I kinda hand a mind-blowing realization while watching a show last night, watching a character do this too: in any social moment, I am usually spending ALL my energy trying to figure out what the other person might be feeling, and hardly any energy on figuring out what I am feeling.
Thanks to my childhood where attention was unpredictable so I learned to constantly be on alert for what my caretakers were feeling, so I could jump at a chance for attention, or steer clear when things were bad.
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