Anonymous on Nostr: This is going to be my last note for a while. The last few years have crushed me. ...

This is going to be my last note for a while.

The last few years have crushed me. I’ve lost some of the most meaningful people I’ve ever loved, my body was ravaged with injuries, my dreams were abandoned. Too many hardships to list.

I reflect back on this poor kid who was so lost, so hurt, so heartbroken, and had absolutely no one or nothing to support him. I feel so horrible about how I treated myself in those times.

The last few months I’ve experienced such an intense realization of how fleeting my time is, and how much I gave up on myself and my existence. I threw in the towel. I stopped thinking about the future because I didn’t think I’d live long enough to see one. Writing this is filling my eyes with tears.

The last few nights I’ve been so overwhelmed by sadness. Overwhelmed with disappointment in myself.

If I had a discussion with a younger Anonymous, he would be so disappointed that all of his hard work would be thrown away. He would be so angry that I let him become who I currently am.

So I write this to you all, and to myself, that I am going to go away for some time, and hope to come back when I have taken the time to love myself and fulfill my dreams. Because I am not going out like this.

I love you. Be good.