honzapoboril on Nostr: I don't like sharing this things publicly, but I feel like I am in the good company ...

I don't like sharing this things publicly, but I feel like I am in the good company here. 🙂

I was raised in a family business. Very successful. Parents didn't had time for us, but it was paid of by access to the company and it's engineering team. I learned a lot there.

Our family was popular in the town, example of successful people, best employer, satisfied customers everywhere. Including teachers and kids in schcools, so I was always fixing their computes.

So me and my sister was expected to be at least similarly successful.

Today I think I am successful - good career, woman with good career, two clever kids, nice flat in a city center, traveling, ...

But I feel I have not earned it, but had very good starting position. I was successful only that I have not thrown it away, but I also have not used it's full potential.

This causes me little depressions which I am not sure if they are little or I just learned how to live with them now, but it could cause bigger issues in the future. (I am pretty good with manipulating my own emotions and mental state.)

I am also worried about my sister who have not found passion to the work and career, so she have issue with her self-confidence and I can imagine that she feels the weight of societal expectations more acutely than I do.