BigBoss Luffy on Nostr: I feel at my end job sucks, manager is terrible however no one is hiring for my field ...

I feel at my end

job sucks, manager is terrible
however no one is hiring for my field in my area
no romance at all
I have a house and church commitments that keep me here
I have friends even in the area and a good relation with parents
but I just feel like a burden to everyone

I am severely under-paided.
I barely make it through the month.
I keep going from struggle to struggle.

I see friends from school get married, having kids, moving on in work, and feel like where did I fail.
what did I do?
I want a family, but it was stolen, why this punishment?

And the advice I give to others, "change your perspective on things to see how you are blessed", seems to be failing me right now.
It's worked in the past, but right now for whatever reason I just can't.

I am tired.