...then mindfuck š
(for courageous and especially french speaking readers, here's the thread elsewhere : https://x.com/tirodem/status/1836897207477227655)
Today was supposed to be a day of joy for these two reasons, but I wasn't able to process it correctly.
I usually doesn't talk that much about disabilities (physical or mental ones), but both are fresh to me, I kept for myself, I kept for myself, and.... suddenly, the breakdown. "La panne". End of the (public) line.
Speaking about disabilities, weaknesses and lack of social skills or social appareance can be a no go or become a definitive pitfall, and it's really infuriating go through this kind of seemingly wtf, inappropriate and unexpected crisis (not being able to talk about lovely things, really ?).
But, it's like that. That's a new thing for me, it's weird, it's strange, it's unexpected, it's sometime random, it's fresh (more than 30 years without this, and now it's my daily basis), but it's like this now.
I'm happy to be able to take some height about these issues, talk about them, take a step back and put the situation into perspective through the news :
- Louisiana was huge for me
- Working in Bitcoin ecosystem was huge for me
- Today's the 6th birthday of my book about Louisiana
- Louisiana took as a state a huge step in Bitcoin adoption & safekeeping
- I'm happy about everything
While I'm frustrated because I'm not being able to express myself properly about the whole thing (or at least "as good as I expected"), at least, I'm happy about these facts, and, in the timeline, they make me think about myself, my evolution and changes, for the best or the worse.
So :
- Happy 6th birthday for my book about Louisiana, "Tales of the Deep South"
- Cheer it for being orderable through BTC on-chain, Lightning & fiat ( https://pvh-editions.com/product/tales-of-the-deep-south )
- GG to Louisiana to keep on this way, after their House Bill 488 and House Resolution No 33
- I'm sad to have some kind of "mental strokes" during these kinds of events, I'm tired of having them, but I'll always have them, and it's good to be able to talk publicly about it
On good events and harsh trial, it became two sidequests : one for the retrospective meaning of these events and how it counts for me, and another for what I lack, what I long, and how much I kept it for mysel, for way too long.
And, so, in the end, HDB "Tales of the Deep South", lots of good memories for me, GG Louisiana for BTC (geaux geaux crypteaux), and I'm kinda glad I was able to bring back some humanity and honesty on my online avatar.
That being said, as everyone, Satoshi Nakatomo probably loved gumbo. Who doesn't ?
Take care, and don't be ashamed : it's ok to not be at the top from time to time. Even alligators can drown. The important thing is to bounce back.
