all the housekeeping ladies noticed how he lit up when I walked in the room. the other side was so gentle and sweet, but alcohol and drugs and lies do something to people. you go from friends and lovers to enemies with regrets. I saw it in his eyes when he left, but that's not the way it was supposed to be.
that kind of thing only happens once in a long while, displacing reality into another realm where differences of opinion don't matter and all those things you do to get under each other's skin are a great source of laughter until you realize that you might be in love.
then it hurts. then you see the ugly side. then the truth comes out and you watch that person run away after insisting so many times that honesty is what matters to them the most.
fact is, nobody was playing a role here.
the honest, beautiful moments make me wonder if fate is a real thing and maybe he'll come back someday a better man---stable, healthier, happier. the past doesn't matter all that much, nor do those mistakes people make when they're too scared to admit how they feel.
sometimes you spend years and years being so careful with your heart and then that one person comes along to remind you that it's ok to be a little wreckless.
I guess it's called a fling for a reason.
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