mleku on Nostr: i am in no fit state to do nothing right now lol... i hope i'm gonna be better ...

i am in no fit state to do nothing right now lol... i hope i'm gonna be better tomorrow morning because i have work to do

i have utterly wasted my whole weekend trying to get realy working and i smoked last friday just around midday

oh well, i guess that was expected, i did basically tell myself "well, you need as much time as possible so you will be able to work by monday" and then i was like "ok, we aren't going to buy any more cigarettes"

right now is the worst of it... i dunno if i'm bronchoconstricted or just in some kind of panic state, my back is tense that's for sure

can't seem to relax at all... and not in the "relax" way as in to get comfortable doing anything on a sustained basis

even this writing right now i'm borderline not going to lol