The biggest reason is that I know, from all of those other things, what active addiction looks like in my life. I don’t have a moderate or cut back bone in my body. So I have been drinking like 48 oz of coffee every morning, then looking for opportunities for an afternoon coffee later in the day. I have issues with migraines, leg cramps, dehydration, etc. which I suspect were partially caused by the fact that I was drinking mostly coffee until noon or later each day.
I have tried cutting back unsuccessfully. Having conquered the other addictions I am able to recognize 1) that I had crossed that invisible line into full addictions and moderation was no longer a possibility for me 2) that being addicted in this way was messing with my mental peace and spiritual connection. There is a lot of cognitive dissonance that comes from desiring to limit or stop doing something, then giving in and doing it anyway. Not good for the self esteem.
If you would have asked me a week ago I would have told you I still wasn’t willing to give up my favorite vice, coffee… but one of my mentors in recovery broached the subject and recommended this book, and after listening to it, I just had the overwhelming desire to be free from this addiction.
I’ve seen the value in getting that freedom in my life. It is absolutely worth the sacrifice. But nobody is ready until they are ready. I just hit a point of desperation and enough is enough.
Physically, I’m hoping to get rid of some relatively new feelings of anxiety, to stop triggering migraines, and to maybe balance out my minerals and electrolytes to get rid of horrific cramping in my feet and legs at night. The cramping may just be a side effect of cancer prevention meds, but I hope this helps.
Phew! That was a lot! Hopefully not TMI. 😂
KBNSC
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