This is hopefully the last post of this kind I’ll do. I am, for all intents and purposes done. I’ll still wish to unsee, I’ll still wish to undo things somehow- yet I’ll no longer be actively fucked up by my history.
The first bit of moving a goalpost in my “relationship” over two years ago was not allowing me any other kind of intimacy than sexual- I didn’t want it that way but also didn’t dare to speak up.
My relationship with sexuality was broken before- overall my consent regarding my body was never worth much or anything.
Now I’ve finally untwisted that knot, I’m no longer affected. And it’s nice.
Lily, Silly Marilion /
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