Damnit, if only I could run for the woods and never return.
Just helped my sister fill out forms for various shit. Turns out that even a low paid job amounts to 100k when you never pay for rent, your own food or... anything because daddy.
And my step-father regularly has the chuzpa to call me 'the spoiled kid' at family reunions.
Apart from fucking up university, I did EVERYTHING this empire of dirt asked me to, and yet... at the age of forty I have shit all to my name but a dying planet and fascists at my doorstep.
So, I tried to get outside to walk off my annoyance, and who do I run into? A mob of party people on their way to a gig of that Nazi band while loudly chanting songs about how all these women 'wanted it'.
In general, I love people. I genuinely believe nothing in this life is more important than the people we meet and our connections to them; and yet some days y'all make me cry.
How are there so many people who just don't see it? Do you lot not have EYES??!!?
It hurts, okay? The fact that I'd love to connect to almost everyone but apparently I am only interesting if I can be (momentarily) exploited or used as a punching bag.
And here's the thing with the woods: Even if I could flee, I'd go crazy because I need people around.
So yeah, I am annoyed.
Coffee Pinewood /
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2023-07-16 15:30:37
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