect anyone or anything, because in my own home, if I cant or dont feel like it I dont have to do anything for days, weeks, or months at a time and no one can get mad at me. People seem to forget that I am disabled and they dont realize I am getting older, nor do they comprehend that I simply cant afford #food to eat 3 meals a day, often not even one meal a day, that I have no #healthcare, people in general expect me to just keep going like the energizer bunny, when the reality is I am an old broke down ford truck, that on occasion I can get fired up and get a few things done, but more often than not, I really dont have the gas to even stand up. $5-10-15 It All Helps, via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=…