npub1zh…ggdq0 on Nostr: not denying that a person can have a very tragic past which led them to be ...

not denying that a person can have a very tragic past which led them to be self-destructive, emotionally backwards, narcissistic, whatever. like, it happens and the older you get the more you realize it's far more common than not.

but I have never in my life been capable of long-term liking someone who views sex like a sport and not something sacred. sorry. that a bunch of women who are equally desperate for their green cards fight over him is not my problem and is kinda pathetic tbh.

as an American woman, I would rather not ever have to have an interview with immigration. and perhaps this is the problem itself: my status is that important and that meaningful. in this place, you must understand that some men will say or do and be whatever you want them to be just so that they can stay here.

it leads to eye roll cringe level interactions which make me sorta sad tbh. like. I'm sad you weren't born in a country like America.

I find it extremely ironic that he was like, "I'm gonna give you a baby" and days later The Boss was like, "no anchor babies." but the seriousness of this to a young and quite immature man is going to feel much more like a game than anything else.

I remember one time being like, "you're not protecting me, I'm protecting you" and he was like, "awwww, thank youuuu." like. buddy how fucked up are you in the head that my saying that doesn't make you pause and think about what you're dealing with. oh, because you're used to it because of where you're from? no. you're not.

in fact, unless a man's got the advantage of total intellectual immersion in this drama, it's not gonna work out. so what else is there except him literally being a fuckboi? and in what world is that satisfying to a woman whose emotional acuity and depth is the very reason she wrote that song he allegedly told his friends was stupid only to find himself LONGING. like.

buddy. you're not the only one who fell in love with me from my song and decided to pretend like you ain't a fan. I can feel that shit. and I know that you and the soldier have a little competition because why was he soooo upset about a relationship HE ended in approximately the same fashion.

let me be clear, a guy who says he likes when girls cry is a girl in his heart. the other thing is that he's an idiot who wants to be the reason they're crying instead of just being a man. now, I know that there's this trope about rich, desperate old women who love these types of guys. WOULD DIE TO HAVE ONE AMIRITE.

well guess what? that's never gonna be me because I did the long term leg work of making sure my money comes with honor. men love that shit. it's like, "oh, she made her money by being a genius and not through a divorce or by being a hoe? perfecto."

this one knows that the only way to save face is to be like, "I broke up with HER." no. you didn't. I told you I didn't want to go to the bar with your gay friends because they literally all hate women deep down in their souls and so do you. and I'm out here looking for my husband. I've been through this shit already and yeah, it was fun, and I'm sorry to all the men who were hurt by this but fyi it's not that hard to find.

it's just rare that I respect a man at the end of the day because of the work *I* do and how serious it is to me and how seriously important it is to be with A Man Who Is Serious About Shit. does he have to be older than me? no. but he's at least gotta be well out of that undergrown stage where he thinks he's a man cause girls are chasing him.

like. that's gonna dwindle when I stop paying attention to you because even those girls just want the clout of saying they got to steal a guy I know I don't have a future with. congrats? ok. am I jealous? no, I see the girls you bag and they cute but they ain't me. all the serious men know this.

tbh. all this makes me think is that I need to just start phoning it in – not like, checking out while checked in, but literally pretending that I'm making a phone call to my handlers that I would like them to preemptively eliminate all fuckbois from the competition and only allow fundamentally serious men to even engage.

I'm so serious when I say that the police department has hotter, more serious men than the ones who romp around the city searching for green cards and pummeling through non-American p like bowling pins until the time comes that you meet the rare American woman who's decent enough to oblige you while you go all in on the deception.

no, he's NOT a bad guy, but I'm not crying over a dude who's being pre-Luigified; that is, being low key encouraged to murder the CEO of Girl Boss Incorporated, a job I don't even want!