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A Poor Man’s Therapy:

Buy a burner phone and give it to emergency contacts.

Leave regular phone behind.

Packing list:
20 pages of computer paper folded in half
10 Blackwing pencils
1 Blackwing sharpener.

(Look up who used Blackwings and why.)

Pack a suitcase of 5 Tolstoy, 5 Dostoyevsky and 5 Charles Bukowski books.

Book a train ticket anywhere in the World that is 8 hours long.

On your train ride, read 30 pages of each book until you can’t put one down.

The goal is to get rid of a book as fast as you can that doesn’t keep your interest.

Stay in a hostel for 2 nights and get drunk one night with hostel mates. Buy the drinks. Ask about their favorite books.

Ask questions that you are genuinely interested in- nothing topical. They should feel slightly uncomfortable but compelled to answer if they’re interesting enough.

Hop around to different coffee shops reading and marking up your book with questions you would want to ask the author.

See how good you can get at asking genuinely interesting questions to strangers that make them glow.

When you figure this one out, you have the key to many doors.

Maybe ask them, “what are you favorite questions to ask people?” Or “how can you tell if someone is lying?” Or “did you ever steal anything as a kid?”

Write on a sheet of paper anytime you feel an original thought.

Never compromise on penmanship.

A hurried thought shows in poor penmanship.

Hurried thoughts are likely contributing to suppressing your uniqueness. Maybe you’re afraid to complete thoughts because there are repercussions at the end of clear thoughts.

Like action.

Sketch anything you see that looks fun to sketch. The shittier your sketches the better. Sketches are a wrestling match with your confidence. Not a drawing contest.

Sketch shitty sketches to completion and laugh at your shitty sketches. You are shitty at things and that is funny.

Write violently in sprints like Charles Bukowski does. Write angrily like Bukowski when it’s warranted.

Bukowski once wrote, “Find what you love and let it kill you.”

Write about love, hate, envy, jealousy and sadness like the Russians would.

Write without expectations that anyone will ever read it.

Terrify yourself with your own thoughts. If you’re terrified to write something then you must write it.

Enjoy the sensation of how easily you disarm your most terrifying thoughts with a sheet of paper and pencil.

Anything that’s angry is signal. Keep writing. Anything that feels lonely, sad or exciting write about it.

Think about purpose and a calling towards humanity. Spend some thoughts thinking of all men and women like they are your brother and sister in humanity trying to laugh a little more than they cry. Think about the power you have to make someone’s day.

Think about this passage and the power of responsibility:

“The wicked flee though no one pursues, but the righteous are as bold as a lion.”

Get it all out. Write, write, write. Write violently and anytime you feel original. Sketch and sketch but writing away from a screen is the therapy.

Once the feeling of originality and authenticity gain momentum, you’ll know if this is working at making you feel better or not.

You may not be needing meds. You may just need a calling to righteousness for purpose. Not self-righteousness or vindication but the strength from responsibility.

You may just need to feel empowered by the simplest tools contributing to overwhelming peace from writing, breaking current habits and being capable of eliciting a smile in a stranger.

Physical writing helps you feel confident in chaos. Feeling confident in chaos is empowering.

Write a chapter in your book that would terrify you if the World ever read it. Write about why it’s terrifying like you were helping a brother or sister.

It’s possible you don’t need therapy but rather you’re just become uninteresting to yourself and don’t realize it.

You might be the most interesting person that anyone has ever met. But you just haven’t seen your own thoughts on a sheet of paper in awhile.

What is it about you that’s like no one else in the World?

Write about it.

Your originality is desperately necessary to not only make the World a better place but to legitimately fight evil through the contagious originality.

How can you be sad when you’re needed so much for something so important?

Get to it.

Like now.