I really wish I knew what I did in my life (or past lives) to be deserving of so much emotional pain.
Sometimes I miss the antidepressants because at least then I didn't feel anything. No physical pain from being so hurt inside. No headaches from crying.
I love spending all my time alone, smoking alone.
Nobody ever texts me. Nobody ever calls my phone.
He doesn't even smoke with me anymore, but I've always felt like a second option..
#depression #sad #lonely #adhd #audhd #actuallyautistic
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