franny on Nostr: Healing. It’s been a while, catching a true, deep honest and fulfilled smile in my ...

Healing.

It’s been a while, catching a true, deep honest and fulfilled smile in my face. Smiling, it’s like a reflex movement for me. I do it almost everytime interacting with others, or when having a silly moment with myself. These were smiles and giggles for you, smiles for that silly moment. Not for myself. That smile I am talking about is not just a smile. I mean the expression of pure satisfaction. The moment you realize you enjoy something and it just feels right. A moment of alignment with yourself. Where you’re able to do big things for the world.

Sometimes I’m mad at the world. I am mad at the system, mad that they don’t give me and most people the chance to discover our own individual nature. Parents are unfortunately busy to maintain the living costs, kids packed in rooms with other kids getting teached stuff they don’t need right now. Becoming adults that don’t know what they want, feeling depressed because they’re so far away from that. Not only schools are distracting, many had and have to spend their time in war or disbalanced homes. Unable to just be. Yes, this world is so fucking fiat.

Nature. It’s not something to build and learn, it’s something to discover. It just exists deeply in yourself. And you can’t understand it, you can only feel it. Nobody can teach you this. You can only find room to experience it.

Instead, your curiousity is distracted with things you’re forced to do. Disbalance. Eventually, you will somehow find the right way. Maybe with 20, maybe with 40, maybe with 50 or 80. You deserve the ability to find yourself without losing yourself completely.
We all deserve to get enough room, a joyful environment to experience life and growth.

I’ve grown strong through the hard times, that’s what I need to survive in this world today. But I’d rather already be the person I am naturally, than wasting my life struggling. I’m very proud how far I came already. I want to make that possible for my kids.

The smile described in the beginning of this text, I realized it again. I managed it to get on the path of my personal alignment again.
People telling me I have to adapt. It is what it is. Fuck that, really. I may have to adapt a little, in order to break free, not to stay there, unhappy.

I wish you’re catching such smiles daily and that you aren’t getting consumed completely by the unnatural rythm of this world. Your inner self wants to be discovered, wants to be lived. Break free, go discover yourself, you deserve happiness and alignment and nobody can tell you otherwise. 💫